21 Year Old, Size 34 J, Breast Reduction on Monday! - Toronto, ON

I am really starting to regret having this done. I know everyone is so happy with their new breasts, but I can't help but feel lied to. I was told I would be a medium C. My surgeon didn't even say she MIGHT be able to bring me down to a C, she said she WOULD being me down to a C. It's almost two months post op, and I am still a DD. I am really depressed. I still don't fit into the clothes I want to. I still get back aches. I went through major surgery and didn't even come out with what I wanted. I am just horribly disappointed.

So on Monday I will be officially four weeks post op but I am REALLY worried that my breasts are growing back. I bought a bra without underwire a week after surgery, and I am almost convinced that it's slightly smaller on me now than when I bought it. I am really freaking out, because I don't know why they would be getting bigger. I am on a diet, so I am trying to lose weight, also I quit oral contraceptives because I was afraid they would make my breasts continue to grow. I'm not really swollen anymore, so shouldn't I be smaller, not bigger? Anyone with experiences with this? Am I just being overly worried?

I am also slightly upset because one of my breasts is clearly a different shape than the other. I know my breasts aren't finished healing and it may get fixed but for now it looks really off to me. I put before and after photos up finally.

I still think my breasts are too big. I wanted them much smaller, so that is very disappointing. I am hoping that by losing weight, I will be able to make them smaller.

Other than that, recovery is fine for me. I have never taken any pain killers, and I really don't feel any pain in the breasts anymore. I do get quit a bit of moderate pain where the drains were, so I will ask my PS about that when I see her in a month. Also, in several areas I've noticed that the ends of my stitches are poking out of my skin. I'm not quite sure what to do with this because all my stitches were suppose to be dissolvable. Any ideas?

So a few days ago I went for my first bra fitting at Victoria's Secret. I was extremely disappointed, to say the lease. Before my reduction, I was a 34 J. My surgeon said that she would take me down to a mid-c, however both La Senza and Victoria Secret have told me that I am a 40 D! I was devastated. I know that I am still swollen, but my surgeon told me that although the swelling will go down, the size wont. Also, I have absolutely no idea how I went from a 34 band to a 40!!! I felt disgusted with myself. I have always have weight issues. And it didn't help that the store associate told me that my cup size was so big because "my waist was so big". I couldn't believe she said that. That mortified me. Even despite all of this, it is not my biggest worry.

My absolute biggest worry is that my breasts will grow back. I am terrified of this!! I have been up all night, stressing over the multiple stories I am hearing on here of women whose breasts grow back, despite not gaining weight. I am doing everything within my power to not have that happen, I am eating a very healthy diet, I have quit hormonal birth control, and I plan on going to the gym as soon as I am able. But I am scared that despite all of this, I will end up back where I started. I am SO scared. Can anybody share their experiences? Is it likely that my breasts will get bigger if I stick to a healthy diet and hit the gym regularly?

I know they will probably get much bigger when I get pregnant, but I am only 21, and I was hoping for at least a nice ten years with my new boobs.