36DD/D and Hopeful For a Healthy Recovery - Ventura, CA

I have been growing since third grade and finally stopped a few years after giving birth to my child. I am a 36DD/D depending on the bra type and surgery is set for June 23rd, 2015. Either way I know to some it may seem smaller, but living with them has always been hard on me physically and emotionally. I have wanted a breast reduction as far back as I can remember. Jokes being made by boys, guys way older than me staring at them only, back and shoulder aches, being 4'11" and being young at heart playing with my child, nieces and nephews in the parks to only be looked at as some freak when all I wanted to do was play yet they bounced around and hurt.. I am excited to finally be able to have this surgery coming up.. Am i scared? Yes.. Scared of going under anesthesia, infection, healing, being uneven, my boyfriend not finding them beautiful afterwards and staring at other women with bigger busts... But i'm still going through with it because it's what i want, and what i know i need to feel better on my shoulders and neck, about fitting in blouses and shirts I want to wear and looking good and feeling good with myself undressed in front of the mirror. Heres to a most hopeful positive surgery and recovery!

I am excited for surgery set for June 23rd. Had My pre op and paperwork filled out now just the short waiting game and being in the zone. Lost 10lbs and so excited to have long walks and excercise afterhealing without the extra weight on my chest and pain on my back. I feel so blessed.

i've had a lot on my plate the past week. A break up with someone I truly love.. A slap in the face by the ugliness of alcohol so dealing with sobriety now, but should be easy since i have 3-4 weeks of recovery.. *fingers crossed. And paperwork to fill out for child support after custody.. And nervousness and anxiety over surgery in two days.. Just when I need the most support by loved ones, I feel like I can't even talk to anyone because of all the emotions I'm feeling. I txt here n there with who is now my ex because it seems like there might be a possible chance to get back together yet.... He hardly texts back or is not even there to support or listen... I just hope everything will be fine and I will come out alive. I just wish It could be easier right now. I will update as soon as I can.. ????