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Long journey for removal and mental health
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Long journey for removal and mental health
SurecharleyDecember 6, 2018
$940
Let me start by saying I am a tattood person that loves tattoos. I had about 9 until the two new additions I’m struggling with. I got two tattoos on a trip with my then boyfriend. This was my first time getting a tattoo in this way. Usually I have my own idea - don’t tell anyone - go and get it. This one felt more rushed and confusing and surprise.. I messed up. The first tattoo is on my wrist. It looks nothing like what I asked for, I did not like the artist, but for some reason I did not speak up. The second tattoo is a large cat tattoo on my arm. Verdict is still out on what I’ll be doing with that one.
My ex and I broke up right after this trip. I was struggling with mental health problems and he decided it was too much of a burden on him, basically. I went from living at the beach with a man I loved to now living in my parents basement, in a town I hate. Working the job I worked in high school, and literally sick to my stomach when I see these tattoos. How could i have allowed this? My life feels over. I feel I ruined my body. I have become obsessive and blown into a full on depression. I have lost so much weight and have started therapy and medication.
I have already had 1 treatment done at Zapatat in Virginia. They offer the r20 method. (4 passes in one session) My research tells me that many people are weary of the r20 method but I wanted to try it out since it promises quicker results. The clinic itself was very professional and nice. The laser HURTS. It doesn’t feel like rubber bands. It feels like hot grease. Nothing like getting a tattoo. I just told myself the physical pain can’t possible
Be worst than the emotional pain. Anyway I am now 3 weeks post first treatment. I go back in February for second round of r20 method. I hope by then I have found a way to move on with my life and not obsess over this. I’m a smart girl and I can’t stop beating myself up for losing myself in a relationship, getting ahead of myself and my own personal tattoo goals, and not speaking up when my gut told me no. Reading success stories on here shows me that there is hope. I will not lie and say I’m prepared for how long this may take. Im mortified for summer time which is hard considering I typically live at the beach in the summer. I’m scared and not excited about what this will do to me financially but I guess the only way out is through.
My ex and I broke up right after this trip. I was struggling with mental health problems and he decided it was too much of a burden on him, basically. I went from living at the beach with a man I loved to now living in my parents basement, in a town I hate. Working the job I worked in high school, and literally sick to my stomach when I see these tattoos. How could i have allowed this? My life feels over. I feel I ruined my body. I have become obsessive and blown into a full on depression. I have lost so much weight and have started therapy and medication.
I have already had 1 treatment done at Zapatat in Virginia. They offer the r20 method. (4 passes in one session) My research tells me that many people are weary of the r20 method but I wanted to try it out since it promises quicker results. The clinic itself was very professional and nice. The laser HURTS. It doesn’t feel like rubber bands. It feels like hot grease. Nothing like getting a tattoo. I just told myself the physical pain can’t possible
Be worst than the emotional pain. Anyway I am now 3 weeks post first treatment. I go back in February for second round of r20 method. I hope by then I have found a way to move on with my life and not obsess over this. I’m a smart girl and I can’t stop beating myself up for losing myself in a relationship, getting ahead of myself and my own personal tattoo goals, and not speaking up when my gut told me no. Reading success stories on here shows me that there is hope. I will not lie and say I’m prepared for how long this may take. Im mortified for summer time which is hard considering I typically live at the beach in the summer. I’m scared and not excited about what this will do to me financially but I guess the only way out is through.
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