In hindsight, there was nothing to be scared of, and although the results are subtle, I notice my friends and family telling me that I seem happier these days. I think its that (a) I am happier because of the boost in my self confidence; and (b) the result changed my eyes to look like they are smiling on their own. For most Asian women, they cannot achieve the same long curled lash look as caucasians since their lashes naturally go downwards. But I didn't realize that it was because of my monolid that my eyelashes don't go outwards. Now, I can curl and lengthen my lashes just like anyone else! Having curled lashes makes you look more awake, which is why my eyes "smile" all on their own now.
I also used to have the issue where my eyeliner would end up on my upper lids, no matter what I did. Now, because my eyeliner doesn't touch my lids, it stays right where its supposed to. I'm not constantly looking in a mirror to touch up my smudged eyeliner, I know from the looks I'm getting that my eye makeup looks great.
The results have drastically improved my self confidence. I was afraid that the surgery would make me look I was ashamed of my nationality and be a "sell out". I didn't want to lose my Asian-ness. I've never thought of myself as pretty, but now I can look in the mirror and smile because I project that pretty Chinese girl I always wanted to be.