Intense tattoo regret

hello to all of you who have been following my story and to those who are too dealing with tattoo regret. For one, I'm in a totally different state of mind when I first started my review. I had a laser removal consultation almost a month ago and also did a test spot. It didn't hurt much(then again it was only a small area) but man is it expensive. I was quoted 225 per session for about 10 or more treatments. I feel like that's still a small price to pay for a big mistake. After doing some thinking about it with my mind clear and free of that nagging depression and self-loathing, I decided on keeping my ink. I will wear it as a reminder to myself to think things out further and to have more patience. I also found that my depression and all other things that came about lately wasn't just about the tattoo, I have a lot of things that I found I need to work on. This tattoo only brought all my problems to the surface, problems that I will continue to work on.
I'm very grateful for this website and for you all reading this and to all who reached out to me and kept me upright. Now its my turn to help others cope with this draining situation we call tattoo regret. Its okay to hate your tattoo. Its okay to have them removed. Its also okay to cry, seek help, and find comfort in others. what's not okay is giving up because I promise you this is only a temporary feeling and it shall pass. I'm not gonna say it will never bother you again because It probably will(it still bothers me), but with time it will be less and less of and mind racking issue.
Its funny how we can do one thing to make us feel good about ourselves and it does the exact opposite. I guess that's life. Tattoo regret is bad but it pales in comparison to having cancer, or missing a leg, or even brain damage. What I'm trying to say guys is this is a minor issue on the grand scale of things, so try to put it into perspective. we only have one life to live(as far as I Know) so do things that make you happy and don't focus so much on the negative aspects of your life.
I'm here for you all, so feel free to reach out to me. I wish you all well and remember that life moves on and so should we!

Hello all, My name is Philip and I'm 29 years of age. About 2 moths ago i got a tattoo on my upper arm that I had been planning on getting for 4 years now. This is not the mistake though. My mistake was getting another part added to it without really thinking about it. The first tattoo on my upper arm i love, but the second portion I hate it and its been over a month now. I haven't felt like myself at all after this and im not sure i can feel like myself again. The tattoo is of a face with 2 daggers going through and its quite big... Too big. I didn't realize how much i liked my bare arm. My upper arm tattoo was supposed to signify greed and the one i hate was to represent tragedy. While i still like the concept behind it, I just dont like the way it looks on my arm. To be honest it looks kinda bad to me and Its all distorted when i bend my arm. I'm thinking about laser removal but then i understand its harder for people with darker skin to be able to successfully remove. For someone with low self esteem this has been debilitating to say the least. A tattoo this big dosen't even look right with me being so thin either.I dealt with loss and had some harsh times in my life before yet, this is the worst ive ever felt for this long. I cant eat, sleep, or even get my job done at work like i used to because this is all thats on my mind. I haven't even engaged in my hobbies in over a month because of the grief im feeling.Being a man i feel like ashamed that I've cried about it and afraid people will see me as weak if I talk to anyone in my home life about it. I have never been on a forum making posts until now. Im so lost and mad at myself. Has anyone found their self in this position? If so did you get laser removal or did you just learn to live with it? I really need some advice on this and even more than that just someone to talk to. Im truly feeling hopeless and i cant even kick the feeling(I dont know what to do). Photo below.