A new life awaits.

Ok here I go. Same as everyone else ... I have tried WW, Jenny Craig, and fad diets In between. I have lost over 100 pounds 4 times in my life. I have lost more than I weighed! Why couldn't I keep it off? I knew how much I worked to get it off. I really don't think I have a food addiction. I think I am a product of the obesity gene that plays havoc with your family/hereditary genes. I am the smallest person in my family and am 5'2" and now weigh about 250 lbs. started out 276. I guess my biggest trial and tribulations are I went through a terrible divorce with the father of my two children who made my life hell. He has since passed away and now I feel bad for all the years we each lost and my children. I lost my father to pancreatic cancer, year later I lost my brother at age 45 to cardiac arrest. He was 6'4" and weighed probably 500 lbs. He was 7 years younger than me and to this day I feel guilty he died and I lived. A year later I lost my mom to COPD. So when you lose your parents you feel like an orphan. Three family members gone in three years. Life was not supposed to be like that. My entire life was changed forever. We no longer have the same big family get together cuz it is just not the same. The glue that held us all together is no longer there. It's my life and I have to live it. I have asthma, high blood pressure, close to being diabetic, and am over 100 lbs to my goal weight. I can't lose weight like I used to. It will not come off. I live daily wondering if I too will go into cardiac arrest like my brother. Was that hereditary, or just meant to be? Severe obesity is killing me too. I have a son, daughter, husband, and four grandkids that are counting on me. Oh and 4 fur babies!!! I Need to get healthy. I need to lose 110-130 pounds. Hoping the sleeve will help me. Hoping I made the right choice. Hoping my parents will be proud of me. Not a day goes by that my brother isn't in my thoughts or tears of which my fur babies ears have wiped away. Wish me luck, I think I will need it! Prepared to try my hardest! Waiting for my surgery date....one more week before I hear. Today is 11/6/15. Good luck fellow sleevers.....I'm here for ya!