30 and Sick of my Boobs Being Smaller Than Most 13 Year Olds

Hi everyone! I've been stalking RealSelf now for quite a few years. Almost 2 years ago I underwent a rhinoplasty/septioplasty. Being able to come to this site and read about what others had been through really helped me not only with the nerves of what I was about to do, but realize I wasn't alone in all the emotions I was going through.

I decided I would write about my journey and maybe I could help someone else out or who knows, maybe someone has some advice for me :)

So here are my stats:
Age: 30
Children: none
Bra size: a small B
Goal size: a D
Height: 5'7"
Weight: 128

I had 2 consults last week, one with a surgeon a friend recommended to me and one with the surgeon who did my nose. After meeting with both, I decided to go with the later as I was more comfortable with not only him, but his entire staff. And seeing as how I have a history with the 2nd dr, I figured, "if its not broke, don't fix it."

While in the consults, I got to try on sizes at both hospitals. I thought I would feel most comfortable with the 300cc's. But as I tried them on and went up in size, I really loved how the 375's looked on me. My husband on the other hand, said he thought they looked a little big and he liked the 325 and 350's better.

I went ahead and paid my deposit and set my date for next week, May 6th. Tomorrow I'm going in to pay my balance. I also called and asked if I could retry on the sizers, because now after talking to a few people, I'm starting to second guess my choice of the 375's. I'll let you know tomorrow after trying on what I decide on for sure. I know everyone goes through the "am I going too big/small" dilemma, but I never thought I would be that person who second guesses it so much! It's such a big decision though.

I have already picked up my pain pills, antibiotics, etc. I'm not too worried about the pain. I'm more nervous about if I'll have troubles going back to work (I'm planning on working a half day 5 days after my surgery).

I'll keep you all posted and let you know how everything goes tomorrow!

Today I went and paid the balance of what I owe. I also went ahead and brought a few shirts and a dress and tried on some sizers again. I still really liked the 375's. I decided, Im not going to let other people push me into doing a size I'm not happy with. Here are a few pictures of me now and with some sizers in.

So I told my sister about my surgery today. It did not go well. She said she thought it was crappy that I waited so long to tell her, why am I even doing it, etc, etc. It's not like I was hiding it from her or anything, we just live 2000 miles apart and don't talk often.

I then talked to my mom afterwards (I had already told her) and she helped ease my mind. She said that I am doing this for me and not for anyone else and if my sister doesn't want to be supportive, then that's her choice. It just really sucks because I really didnt think she would respond like that at all. Oh well, can't please everyone.

On a more positive note, I picked up a few things for after surgery today. Some sports bras (after trying them on I think I need to take them back and get a larger size), easy to make food, meds, etc.

I'm only 5 days out and on one hand I'm so excited...but after talking to my sister, it's kinda taken some of the anticipation out. I keep wondering, should I really do this? I know everyone goes through that beforehand, but today has just been a more trying day than most.