I can't believe I AM implant free. - Beverly Hills, CA

I am 46 years old and I have spent half my life...

I am 46 years old and I have spent half my life raising my 4 children. Now, 2 of them are away in college and the other 2 are not far behind them. I feel that it's time to work on my appearance and pursue my dreams before getting much older. I feel that by fixing my appearance, I'll have the confidence to go after my personal goals with gusto and have a better chance at making them come true. Maybe I'm just a dreamer... but I've got to try. I only live once.

I am and always have been, very insecure about my appearance. At 24, after having breastfed my first two children, I got my first set of implants. I went from 32AA to 34C. They looked great, no visible scars - just very pretty. However, since the implants were placed above muscle, the rippling of the implant shell began showing on my chest. So, at 29, I got my second pair, together with liposuction of the abdomen. The results were not good. Scars, dimples, asymmetry, complications, the works! I don't even want to go into details. It was bad. My crime, insecurity. My punishment, ugly... and I'm reminded of it every time I look in the mirror. No CC or rupture though, thank goodness.

I started perusing this site researching the latest liposuction, breast revision, explantation, breast lift, facelift, and neck lift procedures. Not looking to make changes to my look, just wanting a more youthful appearance. I had consultations with several PSs all over CA. For the breasts, I've been mulling over whether to explant or replace - all the doctors suggesting replace, of course. I definitely want to explant for health reasons but, at the same time, I want to keep my curvy silhouette - at least for a few more years while I'm still young looking. So now, I'm leaning more towards replacing and then, explanting in 2-3 years. And it's not because I don't like the results of the other women who have explanted. In fact, I actually think they look great au naturel. I love the way women look with natural breasts - small, big, low, high. It's all good! However, I am just not confident that I'll have such luck and look as well. I still may explant because I sooo want soft breasts that are just me and only me. I know that bad results in facelifts and liposuction are common too, I did months of research and I'm pretty confident with the PS I found. He does amazingly natural looking facelifts (hope so in my case, as well). As for the lipo, my mid-section looks bad already from age, weight gain, and oh, the botched lipo, too. I don't expect that I'll be wearing a lot of bikinis but I do expect to get a more defined waist so I'll look better in clothes. I have a second consultation with my doctor scheduled for October 16th, which is when I'll give him my final decisions on exactly what procedures he will be performing on me. My surgery is tentatively scheduled for October 29th.

Maybe I'll post before pictures - maybe.

Today I'm leaning more towards explanting because...

Today I'm leaning more towards explanting because I'm feeling brave about the outcome. I'm nervous about the consultation with my doctor tomorrow.

Felt nervous as heck this morning. Feel as though...

Felt nervous as heck this morning. Feel as though I need more time to mull this explant/implant thing some more. Called to reschedule my appointment but nothing is available until November 1. That pushes my intended surgery date back more. I'm leaning more towards explanting at this point. The only thing keeping me from making a definitive decisionright now is my fear of looking deformed if i don't heal attractively. I'm hoping that the doctor can do an internal lift when he does the lift.

Went to my second consultation with my PS...

Went to my second consultation with my PS yesterday. I was so nervous, I didn't sleep the night before. For some odd, mystical, psychological reason, I felt guilty for not wanting to re-implant. I fumbled around as I told him that i didn't want implants anymore and when I told him, I was ever so relieved when he didn't even flinch as he continued our consultation, now addressing the matter of how to achieve the best aesthetic results without implants. I am getting a bunch of other stuff done too as I mentioned in my previous post. The reason that I'm doing this is because I'm not getting any younger. I spent my younger years raising a family alone. It was hard and the wear shows on my face and body. I still feel young in mind but I don't look young at all. This is what I feel I must fix now. I hope I'm not making a mistake. Yet I trust that my PS knows exactly what he's talking about. He is sooo nice and I have such a crush on him lol. I'm very VERY nervous about surgery day. I can't wait also. I won't sleep for the next 12 days. The countdown starts!

I'm scared but sooooo excited! Come on Tuesday,...

I'm scared but sooooo excited! Come on Tuesday, hurry! x

Okay, I'm going into town tomorrow to stay at a...

okay, I'm going into town tomorrow to stay at a hotel in Beverly hills. My surgery is Tuesday morning at 7 am. I have taken last pictures of myself and I'm ready for the big day. I may muster enough confidence but most likely not. Bye till after surgery!

Checked into my beautiful allergen free hotel room...

Checked into my beautiful allergen free hotel room in Beverly hills last night. Got dinner from Whole Foods last night. Everything was great! I was scared as hell yesterday but it teeter totters between scared and excited so right now I'm excited. The doctor called me last night, his nurse called me yesterday afternoon, his office staff called me yesterday morning. My doctor's voice last night was so soothing and made me feel that everything was going to be A-ok! The only thing I'm uncomfortable with right now is that I am Soooo thirsty! Can't wait too drink water..:( On another note, this doctor and his staff have been impressing me very well. The doctor's name - I'll tell after I see my results ;)

.I kinda look like I was in a plane crash. I have...

.I kinda look like I was in a plane crash. I have drain pods all over me. I decided at the last minute to transfer fat into my butt too and I expected it to feel horrible but I hardly feel it. I even had him put a little bittty fat into my lip too. The nurse said that this is going to be an excellent year for me. That made me feel great, because I could really use a great year for once. The vicodin are working great. I felt nauseous this morning and threw up but it's fine. I'm already able to walk around a bit. My middle is svelte now. I have a waist! I can't wait to see my implant free boobies. I have normal boobies! Yay!

I'm feeling fine and I'm implant free! I love my...

I'm feeling fine and I'm implant free! I love my flat chest. The doctor gave me a lift and although we talked about injecting fat into my breasts, it didn't happen as he said that there was no space to do so. I have had a lot of work done and i don't regret it! I'm going to gave an amazing year. I tried to post pics on here but i can't. It gives the option to post photos and video from YouTube but i can't click on the photo option.

All this is too much on my body. It's very rough....

All this is too much on my body. It's very rough. You've got to be a very strong person to endure all this trauma to the body. . I don't think that I'll ever have surgery again electively. Wow! What a journey! Still no pictures up although i have been keeping a daily photo journal. Perhaps I'll post them later when I'm feeling better.

Just had my 8th day post op appointment. Got all...

Just had my 8th day post op appointment. Got all the stitches removed. Must say, i feel much better now. Since I've been through a rather large surgery, been having regrets since the healing process is so rough. I was so focused on explanting and liposuction that i didn't realize that the facelift and necklift were such big deals also. Well, it was really rough but i am finally seeing good things happening to my face. It's healing! And i LOVE my implant free breasts!

Here's some more pictures. These are front torso...

Here's some more pictures. These are front torso shots before and after. The before pic was taken on 11 12 12 and the after pic was taken today. I've run out of the pain meds and although I feel pain everywhere on my body, it's withstandable.

The only good thing so far is that I am implant free.

The only good thing so far is that I am implant free.
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I've known about him for many years even when I was researching for my second surgery. I didn't go to him because I thought, for some reason, that I wouldn't be able to afford him. This time, I guess I chose him mostly because he does great faces. I figured if I'm going to get a bunch of work done at the same time, I better choose a PS who does great faces. His before & afters for breasts and lipo were all pretty good too. He uses the Smart Lipo and does the donut incision (Benelli) lift, as well. Everything I was looking for. I guess we'll see just how good he is. At the other offices I consulted with, the doctors were aloof, rushed, untrustworthy, and one in particular, extremely UN-genuine. However, I felt very comfortable at my doctor's office.

3 out of 5 stars Overall rating
3 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
3 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
1 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
2 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
2 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
4 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
1 out of 5 stars Payment process
5 out of 5 stars Wait times
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Explantation of breast implants is a viable option for many. The procedure can be performed over time with pre-explant deflation or during one procedure. The skin usually retracts in a satisfactory manner.
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I spent over 2 hours uploading pics and posting a new update and it is gone...Gone!... because my computer sucks!! Sorry if you were curious but now you'll have to wait until the next time I find myself at my computer! Hope you're having a nice day though! Arrgh I'm mad... Lol..
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Hello ladies! Thank you everyone for your well wishes!
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I am so curious - how are your other surgeries healing? Did you post other reviews? That is alot of trauma for sure!
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No, i didn't post other reviews although i should for each procedure. I probably will later ( getting a new home pc, mine right now kinda sucks). I can't post pics from my Android so whenever I'm feeling up to it, I'll mosey on over to the pc and get some pics up. i had a pretty tall order for my doc to fill heheh ..surgery took nine hours. I had a browlift, facelift, necklift, upper and lower blepharoplasty, chin,implant removal, breastimplant removal, Benelli incision mastopexy, smartlipo everywhere, removal of a hideous lipoma onmy back oh and lip and butt fat injections. LOL, that's all! I seem to be healing fine. I have run out of the Percocet yesterday and today, I'm feeling all of the places he has worked on. Today, I think I'm 11 days post op, i wish i could edit my pics to say that the date of surgery is 11/13/12. My nipples and breass hurt a little bit in comparison to my head and body. My breasts are sooo happy! Thank you for asking. I'm sure that I'll post more pics.
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yay! you look great!
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Congratulations! Your boobies look great! Hoping for a speedy recovery for you :)
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Hi MomInCA! Your pictures look great and you must be so relieved to have all the stitches out! You said you got a Benelli lift, and I was wondering if they did an internal lift as well? Good luck with your continued healing!
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Hi all! Thanks! I don't think that the doctor did an internal lift. I don't think we were on,the same page actually. I wanted much smaller breasts. I've decided to go under one more time to fix some little errors by the doctor and lipo my underarms as I've asked for and, I'm going to ask to have my breasts reduced more. This time, I may go local. I hate waking up from general. What a horrible experience it was. I was freezing cold and i freelyfelt as though i woke from the dead. My lip and butt injections of my fat looks pretty nice :).
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just found your review. wish you a very happy healing! what size implant did you have removed and which type of lift did you get? would love to see pics! if you post them, your review will go to the top of the page. without them, unfortunately, your review gets buried way down low and that is the reason you feel unsupported! i am happy for your new freedom!
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Hi and thank you for your comment. My implants were 350 and 377s. I got the donut incision lift. I wish I had gotten a reduction instead. My breasts look very much like a lot of the other women who have explanted. I feel normal,and free. My body looks great even already. The doctor fixed my old botched lipo on my stomach and it looks really good. I'm very happy about it. I don't think I can upload pics from my phone and going to the desktop is a bit if a hassle right now. The nurse said that i didn't bruise much, which i attribute to the bromelain, vitamins c, and zinc before surgery.
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It sure seems like nobody on this site is very supportive for me accept 2 people. Not even the mediators have ever dropped in to say hello to me like they did to other members. Well, thanks to you few ladies for making,me feel welcome and supported me. Bye!
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Thinking about you!! Hope everything is going well!! :)
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Hi Jenna! Thank you so much! I think everything went well. Today I'm feeling better but last night was really rough! I can't wait until next week when I can see the results and share my experience with you. My boobies feel wonderful!
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Hey!! Good luck with tomorrow!! I know everything will go great!! Cant wait to hear about it!!
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Hey, thank you, Jenna! Here I gooo!
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Hey MomInCA!!! Just curious (I'm getting implants, silicone and under muscle) what was it like breast feeding children without vs with implants?? I am so excited to be getting my implants but I am worried about the effects they will have on breast feeding (when I do decide to have children, I'm 22 right now so I have a couple years)
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Hi Jenna! Sorry for taking so long to respond to you. Actually, I've been working on a response to you pretty much all day but I seemed to have gone on-and-on and finally wrote you a book on the subject LOL. So, unless you want me to send it to you anyways (which I still can, if you want). But let me tell you this in (as short a) short (as I can). I didn't have implants with my first 2 babies. I was able to breastfeed them to past 12 months each. It was the most rewarding and loving experience I have ever done. My babies loved it also. However, breastfeeding with implants was a NO GO! I tried pumping, squeezing and nursing. My breasts were only getting painfully engorged because they were filling up with milk but not coming out. It was very painful physically, mentally and emotionally. I was devastated that I couldn't breastfeed my babies! I've heard that some women have successfully nursed their babies but I don't know. It seems like fiction to me because it was so painfully NOT true for me. A story just like the one my PS (at the time) told me saying that I WOULD be able to. I know how you feel because I was there once too. I know it's frustrating when people are saying don't do it when you know what you want for yourself so let me say this - and I sincerely mean this. You have a beautiful body!!! Your skin - it's so smooth and youthful... and your breasts...they are ADORABLE!! I wish you could see in yourself what I see. You'll probably looked very nice with implants and after lipo, given your surgeon is good. However, keep in mind, you already look great and I bet your face is beautiful too, after all, you have youth and youth is always more beautiful and natural looking than anything man-made. Also keep in mind, your skin where your surgeon cuts, implants, sucks out fat and sutures up? It will never be the same again. It's like tainted. It's hard to describe because you won't really understand what I mean by that until after the fact. If you're gonna do it, do it but keep in mind, you'll probably want (or need) to replace or explant somewhere down the line. Hope you're not frustrated with my response. I only want you to be happy, my dear! Good luck beautiful Jenna! I'll be here for you if you need me :).
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Sorry for the grammatical errors. I kinda suck at this and I'm tired. Goodnight!
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WOW! THANK YOU! Honestly, that was the most supportive, but to the point reply I have ever had to ANYTHING reguarding my decision! Thank You for making your compliments, compliments I really appreciate that also... I dont even know where to start with a reply. I would LOVE to read the Book you have written me on the subject :) I had a consult. today and the Dr. told me that theres a 2-3% chance I wont be able to breast feed (caused by implants) however, I am very skeptical about Dr.'s answer to that question in general. I dont know what I would do If I couldnt breast feed :/ (I am an Early Childhood Education major so I know the importance of bonding and attachment, UGH) This whole experience is making my head spin, and im sure my boyfriends too lol. I do understand the concequences of having to explant, replace, and I will most likely have to do lipo again and the fact that I will have little scars all over me (I already have a few little ones from dirtbiking and such) so hopefully they will blend in... My biggest fear (other than being put under) would have to be to feel worse about myself than I do now because something I wanted done didnt workout as I thought it would (lumpy skin, loose skin, too large/small implants, crooked implants ect.) none of which I have seen from doctors I have seen however, theres always the chance :/ Well, please send me The Book and THANK YOU again for your Thoughtful response!!
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Wow! Thank you!! :) I hope you'll be very happy with your decision. Yeah, I don't believe that 2-3% either. It's definitely more. Yes, the bonding with the baby is awesome especially when mother and baby are making loving eye contact. I would probably wear scars from dirt biking kinda proudly because it's from doing something fun, adventurous and cool. But scars from elective surgery is different. You won't want to wear them proudly - at least I didn't. No matter how small the scar, I was still very conscientious and embarrassed of them. Haha, I don't know if you want to read The Book! It really does go on and on and probably full of repeats, grammatical errors and incomplete thoughts... but if you think it might help you, I'll send it on over but only by PM, k? Take care :)
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You will do fine how exciting now it's just the countdown to the real you :)
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Yes, as my 23yr old son would say abnormally huge boobs mom :( I have posted my befor and after pics
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My oldest son is 23 too! He doesn't mention my breasts to me though, heheh, ever! Your real breasts look so much better. Counting down to mine. :)
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Thank you ;) yeah Luke is funny thay feel much better too
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