Pre op review - I've been waiting a long time for this

BEWARE, LONG POST, I have a lot to say.
So, I've been here on RS for a long time and I'm so grateful for all of the reviews I've read through the years. I am hoping to encourage someone else through my journey.
I am scheduled for my tummy tuck with muscle repair on June 22, 2023! That is just 16 days from today!! I am beyond excited and maybe/probably/definitely a little nervous too.
I have had a few surgeries (LapBand in 2007, revision to gastric sleeve in 2015) and lost a bit of weight in the last 19 years or so. I am the proud mom of a 22 year old and 19 year old twins. I am 50 years old, 5'1" and weigh about 187 today.
I saw my surgeon for the first time in April. He is kind and I felt comfortable during our consultation. He asked what I wanted to talk about I told him that want this awful flap that I have gone! Maybe I shouldn't have said this but I also told him that, as much as I hate this part of me, I'm looking for an 80% improvement and might even settle for 60%! Desperate much? Ugh! On the plus side, I have seen his work, he did a mommy makeover on my best friend and she looks amazing so I know I'm in good hands. He asked if I am losing weight, at my goal weight or comfortable where I am. I have decided at this time in my life I am comfortable. Would I like/love to be thinner? Maybe. But I really think that the main reason I would want to lose weight is to get this apron off of my body. And y'all, let me tell you, she's not budging through weight loss! Been trying that since my twins were born! Back to the consultation.... I was honestly afraid he was going to tell me I'm not a candidate because of my weight. He didn't! He did recommend abdominoplasty with muscle repair and lipo 360. He told me that I would need Lipo on the flanks to help with smoothness but he recommends Lipo 360 to get the best shape for me. The tummy tuck alone is $8000. And the Lipo 360 is another $7000. Then the hospital portion will be another $5000. I left the office in tears. I truly had a whole "I am the most selfish person in the world, I have a husband, 3 kids in college, and too many responsibilities monetary and otherwise to spend this kind of money on my BODY. JUST FOR ME! No one else in my family will benefit from this, I could buy a CAR! My daughter needs a car. What am I doing!?!? Talked to DH and he is only worried about recovery, not the money, we will finance it from here to forever. My surgeon didn't even recommend any other procedures (whew! I feel like he could've recommended a lot! Eeek). I called the office back a little over a week later and scheduled the procedure.
Next task, all of the doctors clearance and supplies I'll need. I've seen my cardiologist, had a stress test and an echocardiogram. Went to my primary care doc for all of the blood work yesterday. Now, we wait for labs to come back and if they look good, doc says she will sign off. Last Cardiologist appointment is on Monday and as long a he signs off, we are good to go! EEEEK! Then on June 14th I see the surgeon for pre-op! I can't believe it's almost here and really happening!
As for supplies, I have only gotten a few things.
* a small pillow for holding when I cough or sneeze and it will also work to hold a cold pack and as a seatbelt pad
* leg massagers (the kind they put on you in the hospital for circulation)
* sports bras that are front closure
* compression socks
* a robe that has inside pockets to hold my drains
* a few night gowns that button up the front so my drains can go out
* wet wipes so I can clean up for the days until I can shower
Still wondering about a walker, a recliner and wedge pillows. I think I may wait on that stuff until I decide I actually need it.
I will post my before pictures soon and I want to weigh an do measurements the night before surgery so I can see what changes.

I think this is the most nerve wracking time since scheduling! I am kind of a control freak so I am trying really hard to get everything in order before my surgery date! Having things in order will help me actually rest. When things around me are in disarray, my brain feels it and even if I don’t pick up or arrange, I will stress over it. That said, I really want/need to have my closets clean, pantry clean, house, in general, clean, groceries bought and put away, meals prepped or planned, fridge cleaned out, plants watered, fish and bird fed and everything I will need within arms reach. That’s just at home! I also run a business, alone. I do have a helper that will be there with me for a few weeks when I go back to work so that makes it a little better but my store is retail and service. I still have to place orders so everything can be put away and ready for my return, have clients orders ready to be picked up until the day I close for 2 weeks and have everything clean and tidy for my return to alleviate any “mess stress”. Not knowing how I will feel at the 2 week mark when surgeon says I can go back to work and what my stamina, I’m on my feet all day, will look like makes me nervous. I have 9 more business days to get everything ready and my clients prepared. Clearly, I am a person that overthinks everything! When I leave for vacation, my house and business have to be spotless. I am realizing as I type that I am probably a lot more anxious that I thought before.
I am so grateful for this site! I have read so many reviews and updates, I truly feel like I am prepared mentally. The fear of the unknown is REAL though! What is my body going to look like, will I like my new shape, how much is it going to hurt, will I recover quick, will I develop complications, I could go on and on. I am hoping to read this back in a month or 2 and tell myself “look how much worrying you did for nothing”. If you are a praying person and you’re reading this, say a little prayer for me, please.
P. S. Sorry for the rambling.

So, today was my final doctor appointment for cardiac clearance. Doc says that I am good to go. I bought a recliner today too. I am so excited, this is really happening... I will post my before pictures tonight after I take them.