Looking for Support to Explant :)

So I'm 28 yrs old & had 280 silicone placed under the muscle 1year ago... I'm still going back and forth when or if I should explant :( I wish I could just get up the courage to do it! I know down the road I do not want to spend over $6000 to get them redone, or go under anesthesia in about 20 years again for a cosmetic surgery. Right now I can get them out for $250 under local. I have a great doctor & he told me they would look pretty similar to what they did before implants. I was an 34 A (b with padding) before surgery. Before I have any complications I think I should get these things out now. Also, before I decide to have kids I know I want to adjust to my body as God intended it to be, small or "flat" chested :) ... I only want to send a positive message about what true beauty is, & I know it's not about bigger silicone boobs. I do think it took me doing this to myself to realize what I had was good enough :) Any positive words of encouragement is really appreciated. I'm not against or talking bad about anyone who has gotten cosmetic surgery. We all do our own things & are on our own journeys. Thank you to all the brave ladies on this website! You are all examples of true beauty.

I'm just curious, many of you said that you held off on explanting way after you knew that you wanted to get rid of them. What were some of the reasons why you held off on that decision? I'm just trying to see if it's the same for most of us. It seems like most people are happy with the decision to explant & I know if I'm going to do it I should do it now. I keep asking myself why I am delaying this process? My other question is what you thought was the hardest part of the process? I guess I'm still mentally preparing for this decision. Thanks for any advice :)

After reading all these beautiful explant stories I have decided to go ahead with the explant once I save up enough money. I hear great things about Dr. Melmed so I will try to get a consult with him, just to compare his consult to my original ps. The more I think about having implants, the fear of taking them out is not as great of my want to feel like myself again. I'm not going to lie, I am a little scared, but that's normal with any kind of change when the outcome is unknown. I believe with prayer that I am making the right decision. If I could ask you wonderful ladies for some extra prayers while I make a few last decisions on this journey I would really appreciate it!!! Thank you all for your support & I will keep you all updated with pics. I came across this quote & I thought it was appropriate for us all- "Let your instincts guide you to choices that align with your best self. Own who you are and be YOUR best, not someone else's" :)