Jowls Be Gone! - Tucson, AZ

I'm almost 61 years old and although I feel 45, my face has begun it's slow descent into "old lady" land. My skin is fairly nice and I don't have many wrinkles, other than "crow's feet" and such. My lower facelift with fat grafting is on Friday...about 4 days away. This has been something planned by my husband and I for a while now, but only recently did it become a reality. I have not told anyone, other than my youngest adult son, who I only told because he comes here on the weekends quite often and when he told me he expect to be here this weekend I had to forewarn him. He makes fun of me, not maliciously but all in good fun (most of the time), so I was braced for his humorous jabs. We talked about it, and he was saying I was going to look wind blown and shiny, etc., and I explained it wasn't a full facelift and that I would be awake and the recovery should be fairly easy to do. He joked that I decided a few months ago to just let my gray hair grow out, and now I'm having a facelift...well, I told him it is unexplainable, but that is what I'm doing. Besides, with a new trend with young women intentionally coloring their hair gray, I'll be right there looking younger and my gray locks, which will soon be totally grown out.

I am unsure of whether I'll post pictures. I know that helps people to make decisions, it has helped me...but I want to stay anonymous for now and once pictures go on the internet, well they are always there for one person or another to find. Perhaps I'll post pics of my lower face only. One reason I've kept this to myself is because I know there will be lots of negative and judgmental comments from family and friends, if not directly to me, behind my back. I don't need the negativity or people acting like I'm wasting money on vanity, etc., so perhaps in the future if I'm asked I will own up to it, but otherwise even my closest friend and my closest sister, as well as my daughter, will be none the wiser for the time being.

I'm getting a bit nervous and thinking about the surgery and outcome often now. Anxious about being awake during it, but I've been assured that with the help of Valium and numbing injections all will go very well, and the recovery is much quicker and easier. Am preparing all that I can in the next few days in order to be ready and so my husband is prepared to take care of me, as well as do all the things I normally do for several days (weeks?).

That's all for now. Will update later!

Just some pics of my lower face for comparison. Oh, how I hate how my face looks! Am trying to get lots done before Friday, in an effort to keep things simple for my hubby and have everything ready for me to recover.

Woke up feeling a bit anxious and have a slightly nervous tummy. Beginning last night, I began second guessing my decision to do this. Doubting it was a good thing and wondering if I am being too vain by altering my face. Woke early this morning with some of the same thoughts running through my head. Then I looked in the mirror. Saw clearly how my face has fallen more in the last 6 or 8 months than I realized and all I could see in the mirror were jowls and hollow cheeks. It made me realize that I really do want to do this. I'm not ready to look like that...not yet. Sooo...I'm now eating toast and pineapple, taking the prescribed meds and will soon be getting dressed and ready to head out (after taking the all important Valium, of course!). Will be praying with my husband before we leave. Depending on how I feel later, I may update once I'm home and settled in.