Removal journey

Pic to previous post. Should i get laser or blast over? The idea of having to be more inked up is stupid to me but also I just want my tummy to be more light. I feel it makes my stomach look so dark. I’m so sick.

Hello,
I feel completely disgusted with myself. I’m back in the same position. I wish i would have took the advice from so many of you wrote me. At this point, I think I’m just addicted to fucking my life up. I have been trying to get past this coverup for the last 4 years and I simply can’t. I feel so stupid because now I have 3 layers on my body that I hate. I hate my body so much more now and I wish I just wasn’t even alive anymore at this point. I have serious issues but I’m working on them. Do you think there’s any hope for me in removing my coverup of a coverup? I don’t even care how much it will be or if my skin would just fall off. I already spoke with some laser techs and they said that it would be about 15 treatments. Returning to this account has made me so emotional looking at all the progress I had in the beginning. I’m so down it’s not even funny. I barely eat or sleep these days because my anxiety has just messed me up. I just want to remove the flower part not even the leaves because I already know there’s no hope for that green.