Severely depressed - my breasts are still wonky and I have a uniboob

Hey so I've gotten a therapist and have been working through the mental health decline I had that Dr hermann put me through botching me. I spiraled so bad after being botched by him, after being 11 years sober, I relapsed and started drinking again. So far I am 3 weeks sober again and plan to stick to it. He's a typical narcissist though. After I spiraled and was obviously hurt, he tried to used my mental decline (caused by him) against me. Causing someone to spiral and then acting innocent is wild honestly.

After seeing how easily symmastia repair fails. And before and after pictures of symmastia repair. It looks like it's not worth it and I'll forever be botched. I'm killing myself. Before I do I just wanted to thank you for showing me what a worthless piece of shit I am. How I wasn't good enough to fix because I'm ugly. How I wasn't good enough to be a woman. I'm broken. I'm worthless. I just wish you would have told me before you disfigured me more. I'll finally be at peace though. Thank you for helping me get to this point of realization

Dr hermann. Don't worry you'll never hear from me or see me again. This isn't the first time a man made me feel like shit for wanting more than the bare minimum. This is just a bit more to me and attached to me. So while you'll forget about me in a day or so, I'll always remember. While you continue to tell your patients you never caused symmastia once in your practice, I'll be over here picking up the pieces. The only conclusion I can come to why you botched me so horribly but did wonderful jobs on the other women was because I wasn't pretty or young enough like them. Like you took one look at me and thought I needed to get botched because of how disgusting I was to even look at. Why else wasn't I good enough to fix but they were?