26 Year Old with Tattoo Regret..... Looking for Support

Okay everyone here is my embarrassment, emotional storey...... I have always loved and appreciated tattoos. However when ever I get them I don’t like them on me. I got a tattoo on my shoulder cap of a skull and hated it right away. Looked into removal but the first session I got I didn’t see any changes. So instead I got a amazing local tattoo artist to add more into and make it more feminine and soft. I loved it! She told me we could easily add on and make it a full sleeve and this did appeal to me! A year later I decided I would go for it. Not really knowing what I wanted I got her to draw up some ideas. When I seen her designs I wasn’t really into it but we tweaked some things and she put it on. I hated it. I had brought my sister with me and they talked me into a different placement. The tattoo artist had a friend come in and visit as this was going on. My anxiety was very high at this point. After she replaced her art it did look better, my sister, her and her friend all were saying how beautiful it looked and for what ever reason without listening myself I went for it. BIGGEST MISTAKE!! At this point it was just an outline. I told myself maybe it will look better when it’s finished. I did like the tattoo for a short period of time. Then hated it. I had comments on how it looked that made me feel uncomfortable. Certain closthes I liked didn’t look the same anymore and I hated it! I became depressed. Not thinking of removal I booked my next appointment for colour thinking I would like it better after. Once again..... BIGGEST MISTAKE. Now I hate it even more and I have all sorts of soft tones. Purples, pinks, blues, greens, yellow, orange, peach..... and white. God help me what have I done..... I am an anxious mess and am now looking into removal. The tattoo is done very well, however it is just not me! How did I let this happen!!! I used to feel so happy and pretty and confident and I have ruined that for myself. No one to blame but myself. I am now researching tattoo removal and have consultations 5 hours away :( I hope and pray and look every day that technology will evolve and they will invent something to remove my tattoos completely. I feel like I will never be able to wear short sleeves again. If anyone has had a similar experience or any advise please feel free to message me. ????

I go for my first session on the 9th! Wish me luck! I’ll keep posted with progress feel free to ask me any questions! I will not be posting pictures because I would like to stay anonymous!

I have so many concerns. I know this is what I want, but I’m so scared of scaring and hypo pigmentation , raise or blotchy skin. Wondering if it’s going to be worth all the time and money. This is hard....