14 days till I meet the Queen of TT's - Tijuana, Mexico

4 days guys till I'm of on my way to Philly!!!!!

They say [RS bleep] happens in 3s and after the day I have had I believe that this saying is true!

4 days before I leave London ,and I'm wishing I skipped on the blasted plane already *sigh* I'm currently dealing with a whole heap of BS in my personal life so the added stress is NOT helping.

Last night I msg'd Ronnie (BCRH) who within the few months of corresponding I have grown VERY fond off. Currently due to unforeseen events they are in the process of relocating (which I will add I was totally accepting of assuming all services would remain the same). He confirmed that they would be. So a few weeks later I keep reading that food is no longer being provided, I asked him yday and he confirmed that, that is true. But there is no change to my quote??? Like seriously?? I have spent a S H I T load financing 2 surgery's in 2 different countries NOT to mention I'm an international patient so I already paid my dues on a £1000+ flight. How could I possibly be expected to provide additional funds paying for hotel food???

Now tbh I'm really upset, NOT at BCRH as what happened to them was totally unexpected and unfair and they need to make ends meet and keep their business afloat. So even tho I'm upset its not really at the decisions they have had to make but rather the fact I've had to change my plans that I've been looking forwards to for the last 8months lol. There business from day 1 has been A W E S O M E and I empathise with what there going thru.

BUT I also need to look out for my best interests and that's the incurring additional cost that I don't have the means to provide for. I felt so sad writing Ronnie to request a refund :(

And even worst when I turned traitor mode and emailed Marvin @ Club Med :( ( nothing wrong with them!!! They're awesome also!!! :) But I feel bad as I was looking forwards to staying with the BCRH crew :( )

Marvin promptly wrote back stating that there was space and I'd just need to secure it with a deposit. Which was great until I realised I lost my Credit Card, of all the [RS bleep] ass times for that to bloody happen!!!! (Can I PLS get a break??????!) I'm going try retrace my steps from yday in hope that some KIND person (do they exist?) Handed it in.

So as I thought no one was KIND enough to hand my card in, almost certain I left it it the card reader cos that was the only time I used it yday KMT!!!! There's like no way I'll be able to request a new one before I leave

Also I heard back from Ronnie, stating that Dra Cardenas would prefer for me to stay with her for a minimum of 4 days and a minimum menu at a small charge will be available, so with that said is there really any point spending the remaining 3-4 else where????

decisions decisions decisions

Down to single figures :) (6 till I leave for Philly and 13 till I meet the TT queen in person!!!) OMG I'm so nervous actually that's an understatement. I've had a few moments where I've considered canceling it all, doubting if I really needed or wanted to put myself thru this AGAIN. When I could just as easily take my fat ass to the gym and lose some weight. I've spent half as much on preparation, hotels, flights,etc that even entertaining the concept of backing out would be stupid.

So I guess regardless if I wanted to or not I'll be on the way to the airport this time next week. Today I double checked with the airline that I would have wheelchair assistance for my returning flight.

I've been trying hard not to think about the procedure or the 1st week of recovery esp the drains (they sucked the last time I can imagine its gona be 10x times worst with my body cut in half :( ) . I'm gona be putting my body thru it and if I'm honest I'm actually scared. The only thing that motivates me is hoping that my waistline is drastically reduced and I come out with a banging hourglass shape. Seeing that I've never been pregnant I'm guessing I won't have as much muscle separation as many of the other ladies do, so perhaps the change will only be slight. But I know whatever the result its bound to be better than what I'm working with now.

So that's it for now guys, good luck to all those going thru it in the next few days. :)