30 and Sick of my Boobs Being Smaller Than Most 13 Year Olds

Hello RS lovelies! Yesterday was my one week mark. Things are going very well. I went to my one week check up yesterday. I got my stitches taken out, which stung, but wasn't too bad. The incision site is still really tender. They kept 2 seri-strips on each side and the nurse said they should fall off on their own in about a week, if they haven't by then to just go ahead and remove them. When they come off is also the time I can start using scar cream.

My ps said they are dropping perfectly and that they don't look like I need to massage them, just let them do their thing. He also said I can wear any bra I want, as long as its underwire free. Yay! No more creepy black sports bra that's impossible to hide!

I've been having sharp stings to the incision site as well as my nipples every now and then, but I figure that's just the ladies healing. They are also still quite numb and hard. I'm liking where they are as far as position and am hoping they don't drop much more.

So I'm off all painkillers and muscle relaxers and finally feeling like myself again. I swear those things mess with my head so bad. I was so emotional and every time I looked at my chest I wanted to cry. Now the girls are finally dropping (right side is doing better than the left) and I'm actually really enjoying them. I no longer feel like Im super top heavy. I think it also helps that I've gotten out of the house and realized people aren't looking at me like my boobs are crazy huge.

My husband and I went a few places today like Target and TJMaxx and I tried on some swimsuit tops and bralettes...it's so much fun to try stuff on like that and actually be able to fill up the cups and feel like a woman!

I'll update a little more later and post some pics of their progress. Thanks everyone for all the kind words over the past few days, I really appreciate it!

So I've been an emotional wreck for the past day or so. I keep wondering why I did this to myself. They look so huge on me, I'm sick of them being so hard and high, and I just want to feel like me again.

Please tell me this will pass and I'll end up loving them?