Deflated, and loving my new size! 34C!
- updated 1 month ago
So my story begins in 2001. me: 21, young, stupid....
- 9 Jan 2013
- 4 months pre
So my story begins in 2001. me: 21, young, stupid. Impressionable. I lost 80 lbs quickly and my voluptuous DD's turned in to saggy little B's. I was also with a guy that really pressured me into always looking my best and this included having nice boobies. I had made quite a few friends who worked in the adult entertainment industry and I got to see their perfect boobies and I was like I want that for myself. My boyfriend at the time agreed so we booked a consultation and surgery a couple weeks later.
This is where my story is different from others. I LOVED my boobs. I felt so sexy and finally felt like I was worth something. I worked many jobs, and most had a direct relationship with the size of my breasts and the amount of money I could make... serving, bartending or whatever.
But here is the problem. a few years ago. I was play fighting with some guy at a house party, and he totally kicked my ass. Maybe it was just the straw that broke the camels back but since that day I have chronic neck scapular and upper thoracic pain most of the time. I have had MRI's X rays test after test that don't really indicate anything. My thought is that even if the implants are not directly responsible for my pain, carrying around the 5 to 7 extra lbs in front can't be exactly helping. Im tired of paying for special treatments, taking pills, complaining that I hurt to my fiancé, so at this point I am willing to do anything to get my life back.
Things have changed for me since I was 21. I have a degree and am working as a nurse. I am more self conscious about my breasts now than proud. but there is still a large part of me that struggles with this decision.
I am afraid of feeling like I am loosing a piece of myself, like the confidence I gained from the implant will disappear with their removal, that my fiance (who has been so supportive) will no longer love me the same way post explant. No one know that I have implants. When I tell people everyone says oh they look so natural, which they do because I am a larger framed girl. I wonder of this means that I wiill look extremely dis proportionate once I remove them. I was a 34B. I am now a 32 g-I.
Thanks for listening. Ill post pics soon :)
oh I should also mention that insurance covers the explant so if I just do that and noting else I wont have to pay. But I believe who heartily that I will need a lift. I have not had children yet so that is also something to consider ... ahh decisions descisions
SO I have a consult date on May 30th with a...
- 5 Feb 2013
- 3 months pre
So yesterday I had my first consult and I think I...
- 3 May 2013
- 27 days pre
My explant will be free of cost and my surgery date is booked for the 23rd of sept. I am excited! He wants to wait a couple months to do teh lift to see how my natural breast tissue settes and I am fine with this I think..
I just hope that getting the weight of my neck and back will finally allow me to recover. I am just so sick of the tightness in my neck back and chest. Can anyone tell me if these symptoms resolved post explant (whoever had these symptoms?) It just feels as tough my trapezious is always solid as a rock :)
Anyway I am excited. I have another consult at the end of the month but I am pretty sure I am going with this Doc. Very kind and respectful. The only thing I did not like was that they had no pictures of the word these doctors do and the assistant said its because each case is unique and individual and pics tend to leave more questions then answers. I don;t know if this is canadian thing or what, but I figure he will do the explant free because heathcare will pay for it. He also told me that he will remove teh anterior part my capsules because if you leave them in the tissue has a hard time healing against itself as it is 2 smooth surfaces and this tends to lead to seromas and whatnot.
So thank you again ladies for your ongoing support. Without this group, I dont think I would be doing this.
xoxo Much love and healing energy sent out to you all xoxox
A second opinion......
- 23 May 2013
- 6 days pre
Dr #2 is suggesting that we deflate the implants as I have saline. He wants to do it in the minor surgery clinic (covered by healthcare). and then wait a month to do the lift and implant removal. He is suggesting that I have only specific parts of the capsule removed because he is concerned about blood flow to my nipple and he wants to remove only enough that that would re-adhere my tissue to my chest wall.
He is concerned about this because i had a areolar lift with my implants so my nipple blood supply has already been compromised once.
I would love to hear from anyone who has opted for the deflation prior to explantation. How was it? what kind of bras can you wear? are the shells uncomfortable? can you see teh distortion through clothes?
I am at a loss for what to do. I really just want it over and hate that I have to do it in stages, but he really is concerned about blood supply and preventing tissue death and whatnot.
This doctor specializes in breast reconstruction and all he does is breast surgeries so I trust his opinion. there was also no pressure for me to sign or schedule anything. He just asked me to simply think it over.
I am stuck at what to do. My husband seems concerned about the deflation. I have assured him that its just saline but he still feels like letting the fluid drain into me is a bad idea. I just can wait until this is all over. I am so tired about worrying about all this stuff. Any and all support would be appreciated!!
Thank you ladies xoxo
Sept 26th .. get here already!! .. excited!
- 13 Aug 2013
- 3 months post
2 weeks to go! I can't believe this is really Happening!!
- 10 Sep 2013
- 4 months post
I am super scared of how I am going to look afterwards. I have an amazing supportive husband but I am so big busted now so I know there is going to be a lot of extra skin to deal with until my lift, I am liftig one month later so I guess I shouldnt complain. I kinda just wish I was on the other side already because this anticipation is driving me nuts! If my back and neck feel better after deflation it will be all worth it and I will just have to accept how I look at the end of it all. This is all just very interesting stuff. Thanks for listening ladies! I appreciate your support!!! Im gonna need it after I get rid of these bad boys.. in more way than one :))
Peace and love
Tomorrow is the day!
- 25 Sep 2013
- 4 months post
Deflated!!! Loving my new size!!
- 28 Sep 2013
- 4 months post
34 C's the money shots!
- 30 Oct 2013
- 5 months post
finallt 100 percent implant free!
- 6 Nov 2013
- 6 months post
I got to keep my old implants and they are huge. can't believe they were inside me for so long. they just seem like so foreign to me now, but I must say that I also had some sadness with them being 100 percent gone.
as for my breasts, they feel a little more loose without the implant shell keeping the tissue in order but I am hoping this resolves in time.
my doc is reccomending I wait to have t he lift until I have kids as we are planning to start trying in 10 months so he advises me to wait until after. this whole experience cost me nothing as it was covered under healthcare which shows how good my doc it cause he made way less $$ by not doing the lift.
anyway ladies thanks for listening. updater pics to come.
Amazing bedside manner, gerat surgeon. Rated on of calgary's best. Specializes in reconstructions. I'll let you know more as this progresses. I just know of him because I am a plastics nurse and have seen his work on many patients on the unit I work at. His work is known to be great and he stands by it meaning if you don;t like it he will fix it!