Young mom needing a renovation lol.

I started my period. And just felt some air actually escape... and it’s Ben happening a lot since yesterday. I pray this is related to my period! Anyway. I feel super tight from the outside so I’m surprised any air is able to escape so often.

So when I touch myself I can spread my lips further apart than in week 1. but I still haven’t seen my actual holes and the opening itself feels extremely tight. Especially where the stitch is. It feels so good and tight there. There’s some bulging in my vagina area though. It’s been there since immediately post op though. I’m still worried I became too active too soon, my post op appointment will be the one thing that calms me. I feel like I strained myself. Or I literally could just be paranoid. But from day 6 post op I been walking short distances and eating dinner upright. It was hard to sit up. But gradually everyday it got better. I hope I didn’t do too much. Then one night I went to hang out with a friend and as I was sitting for an extended period... I developed a really bad pain. Now I feel kinda stupid for being so active. And going out. Now I’m back at work and I had to push a heavy door and I feel like when I move a certain way or laugh or cough that there’s a little air that comes out my vagina. Like a tiny queef? It could be a stitch irritating me. But idk I feel like it’s easier to buldge out now. When I cleared my throat I used to still feel shut now I feel movement in my vagina when I clear my throat. I feel like I got active too soon. And I feel like I should’ve did bed rest for the 3 weeks. But honestly my doctor didn’t tell me much about what not to do after sx. I read and looked it up myself. I feel like I didn’t realize how serious this surgery was until I was 2 weeks post op. Because the office didn’t recommend a certain amount of time off. I assumed people went right back to work. I only took 2 weeks off but I feel like people should take a month to just lay down and let themselves heal. Y’all I really hope I heal fine. I’m pretty worried and stressed out that the importance of pelvic rest didn’t come naturally to me or wasn’t told to me by my office.... yup. When I cough/clear my throat i can feel my vaginal canal buldge out and I think it’s a stitch I feel tickling me a little. Smh. I pray I don’t have to do this surgery again. I feel so STUPID. I should’ve just laid my stupid self down for 3 weeks and not went anywhere or do anything but heal. But no my stupid self was going out and about.

But I still feel like I’m hanging out. Especially since going back out to work...