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Biggest Regret /mistake in my Entire Life, but Will Seek Help and Fix This. - Toronto, ON
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I just turned 37 few weeks ago, have been dreaming...
wsy78November 10, 2015
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I just turned 37 few weeks ago, have been dreaming of having a tattoo on my body, always envious with people having ink on their body. In the past year I saw a few artist with my own idea, but turned away due to design and placement wasn't exactly I had in mind. Until last week, I found an artist that was incredibly talented and fell in love with one of a piece he did for his client shown on his Instagram. I've immediately made a consultation and after 3 days, I had the tattoo put on my upper arm extending to my lower bicep. During the placement of the stencil, I did notice it was a little big, but the design was very beautiful, therefore I did not mention anything to the artist for revision, and was in the mood to get this done immediately. The tattoo was completed in 5hours, immediately I felt it was too dark and contrasting my Asian skin tone a lot. The tattoo itself as well as the artist's skills was incredible, every little bits of details and shadow came out perfectly.
During my drive home from the parlour, I was excited to tell my wife, but that feeling didn't last. When I got home and remove the bandage, I was confused, shocked, scared, and felt very sorry to both myself and the family. I have the perfect family anyone could imagine, but I just did something which I felt pity of myself. I felt sick , couldn't eat, sleep, and helpless. All these negative pictures was rushing through my head, repeat and repeat. This is definitely the most painful mistake I have ever experience in my entire life, and it was all caused by myself.
The way I've be behaving and responding to my mistake was not fair to my family, and decide I should take action to remove this. Upon searching online, I found this website, and which I'm glad not because I see a lot of people having the same issues as me, but having the knowledge to strengthen the road to have a second chance with laser removal.
Although I am 50/50 on the results, seeing not everyone is able to remove the tattoo to a 100%, also the pain and time involve is quite a journey. But I will do anything, no matter the pain, or time it consumes, I will remove this mistake @ 100%. Good thing technology is on our side, this is something we should rejoice with.
Stage 1:
Since my tattoo has only been 4days old, I will not be able to have any type of work done. The first person I've contacted was Shane at Fading Fast in Toronto. I had a short conversation with him, and suggest to contact him in 8 weeks and in the mean-time to apply Polysporin, Although he did not specifically motioning on this, but after a quick search on the internet, as suggested by many parlours that Polysporin is the #1 enemy for new tattoos, which contains bacitracin zinc to initiate the body to rebel against foreign materials such as ink. Wishful thinking this will help to extract the ink with my new tattoo. Perhaps this is a myth, but it is the least I could do in preparation to the removal, every small steps will count from this day on.
I will keep everyone updated with my process, and I do sincerely hope everyone will find strength in yourself and keeping a good mentality towards the removal. I would also appreciate for any guidance and tips.
During my drive home from the parlour, I was excited to tell my wife, but that feeling didn't last. When I got home and remove the bandage, I was confused, shocked, scared, and felt very sorry to both myself and the family. I have the perfect family anyone could imagine, but I just did something which I felt pity of myself. I felt sick , couldn't eat, sleep, and helpless. All these negative pictures was rushing through my head, repeat and repeat. This is definitely the most painful mistake I have ever experience in my entire life, and it was all caused by myself.
The way I've be behaving and responding to my mistake was not fair to my family, and decide I should take action to remove this. Upon searching online, I found this website, and which I'm glad not because I see a lot of people having the same issues as me, but having the knowledge to strengthen the road to have a second chance with laser removal.
Although I am 50/50 on the results, seeing not everyone is able to remove the tattoo to a 100%, also the pain and time involve is quite a journey. But I will do anything, no matter the pain, or time it consumes, I will remove this mistake @ 100%. Good thing technology is on our side, this is something we should rejoice with.
Stage 1:
Since my tattoo has only been 4days old, I will not be able to have any type of work done. The first person I've contacted was Shane at Fading Fast in Toronto. I had a short conversation with him, and suggest to contact him in 8 weeks and in the mean-time to apply Polysporin, Although he did not specifically motioning on this, but after a quick search on the internet, as suggested by many parlours that Polysporin is the #1 enemy for new tattoos, which contains bacitracin zinc to initiate the body to rebel against foreign materials such as ink. Wishful thinking this will help to extract the ink with my new tattoo. Perhaps this is a myth, but it is the least I could do in preparation to the removal, every small steps will count from this day on.
I will keep everyone updated with my process, and I do sincerely hope everyone will find strength in yourself and keeping a good mentality towards the removal. I would also appreciate for any guidance and tips.
Replies (25)
November 11, 2015
Polysporin is an antibiotic ointment used to prevent infection while ur skin is broken, such as after being pierced thru tattoo gun. It will help the fresh tattoo heal within ur skin, it will not excrete ink particles from ur skin and remove ur tattoo.
November 11, 2015
Would recommend allowing your brain to settle in with the change you made. This tattoo is beautiful. I felt the same way about my beautiful tattoos the first year. Now I have matured in to having them be a part of me and I hardly think about them negatively anymore. It is a common phase. Give it time. You are being way too hard on yourself! Learn to love yourself and your beautiful tattoo. Best to you!
UPDATED FROM wsy78
Mental progress
wsy78December 4, 2015
Hi everyone, I have been ready all the response and would like to say thank you to everyone with the support. With all the crazy things happening in this world, it makes me realize there genuinely kind people that do exists.
Words cannot describe how much I appreciated it.
As for now I am slowly getting use to the tattoo, still not 100% proud of it, but learning to like it, another crazy idea is to add more tattoo to other body parts to balance the big piece on my right arm. But I don't think I can accept the idea of having something "permanently" done to my body. There are so much negative variations in the process and potential regrets.
I am still leaning towards having it removed, but will take the time and do a little more research and also see how things are with my self and my new companion.
Thank you again everyone, and I hope you do find sucess in your goals.
Happy holidays!
Kevin
Words cannot describe how much I appreciated it.
As for now I am slowly getting use to the tattoo, still not 100% proud of it, but learning to like it, another crazy idea is to add more tattoo to other body parts to balance the big piece on my right arm. But I don't think I can accept the idea of having something "permanently" done to my body. There are so much negative variations in the process and potential regrets.
I am still leaning towards having it removed, but will take the time and do a little more research and also see how things are with my self and my new companion.
Thank you again everyone, and I hope you do find sucess in your goals.
Happy holidays!
Kevin
Replies (7)
December 4, 2015
I'm in the same boat. Hoping I learn to love it like before, during, and directly after getting it. Still leaning towards removal, but it's such a tremendous commitment that I don't think I could live with telling my friends I just got a tattoo and I'm immediately removing it. How embarrassing.
December 6, 2015
Awe...don't feel embarrassed reversethink - everything will be ok and you would be so shocked at how little people actually care once you tell them, and for those that are judgemental then they are not worthy of your time.
I actually found that once I climbed out of my shell and started to share my story, 2 things happened 1) People wanted to see because they had a tattoo they wanted to remove 2) They started to ask me all about tattoos because they wanted to get one.
Chin up!
December 7, 2015
Mate, the only balance you need is in your own head. It seems to me that your decision to have a tattoo was too quick, then your rejection of it was too quick, and now you get this idea that you describe as "crazy" yourself.
That's not the behaviour of the adult in you, it's the behaviour of the child in you. It's okay, don't worry. But you gotta change that.
Don't act too fast. Think then decide and own your decision. Use the adult part in you, when it comes to having something permanently done to your body.
A tattoo will not change who you are, but you have to know who you are. Sometimes, seeing a therapist for a while is better than getting a tattoo.
That's not the behaviour of the adult in you, it's the behaviour of the child in you. It's okay, don't worry. But you gotta change that.
Don't act too fast. Think then decide and own your decision. Use the adult part in you, when it comes to having something permanently done to your body.
A tattoo will not change who you are, but you have to know who you are. Sometimes, seeing a therapist for a while is better than getting a tattoo.
December 7, 2015
Interesting comment. As someone who just go this first tattoo, a pretty massive one on my forearm, I went a little mental myself over this whole thing, so much so in fact that I have 3 consultations for removal booked. Now that it's been about 3 weeks, I'm actually getting used to the tattoo, and even entertaining getting something on my right arm now. I'm still going to the consultations, because I really believe it's necessary to fully understand the tattoo process - on and off - in order to make an informed decision. What's weird for me is everyone says they life it, random girls included. Why am I doubting something that *I* like?
December 7, 2015
Q: What would you do if it was a scar? Would it change the way you see your body? I have a massive scar on my forearm - was burnt when I was a toddler. It's a part of who I am. Your tattoo should be no different - except that it's probably beautiful. But you see, it's not about beauty. It's about the way you live your tattoo as a part of yourself, not as an identity defining element, but as a statement. "this is what I am". OP seems to be afraid of his own statement, of his own identity. It's not about information. It's about affirmation.
December 21, 2015
My grown daughters have tattoos and I hate tattoos but I have to say, yours is beautiful. It isn't offensive, won't look dated like some of the really bad pop culture ones where the reference is lost after a few years, and it was nicely done by a skilled artist. You have it in a place where you can hide it with a shirt so it doesn't affect your chance of employment prospects. It really looks stunning. Honestly, coming from someone who doesn't like them, I think you should consider keeping it. The removal I've seen on here is so expensive, painful, and doesn't really work. I would advise against adding more tattoos to balance it out. You are already not happy with the one, don't go and get a bunch more. This one looks very nice, but leave it at that. In my opinion. Which means nothing, I'm just a grandmother butting in my two cents.
January 18, 2016
I could have written this post myself. I feel exactly the same way. Very interested in what you decide, as I am leaning towards removal as well.
Hey there ☺
Welcome to this wonderful community, I'm so happy that you found us and joined in to share your story. I'm most certain that you will receive lots of support from others at varying stages of their removal, they are an amazing group of people who all can relate to how you're feeling right now.
I have to say, I was once where you are right now, close in age, mother of 2, I felt like I was letting my family down for many reasons because of my tattoo mistake, and when the regret set in I found it very hard to shake off and it all went downhill from there. So if there is any advice I can offer, it would be to not allow this incident to impact your family life. Looking back, I regret hurting the family because of my sadness and constant self-pity, I basically became hostage to this tattoo and acted like a zombie, and I regret that so much, more so than the tattoo.
Your tattoo looks amazing, have you considered giving yourself some time to adjust to it? You mention it's dark, know that new tattoos are always darker, they fade and blend in over time.
Thank you very much for the encourage, and yes I am trying my best not to give my family any emotional responsibility for my mistake. However I am not very well in hiding my feelings, perhaps time could heal.
I do agree the tattoo does look amazing, and I am sure many would be very satisfied of the work. However, at this point it is just isn't for me.
I'm terrible at hiding my feelings as well -- I went for alot of walks/runs, that way I wasn't sulking in front of the family... I mean, they knew I was but at least they didn't have to see it. Besides, I always find nature healing, it's good for the soul to get outside.