Nervous and Excited!! Getting 450cc High Profile Silicone Gel - Bryn Mawr, PA

Wow, where to start! I actually wanted to start this from the beginning, a couple months ago but couldn't figure out how to do this. Lol. Anyway, I'm 34 years old, single mom to a 6-year old little mini me! Love her!! Having a BA is something I've been trying to do for more than half my life!! I've wanted this for as long as I can remember, since I was a teenager and realized I was stuck with this flat chest. It's been such an emotional journey, and words can't even describe it.

I chose Dr. Bottger YEARS ago when I had my very first consultation with him back when I was about 19. I knew THEN that when the time came, he was gonna be my guy!! I absolutely adore him, and his staff are amazing! Mary Jo is such a sweetheart and she does everything in her power to make this as comfortable and smooth of a process as possible. But Dr. Bottger's credentials, education and experience just put him above all the rest for me. I am totally confident he will get me the look I want. His results are BEYOND impressive!

Just a little background: I'm 5'5", about 118lbs, I'm pretty narrow in the ribcage, like 29", my Breast Width Diameter is 11.8cm, I'm about a 32/34 A and I'm hoping for a LARGE C, possibly D if he can fit it ;) I had my pre-op on 4/4 and after trying on a TON of sizers, I really liked the 400-425cc's so he said to add 50cc's to that since I'm going under the muscle. We wanted to do 475cc's but realized the implant is most likely not gonna fit and be too wide, it's 13.0cm and my BWD is only 11.8. So we decided on 450cc High Profile Silicone Gel, under the muscle, crease incision, since I have very very little breast tissue to begin with. And I chose the crease incision for optimal placement and creating the pocket. He feels this will be my best option, and my nipples are very small. I originally wanted to do the peri-aeriolar incision but I'd have to switch to saline and I really wanted the feel of the silicone gel, and to have them look more natural. So this is what he suggested. And he said to go with the bigger option since his number one complaint is that his patients wished they had gone larger.

I am SUPER excited, as surgery is only a short 5 days away!! But I'm also very concerned since I had my appt yesterday to get my blood work and medical history done. I woke up yesterday morning and noticed my throat and neck were very sore, I could hardly swallow, and I spiked a fever...LOVELY!!! The dr ordered a throat culture to rule out strep, but I just noticed I now have white bumps all over my tonsils :( I have to wait for the results to come back for her to give me antibiotics, and I'm worried I won't be well enough in time for surgery on Thursday :( I will be absolutely gutted if we have to cancel and reschedule!! It's been so difficult as it is making arrangements for this, without the help and support of my family. I have my close friend helping me and that's it. And I'm on vacation from work all week, so I won't be able to take ANOTHER week off if I have to reschedule. It's gonna be almost impossible to figure this all out again. I'm praying for a miracle!!! I have been waiting for over 15 YEARS to do this, and I haven't been sick ALL YEAR!! I can't believe I get sick like this right before the big day. I seriously think I worried and stressed myself sick!! So, just a word of advice to others, definitely take it easy, relax, take care of yourself, eat healthy and be careful before surgery! It's pretty ironic, too, since I just started taking my vitamin C about a week ago and THAT'S when I get sick! Go figure. Lol.

I'm gonna update as soon as we figure out what's going on. Until then, it's time to get as much rest as possible. Easier said than done, being a single mom ;)

I can't believe how fast the time is flying by!!! Well, the Dr called back with my throat culture results and said it was definitely STREP throat!! Go figure. Lol. But she called me in some antibiotics right away and I started my Z-pak Sunday. She said I should be totally fine by Thursday. And it's only Tuesday today and I feel about 98% better. No more sore throat, sore neck, no fever. I've been taking my vitamin C as well and drinking plenty of fluids.

But my nerves are shot!!! Lol!! I really didn't think I would be this nervous!! I'm so scared! And each day it gets closer I'm even more scared. I don't even know what I'm so scared of, I think it's mostly the anesthesia and being put under. And I'm worried about the pain afterwards. I have a very high tolerance to pain meds and I'm just scared I'll have to suffer through this. But I'm trying to keep my eye on the prize!! In just 2 short days I'll FINALLY have boobs!!! I can't wait to feel what that feels like! Just in time for summer :) I'm so excited to go bikini shopping and to not be "boob obsessed" all summer. It's gonna feel amazing!!

Well, I think I can finally relax and get some rest. I went nuts cleaning today, did the laundry and made sure I had everything ready to go for Thursday. Got my meds, some ice packs in the freezer, got my front zipper sports bra for my post-op appt, and even got some yummy chocolate protein shakes. Oh, and I got some antibacterial soap to use until the morning of my BA. I'm not taking ANY more chances. So, I think I'm ready. And I'm so thankful to have my two good friends helping me through this. They're amazing. Now I just need Thursday to hurry up and get here :)

Massive butterflies and anxiety setting in!! The hospital just called to go over my "chart" and give me some details and instructions for tomorrow! Eeek! Deep breaths!! Lol!!

I've been keeping myself occupied with my daughter. I think we've made about 5 "Rainbow Loom" charms already!!! From a turtle, to an Easter egg to Anna from Frozen!! Lol, anything to get my mind off this. But we're having fun and staying busy!! I think I'm more nervous now about all the details of my ride, caring for my daughter and that first 24 hours post-op! I'm sure I'll be fine. And THANK YOU everyone for the warm wishes!! I appreciate ALL the support!!