I Just Want to Buy Bras at Victoria Secrets!!!

I have always been on the smaller/average size, 5'4", 135lbs, 32AA, very active in competitive skating, practicing yoga, biking, running, occasionally weights. After having my 3 lovely babies, losing all my baby weight for the last time I thought I would go buy some new sexy bras. I was so pumped! I got measured and the lady brought me bras in that size. They didn't fit. ..This happened 3 times. Finally, after trying on an A cup and that didn't fit, I left the store sad, depressed and in tears. They just don't seem to make sexy,easy to buy bras for small chested women. Not to mention lingerie, dresses and tops just hung off of me. I broke down one night when my husband was fondling my breast and that was it. We found a plastic surgeon through a friend of ours. The initial consultation was overwhelming and the sizers felt beyond huge on my body. I found it difficult to choose a size I was comfortable in and wanted to go ultra conservative with the smallest implant they make. As time has gone by and I have gone back in to try on sizers numerous times, I have gradually been more open to larger sizes. I have another consultation with the nurse tomorrow to make a final decision. While I was pregnant /breast feeding I ranged in size from a 32AA (now) to a 36DD. I was very uncomfortable having a 36DD chest and am hoping for something in the 300-370 range. I will see how it goes tomorrow :)

I have been nervous about my upcoming procedure. Some days I am excited, some days I question if surgery is right for me. It's not that I am concerned about my current size. It is more the fact that I do not feel comfortable naked. It took me months to even look at myself in a mirror because of the way my breasts hang. It seems the more kids I had, the smaller my breasts got. I don't mind the fact that I do not have to wear a bra. I would really like to get the 310cc implants but as I am reminded, most ladies wish they had gone bigger. I have ruled out the 370cc however. I believe it will be too big for me and the look I would prefer. I think if I really want to play them up, I can buy an add-2sizes-push up bra. However, it is difficult to down play a large chest. I have a few friends who wear an underwire bra AND a sports bra on a regular basis. That is not what I want!!! I decided to go with high profile as there were more options for sizes and they suited my frame the best. Now I am trying to decide between 310cc and 340cc. It is not a lot of difference really. I am also trying to think long term and how I will look in 10 or 15 years. If they need to be removed, the smaller implants will also do less damage to the tissues and are less likely to sag over time.

I just caught a mistake in the first blog. I was 135lbs pre-3-babies, a size medium/8. I am now 123lbs, size xs/s/4 and done with babies. My children are 6,5 and almost 2. I am concerned as to how my daughter will perceive her mother as having had a breast augmentation when she is older. I have never been very confident in my skin but I do not want to send her the message that you can fix your flaws with surgery. I don't want her to know until she is older that this is why I have done something so extreme to replace my breasts (in a way). And I also want her to grow up accepting her body the way she is. I pray she doesn't get picked on as I did for having a small chest and friends nick naming my breasts "molehills". Some things just stay with you wether you want them to or not. I should mention my daughter (she is 2) is half Chinese so very petite as it is. The other thing I struggle with is that I am going against nature and Gods will. I am not an overly religious person but we still carry the belief that God made everyone this way for a reason, that we are all unique. I feel like I am messing with Gods ideal me. Does anyone else have these feelings on here? I feel like I can't stop thinking of boobs. All day, all night. I really want to know what predicted size a 310 would put me in vs a 340cc. I did have the surgeon order the 310,340, and 370cc. Ultimately. It will be decided on that day. Getting close now, only 20 days until my sx.