ended up depressed

Well, its the night before and I have been putting off starting my real self review for a long time. I am pretty scared of tomorrow, but am really excited to have awesome results. I am hoping for the best, although i am afraid. Mostly afraid of not having results, afraid of complications, etc but YOLO right. I am ready to be snatched and love my body even more. My body has been great to me and I am thankful for that.. now I am sculpting to give a little extra bounce in my step. I am pretty excited. I gave my best shot in the gym with a trainer for 10 months and there are just some things u cant achieve in the gym. Ive always admired women in love with their bodys, whether it be curvy, skinny, big small short tall etc if you rock it witch confidence i find that so beautiful. I have been rockin these curves for a long time and I am ready to rock new ones. YAY for new technology and science lol. Well just writing this is starting to put my mind at ease. I feel support here, i will load before and after pics as they come and I will let u know how it all goes. So far I have prepared meals for myself for the next couple weeks, so I can be healthy as well as feed any guests that come by to visit, that way people arent bringing fast food over or whatever, and I have made sure all my sheets are clean, ive got a booty buddy pillow and a boppy pillow, my blender out to make fruit smoothies, all my prescriptions filled, i just want it to be easy peasy comfortable. Hopefully I can get some sleep tonight, everyones experience is different so its hard to say if I am under prepared or over prepared. I will just hope for the best, stay postive and look forward to a big ol juicy booty. I will see how I feel and possibly check in tmr!

I am home in my bed, laying on my tummy watching shows on my iPad. I feel fantastic! Yes there is pain, but the meds make it very tolerable and easy! I have been walking around slowly. I get a little dizzy but only was naseus when I got up too soon after surgery. I honestly felt worse after I got my wisdom teeth out, but am in more pain now with my bbl, but it’s an easier pain y deal with. I feel like my butt looks natural but improved in shape, I really love it, more round. Hope it stays. My butt is hard and numb, my torso is numb, so I’m keeping on top of pain meds in case numbness wears off and surprises me. I think I’m kinda high on meds so I feel fantastic but am typing horrible. So day one is great, drinking lots of gatorAde, and water, peeing lots. I run the bath and hold my leg over the other side of my tub and pee thru the hole of my compression garment. Using baby wipes instead of toilet paper to stay fresh. Anyways, I would say TMI but that’s why we are here haha. I’ll update tmr!!

My torso is pretty swollen and my feet and legs are starting to swell quite a bit. So I’m laying on my tummy with a couple pairs of socks on, and my feet elevated with pillows behind me. Also the ride home kinda sucked but it wasn’t too bad. I I tried to lay on my side but kept switching sides, then finally Just did flute bridge to keep my butt from touching anything. 45 min drive but it was fine. I brought blankets, the booty buddy and the boopy pillow with me. Anyways, still feeling great, and comfy at home with my family keeping me company