Go to a Rhinoplasty specialist

Well it will be 5 years in a couple months. I still look in the mirror EVERYDAY and hate myself for having a rhinoplasty done. I especially think of Dr. Barr and how much he messed up my nose and with it has gone any self confidence that I had. I can't even bring myself to be around people who knew what I looked like before. I know I shouldn't care soo much about what I look like, and there are far more serious things in my life and in the world I should worry about. Its not about being pretty, I just can't look in the mirror and figure out who I am anymore.
I recently found my old photos of my before and after photo's from Dr. Barr - both the projected ones and what was actually my result. It show's better how I had better structure to my nose beforehand. It became just a soft blob afterwards, my lip fell down and the appearance of my nose is much wider. Also how far off his projection was to what he did.
He still tries to justify after every review I do on his Facebook page or Google how wrong I am and how great he is.

Well it's been over 3 years since my rhinoplasty with Dr, Barr and I still hate my face so much that it's has ruined my self esteem and I'm constantly depressed about it. I can not afford a full revision. I've had a minor one that has helped but still can't handle the face in the mirror. Dr. Barr is not specialized in rhinoplasty, do not go to him. So many bells went off and I didn't listen to them. He didn't do an internal nose exam, said he didn't do open rhinoplasty or change the nostril size at all, he asked me 5 mins before going under about curving my tip up a little (you can not make decisions right before going under the knife). He is arrogant and did not listen to my concerns afterwards, nothing is his fault it is all mine. My fault was trusting him even after I had doubts I shouldn't, I was just too excited to be able to breathe and not care about the size of my nose anymore. I've had a minor revision my pictures are my original nose, after Dr. Barr and then after my revision with a good surgeon.

After doing tons of research on who I should pick as a surgeon I went against my own research and went locally with Dr. Barr. I knew it wouldn't be the best outcome possible because he doesn't do much of a change if you notice from his before/after gallery. I thought I would save money and get my side profile fixed and best of all get my deviated septum fixed and be able to breathe. My before and after pictures showed minimal change and my consultation with him was what I expected. He said he didn't change the size of nostrils, he did closed rhinoplasty and that it would look more natural. I was disappointed that he didn't look inside my nose in any way to confirm if I had a deviated septum, he said he would see when he got in there. The main reason I was doing surgery was to be able to breathe and thought if I am going under I would improve my nose at the same time. My before/after pictures made me look exactly the same from the front except for a slightly smaller nose and the side view showed what I wanted, everything looked the same except the hump was gone. When I got my cast off a week later I was soo happy that I indeed had a smaller nose. However over the year as the swelling went down I was not getting my smile back. My lip had fallen down over my top teeth and were constantly rubbing on them. I always had a very toothy smile and my top teeth were the focus when I was talking. Now I felt like I had permanent duck face and a swollen lip. I looked like my face had fallen down, my top teeth were never visible. I have always been told I look young for my age, I felt like I now looked older than my actual age. My nose that was once perky and upright is now wider and points downwards. I also have a hump on one side, my nose falls too far in on the other and my tip droops down in an odd way due to lack of support. My side view is now my best angle and even on one side it is very choppy and not smooth. I had to go to the surgeon I had originally wanted to go to for a small revision. He fixed up my hanging columella and made my nostrils slightly smaller. I now have my smile back after spending the same amount of money I did on the original surgery. I still need all the other problems fixed but I will have to save up for years to even think of being able to afford it (it will cost 3 x the amount of the first surgery). I will need my nose rebroken to fix an open roof deformity, and I will need cartilage taken from my ribs to fix the lack of cartilage support on the one side and on my nose tip. Had I went with the surgeon I should have originally, I would have only spent $2000 more and I would most likely be happy right now. I have emailed and seen Dr. Barr again in person to see if he could help with these issues. I keep being told that I never said I was unhappy with the surgery - well I have told them now, so I don't see how it matters how I felt as it was still healing. I have also been told that he could have fixed my hanging columella/nostril size himself if he had known. The surgeon who fixed this issue actually emailed Dr. Barr prior to the surgery, so he knew. They keep making me feel that it is my fault that I am upset with my surgery and he has taken no accountability for the errors in my outcome. He did go over a solution for my hump on the one side (shaving my lateral nasal bones), but the other surgeon said my nose would have to be rebroken for it to be fixed properly and I trust his opinion more. I do not believe Dr. Barr is specialized enough to do the intricate work a rhinoplasty entails. It took him 45 mins to mess up my face and it would have taken the other surgeon 3-4 hours to do it properly. Please if you really want to change your nose, go to another surgeon. I wasn't going to post this as I don't like complaining openly, but I don't want someone else to go through what I am going through. I hate looking in the mirror every single day.