They Sucked Half my Butt out and my Legs Fell off the Front of my Thighs - Buenos Aries, Argentina

Thank you. Sadly, I've already done all I can and everything only makes it worse. I tried a fat transfer here in the US and that melted away in a few months. I tried gaining weight and that just made me look fat. And the very worst, is in all that trauma alone overseas, I literally experienced psychologocial death. Why was my life in peril? because I was insecure. why was I insecure? because my stepdad was always mean to me and only showed me affection if I were slim. My mother didn't protect me. My father abandon. To realize all this, isolated, helpless was quite disturbing. Then the guy I was dated insisted on coming to get me. He was so committed. I was moved. The intensity of the event deeply heightened my emotions. He said he loved me. And once I thought he was the kindest person on earth, he sodomized me and told me nothing had happened, that I just a loser who couldn't handle anything. He ran off and I didn't realize I had ptsd. My legs were ripping off the muscle. I tried to get help. He enjoyed having ppl think I was just nuts because he dissed me. That's what he told the district attorney after I told the police and the DA put me in jail for 15 days for a psych evaluation, then released me saying I can never contact them again or I will be charged with a crime. I've tried to love again. I am beautiful with no kids and men will chase me, swear they love me, and then distance themselves from me when they see, but right away, they still want to have sex with me, they still want to use me, and then they just say its my fault, just like the friend who came to help and sodomized me. I wrote a 300 page book about it, but it's so painful and traumatic, I feel I may die before it is finished. They guy who sodomized me keeps pretending he's a victim and I've never been heard. No one believes me except a couple close friends and they are tried of my unyielding sadness. It's six years and all worst nightmares are manifesting. Sometimes, things we can't even begin to imagine do happen. And sometimes things we can't recover from. Not alone. Not being raped when you've already lost yourself and are cut apart and left for dead. Whatever you do, don't leave the country.

I read your story omg I feel sad for you. That sound have never happened to you. However all hope is not lost. I'm sure you have family and friends that love you. You really don't look that bad. Maybe a tight lift would make you feel better. I hope you get some professional help for what happened to you.

Thank you. I used to think the body might replenish itself. For awhile I drank shakes made of Diatomaceous Earth hoping it would magically glue me back together lol, but it didn't. I worked myself into phenomenal physical condition and that made me very depressed because I have a six pack and beyonce legs but now cannot wear anything above the knee in public. I also can only wear lose skirts and pants because half my butt is gone and pencil skirts and stuff like that can't work. So don't go to parties anymore because I look wrong and feel alienated. I gained 50 lbs, went to 200, but that looked just as bad. However, I decided it's best to be slim fit because ripped muscles helps distract ppl from other flaws. However, when they find out, their jaws drop in shock and they run away. Thank you for your kind thoughts. Be careful with your precious self. Don't leave the country. And try to heal any pain you may feel in other ways too. Our physical vessels are such a small fraction of who were are, yet our culture puts so much emphasis on it.

I'm so sorry to hear this hon. I'm also living in a deformed body. Diet and exercise won't actually help us to heal surgical flaws. I agree that you need to focus on other aspects. Yes, it's a small part of who we are. Yes, it does seem to define us in other people's eyes. I think it must have been surgical errors. the [RS bleep] is a terrible thing but it wasn't that that caused this- the surgeons did. Now you can get work done to try and fix this when you are better. You can look to get butt implants to fill the gluteal area and a lift. This is what I'm looking at to fix my messed up glutes from unconsented areas being suctioned. Good luck!

English. I was getting an minor inner thigh lift. I had some cellulite on my hip. They weren't supposed to do any lipo. but they did crazy stuff during surgery. I'm not sure what. the never drew markings on me pre-surgery. sometimes I wonder if they stole something from inside my body. I have night-tremors. They covered it up by deleting records and closing down. when I saw myself mutilated, with my leg sewn to my vagina, I was alone and became disturbed. I was sick and the doctors disappeared for three days. a guy I was traveling with came and told me he loved me but that the doctors were right and I was wrong. I became very confused. then he raped me in the butt. Then my real butt went into my leg. Then my legs fell off.