I went to my pre op yesterday, when i got there my...
I went to my pre op yesterday, when i got there my head started spining i started to freak out alittle bit. lol.. i have wanted to do this for so long and now it's really happing. i started to ask myself is this what i want , what if i don't like how they come out, should i spend this much money im mean i do have 3 kid's. my husband was with me so i told him how i was feeling, he looks at me and said you have talked about this since i have known you, you waited untill we where done having kids and we have saved the money there is nothing holding you back if this is what you want. Well i started to think he's rite if i don't do it i will be mad at myself i can't let fear hold me back anymore. also reading all the other lady's story's on here has helped me alot. Most have the same fears's as i do so i know im not alone thank you all for sharing your story's.
6 Days away and it seem's like it's all i...
6 Days away and it seem's like it's all i think about rite now. Yesterday was not a good day i was so stressed out over it did'nt sleep well the nite before having dream's of very heavy rocks put on my chest. The crazy thing's your mind will do to you. lastnite was a much better nite i didnt let my self think so i got some sleep, and i feel so much better today. I'm so glad to be getting this done for my self, but i cant wait untill it's over so i can stop worrying about the what if's.
4 Day's away im starting to get really...
4 Day's away im starting to get really excited, i am still a little scared no where near what i was a few day's ago. I'm deep cleaning the house today and drinking a glass of wine to relax. I'm going to get some last min shoping done tomorrow that way i dont have anything i "have" to do the day before. My 1yr old got up with a cold yesterday i'm alittle worried about getting it, i feel bad bc she love's kisses and i can't kiss her, she is and has alway's been very lovable. I know that some If not most ps will still do the surgery if you have a small cold, but mine will not :/
2 Day's away, to be honest i'm not really...
2 Day's away, to be honest i'm not really sure how i feel, i guess kinda numb if you know what i mean. I started to feel like i was coming down with a cold so i called my ps to see what i should do he told me to take cold ease to fight it off finger's crossed it works.
I cant belive my surgery is tomorrow, im so...
I cant belive my surgery is tomorrow, im so excited and scared i could not sleep lastnite. I was up at 1am moping my floor's i have all hardwood floors i wont be able to mop them for while after anyhow. Hoping today go's by fast i have thing's to do keep me busy my bedding make a few meal's for the wk ect. My hubby tell's me to take it easy today that i need rest i'm sure he's rite, but it's hard to do knowing i wont be able do keep up on my house work for a while after.
I forgot to tell i am stuck between 350 and 400cc i want a full C i,m 5'5 135lb 32 Acup if that. i did the rice test and the 400 looked alittle big on me. So im still not sure any advice?
Well today is the day. Ihave to be at the surgery...
Well today is the day. Ihave to be at the surgery center at 830 my surgey start's at 10. ill update after and let you know how is go's wish me luck.
Well surgery went well i was not in pain i thought...
well surgery went well i was not in pain i thought i would be, but im sick as hell. so far im pretty happy.
My surgery went well it took alitte over 2hrs. i...
my surgery went well it took alitte over 2hrs. i got 400cc unders i remember waking up crying and yelling that i was in pain the nurse, doc, and guy that put me to sleep came up to me saying it cant be that bad i need to calm down. i dont know if i dreamed that or what i just remember thinking that they where being really mean to me(im still not sure if this was real). anyway's thay gave me some pain med's and i felt alot better as far as pain. i dont remember alot of the day other then being sick. the 2nd day i the pain again was not bad at all, but i was still getting sick i couldnt eat at all. i think it bc of the mads. today is day 3 and i feel much better not as sick not in alot of pain and im not taking the meds as much. i was taking them every 4hrs now im taking them every 6-8hrs.
Day 4 post op i am off all pain med's. I was...
Day 4 post op i am off all pain med's. I was just telling my mom i feel to good to be just 4 day's out of surgery. If you are thinking about getting a BA but scared of the pain please dont let that hold you back it is not as bad as you think it will be! I did not have a pain pump i just keep up with percocet, i was told to take it every 4hrs and i did. I'm not saying it was pain free im just saying it's not the worst pain in the world. I have a 3 kids my last with no pain med's that was worse pain then this. At this point i have no pain just tight n alittle sore. I still cant lift my kid's, and still have to sleep on my back.
I think they are starting to drop they are slowly getting softer. So far i think my doc did great gob they all ready look really good i just have a small fear of a dubble bubble bc he had to lower my crease he said just a tad.
6 Days post op im feeling pretty good my hubby and...
6 Days post op im feeling pretty good my hubby and i are going out for lunch day. It will be the first time i have left the house since the surgery and it's much needed. i have had crying spell's for no reason i think its because i cant do everything im use to doing yet like brush my hair, shave my leggs, number 1 thing i cant pick up my kids. I know i will all pass soon i am just use to doing thing's my way and on my own.
Ok enoff of the pitty party. My breast's are droping and looking really good, but still very firm i cant wait till they soften up there are even time's when i can hear them and i really hope this passes. My sister has saline and said she never heard her's. Has anyone had this go on with there's?
9 Days post op. I was feeling good so i pushed my...
9 Days post op. I was feeling good so i pushed my self way to hard yesterday. i guess i "forgot" i just had surgery, i went all day cleaning and cooking i didnt sit down for 5mins. I'm paying for it today i can hardly move, and im home alone with my 1 and 3yr old. Ladies i learned just bc you feel alot better does not mean you are so take it easy and dont push your self or you will pay for it.
On the up side i had my 2nd post op yesterday my ps said every thing look's great. Most of the swelling is gone and they are droping. He also said im having a rapped recovrey (im healing faster than most).
Sorry i have not posted any pick's im just not that brave. Maybe after they are all healed up.
2wks and 2 day's postop! I feel great i have very...
2wks and 2 day's postop! I feel great i have very little sornes left even morning boob is starting to go away (that was the wrost part). My hubby and I going to a fight nite (boxing) tonite with his fam and friends this will be the first time they have seen me since sugery, i didnt tell them i was doing it so im wondering if they will notice. Hubby said they mite and they mite not if they do so what its non of there biz and you look great that all that matters. I told him i was going to were a tee shirt just incase he said noway lol. Even when i had small boobs i wore tight shirts or tank topps.
On another note i went to macy's the other day to see what size i was (I know kinda early lol) the lady was very rude i asked her if she could me, she asked what size bra do you have on now i said i dnt (ps said no bra's yet), she rolled her eye's and said and your that firm? I just stood there not knowing what to say. she told me to come here and did it half assed told me im a 34 A there is no way im a 34 A thats what i was before and i got 400cc not a small implant,and my ps said it look's like im a full C atleast. I hope it's not like this everywhere i go when i buy bra's. One thing's for sure i will NOT go back there, and i loved that store!
Well im just about 5wks post op i'm still alittle...
Well im just about 5wks post op i'm still alittle sore and nothing can touch my nipples. Is that normal at 5wks out? Im am not as happy with my BA as i thought id be. It's not that they look bad all tho they are uneven (ps said it "should" change). Its that after the swelling went down they are alot smaller than i want (36b/34c) they still have alittle swelling so they could get even smaller.
I woke up to day with my left breast burning so i...
I woke up to day with my left breast burning so i called my ps and told him what was going. He said every thing was prolly fine, but he could tell i was worried so he told me to come in just to be on the safe side, and to put my mind at ease.i really love my ps it doesnt matter what i call for if im worried he always tells me to come in. Im super happy i went in while the burning was normal i had scar tissue forming tighter than it should around the implant that would cause my pocket to be smaller then it should be. He broke it up by doing a rough message (that hurt) i could tell what he was talking about bc i could feel poping as he was doing it and it felt softer when he was done. He told me im not doing my message aggressive enoff on the left side. I thought my left side seamed alittle tight but didnt think anything of it. I learned if somthing doesnt seem quite rite i mite not be or it could be fine, but get it checked out just to be safe. He also said im just about fully droped but i will still see alot of changes in shape for the better as they be come softer and the muscle swelling goes away.
I just posted some new pic's 7wks out! As you can...
I just posted some new pic's 7wks out! As you can see my left breast is still higher than my right. Im getting alittle worried there has not been much change in my left its still abit more firm and moves less freely than the right. Is this normal at 7wks? has anyone went thru this at 7wks? is am so scared im getting cc. Im hoping its just bc i lefted my babies so soon after i carry my 20month old on my left side. Could that cause it drop slower? I see my ps in 1 more week but im driving myself and hubby crazy. My last app he had to break up scare tissue but didnt say anything about cc. Just said i need to do my message more aggrssive on the left to keep the pocket open.
Also look at my scar's i will not be able to wear...
Also look at my scar's i will not be able to wear a small swimsuit top or bra in the bedroom with out them showing, they are to low and not at all hidden by my breast's like i was told they would be. Im not trying B***h i just wish i looked more in to the placment of the implants, im still overall glad i did it i fit my clothes much better and my hubby loves them.
I had my 8wk post op today my doc said everything...
15 Jun 2012
2 months post
I had my 8wk post op today my doc said everything looks good, but did notice my left breast is still higher and tighter than the right. He said its nothing to worry about right now, he does not think its CC bc it is just about as soft as the right and even tho doesnt move as much it move's good. He said the left still has time to drop alittle more but may not i really hope it does! Its not a whole lot higher, but it is noticeable in some clothe's (even to my 12yr old). Not that i asked her she felt she needed to tell me bc she cant even stand a hair out of place (a little ocd) lol. I forgot to mention im still sore I cant wait till that's over! It's not real bad but i never forget that they are there! My poor hubby still cant touch them with out me flenching bc its hurt's. Sorry if thats TMI I just want to let any other lady's that mite be going thru this at 8wks your not alone!
This past week has been really hard on me i'm...
22 Jun 2012
2 months post
This past week has been really hard on me i'm still pretty sore and it's getting OLD!! My left breast is still not droping one bit i put on my swimsuit today, and it was noticeable . I'm starting to 2nd guess geting it done, im keeping it at worth it for now bc i could change my mind once i get over the pain. Thats the part that's really getting to me!
Almost 11wks post op im starting to get really...
28 Jun 2012
2 months post
Almost 11wks post op im starting to get really upset about my left breast, it will not drop. I dont think its going to if anything it look's it's geting worse I put up some new pic''s i put one up in my nite shirt it's even noticeable in that.
I had a good day today, my family and i went out...
I had a good day today, my family and i went out tp a water park, and i felt good in my new swimsuit i looked like a woman in it not a teen. now i just need to start woking out get my body looking good like my boobies. lol Im back to the point where im glad i did this, one my be a little higher but after today i dont think ill be worring about it as much bc it felt good to walk around not worring about how small my boobs are, or how funny the padding looked when it got wet. I still hope it drop's but if it doesnt im not going to dwell on it. I have boobs, they may not be perfect but their mine. lol ;)
Ok so I am 3 months and 1wk post op. The soreness...
29 Jul 2012
3 months post
Ok so I am 3 months and 1wk post op. The soreness is starting to go away, I am so happy about that! My left breast is still a bit higher, and it still bothers me, but I don't let it get to me like i use to. There are a few thing's I wish I knew before geting them done (not that it would have changed my mind). Like you can be sore and most likley will for more than 2 months, if you go under the muscle you have a chance of geting muscle fatigue that does not go away on its own. That has only happed in 2% of my ps patient's I happen to be one of the "lucky" one's, for some reason if there is a low chance of it happning it happen's to me lol. I was told after I had my first child I only had a 10 to 20% chance of conceiving and carrying full term, well after 71/2 years with the help of surgery and meds I was pregnant, but got bad news, we were told I had a tubal pregnancy AND a viable pregnancy( baby in my womb) and that happen's only 1 in 100,000 pregnancys! Then we were told that the there was only a 10% chance of the baby in the womb surviving when they removed the tubal one, well she did i carried her full trem she was born healthy at 8lbs12ozs. On top of all that I was pregnent once again 12 months later with no help remember I have a low chance of conceiving, although i did go in to labor at 24wks with her, she was our little surprize and also a blessing. Sorry i went all off subject I just thought it would be kinda neat to share. Anyways even though things arnt going how I want them to I over all like how they look and love how i look in clothes i'm still happy i did it!
I just posted some new pic's the first 2 are with...
29 Jul 2012
3 months post
I just posted some new pic's the first 2 are with no bra the 2nd two with a push up bra.
Hello all, Its been awhile since my last update,...
Hello all, Its been awhile since my last update, the hard drive on my comuter crashed so I have been with out one, my car broke down the next day lucky me. lol I'm going to start of by venting I hope thats ok. My husband and I are upset with my sister and her boyfriend (my husbands best friend),we found out last weekend they told all of their and our freinds about MY surgery after I asked them not to tell anyone, I was only telling family that i didnt want anyone eles to know. After my surgery my sis told me she think's I should tell them bc they would know just by looking at me,and thats what she would do. I again said no and said they mite think, guess, or wonder but they wont "know" unless someone tells them so plz dont. I had a feeling before last weeked bc about a month ago we went to a party a my mother in laws when we got there it seemed like every one looked at my boobs, we have been over many time since my surgery and that its never happend before so that sent up a red flag. Then I started to think well maybe its just the dress bc iI dnt really dress up around them often. Well it seemed like when ever I talked to anyone all they could do was look at my breast (the reason why i didnt want to tell anyone), I thought maybe its in my head so I asked my husband if he noticed or heard anyone say anything he said no but would look out. later that night it seemed to ease up so I didnt think anything else of it. The next weekend I went back over to drop the kids off with my mother in law they were all over there with my father in law watching a race. These are my husbands childhood friends so they are all very close with his mom and dad, when I went back to say hi the samething happend all I was wearing was a tank top they have seen me in before so I no it wasnt that! I go in and ask my mother in law if she has heard them say anything, she said no. She said well before you leave walk out there with me i'll see if I notice what your noticing or if your making more of it than it is. She walked me out to my car and said they were looking but it could just be that they are wondering if i've always had boobs bc I wear alot of tee shirts. I didnt think it was that bc I wear tank tops all the time during the summer I hate to be hot, but I said maybe your right. My sis and her boyfriend came over that night, I told her what happend and ask her if she or her boyfriend told anyone, she said no but I didnt think she was being honest so I asked if she was sure she again said no she didnt tell anyone, so I let it go. Well last week they went on a vaca to a beach house with most of our friend's (it's crazy how close this group of friends are) My husband and I go up for one night when we get there it's not as bad but I can still tell they are looking just not as much. I told my husband I was not going to worry about it and just have a good time so i didnt pay it any mind and let it go. The night went on we were all having a good time talking and drinking by the end of the night it was just me, my husband, my sis and her man up he was trashed he looked at me and said you know I asked the guys if they noticed what you did and your sis asked tess if she could tell(one of the boys wives) hahaha. My husband was pissed, my sis was pissed bc he told on him self and her, he was so drunk he did even care, I didnt know what to say I stood there shocked, mad, but most of all hurt. We just went to our room and went to bed my husband couldnt beli it When we got up the next morning nothing was said about it, but i know my sis remembers, and I know she knows I remember, i'm not a heavy drinker. We have not talked to them since the weekend, my husband and mother in law call them mouth of the south. I asked her not to tell anyone and she did then when I asked her she lied if you cant trust family who can you trust.I'm not mad at her I'm hurt we are very close we always have been we had to lean on each other alot growing up our childhood was not easy. O and another thing when i got home I call my older sister who also has implants and tell her what happend she told me I dont need to be mad she prolly didnt mean to tell people it shouldnt a big deal that they know anyaways, then almost in the same damn breath says yall dont need to tell anyone I have them know one needs to know bc they didnt know me before I got them. I just said really beth, I'm not telling anyone about you and hung up. Sorry for the long story I had to let it out and felt this was the safest place.
Ok now its time to tell you how thing's are going with my breast, my left has droped in place and looks great I was worried for nothing over that one. It was my right breast all a long the pocket was indeed made too big, I have to go thur surgery if i want it fixed. I prolly will he said its something that wont go away on its own and will get worse over time. As far as pain its almost gone but I do still get sore. my scares are getting ligther but still have a bit of lighting up to do, im happy with how they look at this point though. They are pretty soft and getting softer I'm over all still very happy it did it even with the set back.
Wow sorry about all the typos I didnt look it over...
Wow sorry about all the typos I didnt look it over and had my 1yr old setting on my lap on top of not being a good typer or speller lesson learned. lol
I am so hurt, beside my self, and at a loss for...
I am so hurt, beside my self, and at a loss for words with my husband! We were talking last night about my sister he got really mad and said i bet you she even told them you have inverted nipples, I said i dnt think so, but what if she did? I then ask what will you be ashamed and he said yes it's not normal. I am so hurt I know my boobs dont look like most other womens but i have never looked at my self as not being "normal". He came in and said he didnt mean it the way it came out he loves me for me and does not "mind" how they are but would rather they stick out. I love him very much, but i dont see him in the same light as i did before. I cant even look at him, how could he think that way about me much less say somthing like that to me! I hope as time passes i will get over it, I know I will never forget. I'm scared all i will think is he thinks they look weird. My ex never said anything about them did he not care or was he just being nice?! Now it has me wondering if they are ugly and do all men think so, they just dont say anything. All i have done cry because now I know my own husband thinks less of my body than he should! I'm not trying to have a pitty party I just feel safe here and know what I say wont go any where but here!
Hello all, It's been awhile since my last update,...
16 Nov 2012
7 months post
Hello all, It's been awhile since my last update, I'm about 7 months post op now. Tbh, I havent been on much or updated bc all though I am pretty much happy with how they turned out, and I love that I fill out my clothes and a swimsuit much better. It has takin a toll on me. This is very embarrassing but I have to get it off my chest, first off i want eveyone to know I did do this mainly for me but I thought it also mite change my husband and it didnt. He watch's porn quite abit so I thought maybe once I got boobs like the girls in the "moives" he wouldnt need to watch it, (at least as much) well I was wrong! So started thinking well Its bc he thinks I'm fat and out of shape, thats why he watchs it. I have 3 kids so my body has changed since we meet. I was a size 4 at 124lbs In pretty good shape now I'm a size 7 at 135 - 140 not so good shape, I thougt the sugery would fix how I looked at my self there for change how I feel my husband see's me( how foolish of me)!! I could go on on but I wont. i dnt talk to anyone about it bc I kno some girls maybe even some of you prolly think its just porn get over it. I really really wish I was like that!!
On another note, my breast have fully droped the left is and will stay higher than the right ( not by much) I think they look pretty good.
My kids just woke up so I'll be back to finsh my update in a bit.
Ok i'm back. like I said my breast have fully...
16 Nov 2012
7 months post
Ok i'm back. like I said my breast have fully droped in to place, with my left being alittle higher and my right my nipple looking alittle to far to the side but I'm ok with them like that it not worth going thru another surgery right now with the things im going thur with my self at the moment. My scars are still quite dark but there lighting up more every week their still a bit hard inside also, I was told that should go away by the 1yr mark. I'm no longer sore, it seemed like forever for that to go away. I really cant even tell i have them untill i bend over, even then I just get this kind of heavy feeling.
I also wanted to let you guys know I'm not geting on here trying to bash or make my husband look bad bc hes not. hes just young minded, he works hard (he makes so I get to stay home) to take care of me and our kids, he even takes care of my child like his own who I had before we meet, bc her dad passed away. He just has his flaws. The reason I come on here is know one knows us I dont want to talk to my fam about stuff like this bc i dnt want them to look at him diff. My husband and I are close some times to close we tell each other every thing (thats why I know about the porn) and get along for the most part.
Hi ladies, well I'm a little over a year post op....
Hi ladies, well I'm a little over a year post op. At first I was happy, now I'm to sure how I feel. I think I have CC I have an apt tomorrow to talk to my ps about it. I am posting a few new pic's so you can see what I mean.
I just got back from seeing the PS I do have CC...
I just got back from seeing the PS I do have CC grade 3 baker 5!! I don't know if anyone remembers that's been on here for the last year but I have been worried about this since month 4 I'm so upset and mad I did everything I could not to get this! I quit smoking before the surgery and never picked back up being to scared to because of this, I didn't lift my kids what felt like forever I didn't even clean my house like I should of for over a month to scared to because of this and yet it still happened. My PS said there's a 33% chance of it coming back a 2nd time, if that happens there's an even higher chance of it coming back a 3rd time! He is not going to charge me his fee so the cost is going to be $1300 instead of 2700 but we really dont have that kind of money to shell out, I guess its a risk you take though! The worst part of it he told me he does not see this problem to often any more! So why me? Totally pissed and at this point almost wish I didn't get the surgery in the first place!
here I go again
hello ladies I'm backwith more bad news.. I had a full capsulectomy done a little over 3 weeks ago.its already starting to come back fast and hard. I'm almost where I was at 7 months post op in a matter of 3 weeks after the capsulectomy! I am sad, and mad, but what can I do? I guess my body just does not want me to have boobs. still not sure what I'm going to do not considering I am only a little over three weeks out of a second surgery.
I mite as well have just flushed my money down the toilet!
I wish I never did this! I'm so depressed now my marriage is suffering!