30 Years Old, 2 Kids, 34aa, Hoping to Be a Full B - Wichita, KS

Well, after much research, thought, and waiting, I am going to have a ba! I tend to overanalyze things so in my attempt to curb that and process my choice to undergo this surgery, I'm going to blog my experience. Plus I think my husband and sister and mother are tired of hearing me talk about it!

So a bit of background on me and my choice on why I'm having this done. I'm 30, with two beautiful children. I breastfed both of them despite my initial lactation nurse telling me my boobs were too small. Well I showed her, I became a human cow and didn't even have to supplement a drop to my girls! I am pretty petite at a height of 4'11, 103 lbs, and have never had a chest to speak of. And after bf-ing my second daughter, what little I had shrunk up. It's a pretty sad state of affairs I'm dealing with currently. As many of you can attest to, teenage years sucked as everyone is getting a chest but you, and what little I got didn't develop until I was 16-18. Rough. Then as I started wanting to have children discovered I have PCOS, a syndrome that prevents you from ovulating. So as if I hadn't struggled enough with female identity issues, now I couldn't get pregnant on my own and had to become a human science project to get pregnant with both my daughters. Finally came to terms with that eventually as we decided to stop having childrenafter our second daughter was born. Mother nature had one more sucker punch for me. I accidentally got pregnant when my second daughter was about 9 months old. That's right, the girl that can't get pregnant on her own when she wanted to accidentally became pregnant. Devastatingly though, I lost that pregnancy. After I worked through that loss, I decided, you know what, I want something to happen on my terms. I want to do something for me that will help me feel like a woman, not a girl with fertility issues. That's when I got serious about a ba. I've always mentioned wanting one but never thought I could have the courage, the money, etc. So never thought it would go past that point. At this point in my life though, I asked myself why not? I deserve to call the shots on something for once, I've always wanted this, I can afford it, what was holding me back? With my husband's support, I scheduled a consultation and a couple months later scheduled the surgery! April 9th!

My stats:

30 years old
4'11
103 lbs
34aa

Think I've decided on silicone under the muscle, 250cc. I can't decide what profile though. Any advice and education would be appreciated!