Young mom needing a renovation lol.

One thing I feel like women under reported in their reviews is the bleeding & thePAIN. I have a pretty high pain tolerance and this pain is noooooo joke. I stopped taking narcotics yesterday because of the constipation and fact that I didn’t want to be on them for more than a couple days. But now I regret tossing them out. I’m hurting so so bad. Day one -3 there was a pressure around my anus but I’m sure that was from constipation. That eased away but now there’s a constant burning pain smack dab in my vagina. A 7 on a scale from 1-10. I literally just try to sleep each day away. There’s still a lot of swelling. I can’t tell much of a difference down there. I feel the same kind of looseness I felt before. Just new pain with it. I don’t feel tighter to myself on the inside at all. The outside feels and looks tighter though. I’m pretty hopeful and very optimistic Because now pooping and peeing actually feels like two different functions. Before when I I pooped. My vagina became engaged. It would look and sound like I was trying to push something out of there. *sigh* I can’t wait til I’m healed and super tight. I just want to be able to complain that my vagina is too tight. That’s literally what I told my doctor “I want to complain that it’s too tight”. I know there are limits. But please make me tight as possible ! Being so young &having sexual partners tell me I’m too young to be so loose has scarred me for a lifetime... so embarrassing. I rather be too tight than too loose any day. I hope this is all worth it. The pain brings me to tears everyday. It hurts so bad. I’ve been bleeding since surgery too. Which isn’t bad I just don’t recall reading ladies talk about the bleeding. It’s similar to period bleeding of course. Doc says it should last about 2 weeks. But I also could have started my period lol. So there’s that. No regrets so far. Just pain !! Which I’m confident will be more than worth it !!

So I'm two weeks out. Almost close to going back to work and pain increased! All I've been doing is walking and sitting. I rest when I'm tired and I make sure I have bowel movements. One day I did lay in bed and do rom on my legs and idk if that did it or what. But I noticed after sitting one day this pain came on and it's so so so bad. Almost as bad as post surgery. Idk man. I hope I didn't mess anything up.