It's getting real!!!

I just put my deposit down! I reserve my date for TT! November 7th! I'm scared and kind of feel tummy sick! I thought I'd be more excited. My babies my two kids and my husband is what I keep thinking about. I hope as time goes on I'll feel better about going through with this optional surgery. I've wanted it for Over 15 years but now that I've actually put my deposit down I'm feeling like maybe This may not be the right decision.....did anyone of you feel this way?

I can't believe after 15 years of researching going to consultations and chickening out when it comes down to it. I've finally booked and out my deposit down. Booked my flight as well. No turning back. I'm feeling all sorts of emotions. I just hope and pray all my expectations are met! Without RealSelf I think I would just be stalking all the before and after pics of all the patients that's been brave enough to do the TT. Lol

I haven’t posted much recently due to some marriage issues I’ve been dealing with. I recently left my husband whom I’ve been married to or 16 years due to infidelity on is part. I took my two boys and bout 6 weeks ago. But I think now more than ever for my on self esteem I need to do this! I’m going counseling 2 times a week to get my mental state better prepared for surgery. I just received my call from Jennifer at new life advising of what I need in terms of vitamins and labs for clearance for surgery. I have a dr appt set or 10/18. This week I’ll start looking for tickets. My husband was supposed to go with me but due circumstances that probably wouldn’t help my healing process. My beautiful cousin will be there for a few days after my surgery, I’ll be recovering at Anita’s house.