On the Flatside!! 28 Yrs Old, 2 Kids, Delivered by C-section - Santa Barbara, CA

Excited, and nervous. I've had 2 children, both delivered by c-section and gained a good amount of weight during my pregnancies. The skin is hanging around 5 years later and just hangs down over my clothes. It's uncomfortable to wear jeans and I don't feel confident in my clothes. I'm a runner, and spend time weight training and cycling. As much as I exercise, I know that my stomach will never go back to where it should be and I know that the only way to fix that is through surgery. I've got lots of time to stew about it and get excited.

So I'm about a month away, well just over 3 weeks. I'm still trying to figure out how to get my money in the account to pay for it, and get all the kinks worked out for that. I have the cash, but it's hard to make a purchase this big. I have to tell myself that it'll be worth it.

I haven't been paying very close attention to my diet. I exercise like a maniac, but that doesn't do anything if I'm eating everything in sight. All the candy from halloween and all that. So I'm trying to get back down before surgery. I'm tracking using Myfitnesspal.com, running, cycling, and I'm going to add an extra gym day or two to my regimen.

I am hoping that after my TT my gut won't stick out so much when I'm not sucking it in. I don't know if they can fix that. But I am hoping that it will. I look pregnant when I'm not sucking it in.

Also, I take anti-anxiety/antidepressants as well as a mood stabilizer. For the record. I take Celexa and Abilify, my Abilify RX needs to be refilled and I'm needing it to be refilled by a different doctor than the one that had prescribed it in the first place. I am hoping this new doctor doesn't give me a hard time about writing the refills. Now is not the time to be playing around with my mood stabilizer. haha. I hear it's a very emotional process, and I'm a very emotional person.

Other than that, all is well. Just trying to get the funds together to pay for this surgery. I have it the money, it's just not fluid yet. Hopefully, I can get it worked out before it's time to pay.

3 More weeks. I'm sure my friends are pretty tired of hearing about it, but it's all I can think about. I'm constantly looking at reviews and imagining how it's all going to play out. I'm so excited. I'm still waiting on my mom to get plane tickets out here, she can be pretty last minute about stuff like that but I know she'll be here when the time comes, so I'm not worried.

It turns out my husband MIGHT have to work the week of surgery. I was hoping he'd be the one to bring me to and from the hospital since I might have a hard time walking and getting in and out of the car. Surgery should take several hours and it's a good hour drive to and from my PS Office so I didn't want my mom waiting around (with the kids) if they weren't able to go to school bc of it. I know it'll have to work it's self out, and we'll do what needs to be done. I just hate not knowing yet. I can't plan it out for sure and that bothers me.

I've gotten my medications worked out, and have refills on the ones I take, so that's one less thing to stress out about.

I've been tracking what I eat on My Fitness Pal again and trying to lose 5 lbs before surgery date. I was up at 130 and now I'm down to 127, I need to stop eating out of boredom, and snacking. It's hard to do. I exercise quite a bit. I'm a little worried about how long it'll take me to get my cardio back to where it is right now after surgery. I know that it'll be worth it though. I don't think it'll take me that long to bounce back once I'm healed. All I can do is hope though.