Getting 6 Week Old Implants Removed!!! Allentown, PA

I received sub muscular silicone 421 cc implants under the muscle a little over two weeks ago. I am a person that cares about my health. I am a single mother to a 6 year old wonderful little girl. I eat organic even though it leaves me practically broke, I belong to a local farm co-op for organic produce, I research all of my health and beauty products as well as cleaning products for chemical safety before I buy/use them. I spend most days signing email petitions for chemical safety and regulation. To make a potentially long story much shorter, during a life crisis which lead to a lot of anxiety and loss of appetite, I lost a significant amount of weight which made my already small and sagging breasts completely sagging and flat as pancakes. I felt hideous, undesirable, and like a woman who was not deserving of love. I would like to point out that these are not emotions I would normally feel about myself while not in the middle of a total crisis/nervous breakdown/unhealthy interaction. In an attempt to find a quick fix for how I was feeling, I rushed into breast augmentation surgery. I did almost no research and put almost zero thought into how having implants goes against everything I believe about living a natural healthy life as well as loving myself on the inside. I had my first consultation on May 4th and my implants were in May 27th. I took a loan that I really couldn't afford to take but it didn't matter because during my crisis I had convinced myself this would make everything better and therefore did whatever necessary to make it happen. About a week after surgery I had an allergic reaction to the steristrips. Before I knew definitively that this was the cause for my inflamed, itchy, red, swollen incisions, I spent a large amount of time researching implants. Something I should have done before having a major surgery to put them into my body. I quickly realized that getting them was a huge mistake. Initially I had guilt, I felt like a horrible mother for putting myself at risk for significant long term health problems all to feel better about my physical appearance. This is not me. This is not how I live my life. I knew almost immediately after that they needed to be removed. I have scheduled to have my implants removed July 7th. This past week has been one of the most difficult weeks of my life. I have cried more than I have ever cried in such a short period of time. My decision has nothing to do with my surgery results or post surgery stress reaction. My breasts already look great. This is about reclaiming my sense of self worth and self love and to begin exploring why I did something like this in such a manner in the first place. I know that for some woman breast augmentation is life changing and has many positive effects. Everyone is different and has their own reasons for doing things. I feel so much relief knowing that I am getting them removed and that I can have what I feel is my natural self back. I will admit I am scared of undergoing another surgery/anesthesia and possible post surgical complications as well as the fear that even though I will have only had them for 6 weeks, I still may endure some long term ill effects. If I could I would have them removed tomorrow. I feel as though this will be the longest few weeks of my life. I can't wait to have what I feel like bags of toxic poison removed!!!! Any support or feedback would be much appreciated and helpful.

So what I dreaded happening has finally started. I am less than two weeks out from getting my implants removed and the fear is setting in. I am worried about what they are going to look like post op. The reason I got them in the first place was to fix drooping and severe deflation so I know that I am not going to have results like some people where their breasts look great after Explant. When I initially had my freak out and decided to get them removed, I so badly wanted them out that day because I feared that the longer they were in the nicer they would look ( I only have had them in 4 weeks) and the harder it would be to say goodbye. That is what is happening now. I wish I would have explored getting a lift but when I got the implants I wasn't in a rational or logical state of mind and therefore didn't explore any other options. I am not having any health issues so far I just know that in my gut I feel as though having them is not safe or right for optimum health it's just so hard to give up something I have longed for most of my life. I put such a financial burden on myself by getting them that I wouldn't be able to afford a lift even if I was a candidate. I spend so much time online trying to find reasons to justify getting them removed to keep myself feeling like I am making the right decision but it is sometimes hard to because it seems everyone is trying to ram down your throat that they are safe. Definitely does not make the emotions any easier.

Less than 1 week and my implants will be gone. I know I have only had them for 5 weeks, but I can't wait to comfortably sleep on my stomach again. Having them feels like that feeling of "I can't wait to get home and take my bra off" but then you can't. I'm am still terrified of what I am going to look like afterwards. I am 28 but my breasts were in a very sad state prior. With that being said, I still can't wait to be able to squeeze my kid as hard as I want while I kiss her little cheeks. Hugging people was so much better pre implant. These are things you don't really think about before getting a "boob job"