32AAAA Finally Getting Boobs! Silicone Moderate 350cc's.

Today is June 22nd. It's been one month since I had my surgery on May 22nd! I still have major boob greed but trying on my old bras and getting sized at Victoria secret has truly made me feel better! I was sized as a 32DD, which is crazy since I was a 32AA. But it's so confusing to me because the DD doesn't look as big as the DD I imagined it would be. But hey I'll take it. I asked my surgeon to make me a C. And I'm so glad they are not a C. I think I would have been so depressed. Some days I think high profile would have made me happier since I complain that they look so small and disappear in clothes. My left is so stubborn and is not dropping as well as my right. It makes sense though, since that was my smaller boob, with less tissue so of course it has more skin stretching to do! All in all everything is going well. In two weeks I'll be able to wear non push up bras! I was told that I can only wear push up bras 3 months post because they are still dropping and fluffing and I don't want to hinder that.

A special thank you to all of you ladies who have been so encouraging throughout this whole process! Thank you for your support! Xxoxox

So I am one week and a couple days post op and I have the worst boob greed! I started with nothing. Completely flat. You'd think coming from nothing and having something I'd be happy with anything!!! But this damn boob greed has me so depressed.

Because of my scoliosis, my fest is off centered so my right boob has always been bigger than my left. During consultation, and pre op I asked if different implant sizes will be used to fix the proportion of my boobs. He said it will have to be checked during surgery. Well I have the same amount of CC's in each boob. And they still look different. Right is still significantly bigger than left.

I was originally thinking 350. But then I wanted 400. PS put in 385 and I just feel like I should have went even higher like 400 something. I mean I am skinny. 5'3 110 but I have lived in padded bras and chicken cutlets my whole entire life. So they have always had the appearance of being bigger than what they were. I feel as though now in clothes they look exactly the same. As if I didn't even have a boob job. Bc they've always looked that size. Granted, they weren't. But I feel as though they only look like a real a cup/small b. I told my PS I wanted a full C, even possibly a small D. (Probably wishful thinking with the amount of breast tissue I started with). Everyone keeps telling me they will change, drop and fluff. The RN who works closely with my PS said that my skin is really tight and the muscle is squeezing on the implant so in a couple of months they will look better. I keep looking at reviews of girls with similar starting points and similar CC's and they've become DD's!!! I just hopeful that that becomes my end result in the end too but it's making me depressed thinking that I won't. And I'll just be a b cup. I just feel like I spent so much money and time researching but I made the wrong decision. I should have been more adamant about my look, the amount of CC's. Should I have went on more consultations. Should I have went to
A different PS? Maybe they would have fit more in? Maybe they would have used different amounts to balance the size of my boobs? Maybe I shouldn't have rushed until the middle of summer. So many feelings and doubts. Ughhhhhb damn boobie Blues and boob greed. Crossing my fingers and praying that they will drop and fluff and be way bigger like the girls I've seen on here with d's and DD's!!

I am four days post op today. First day I wore my contacts, normal clothes and put on a little bit of makeup! My boyfriend drove me to my post op appointment and my doctor said everything is healing well. I had no bruising and he said minimal swelling. Next Tuesday I go in and learn how to massage my boobs!!

Today I also had to drive myself to work. It was only for a couple of hours but ugh driving was so hard.

I am now just wondering about the dropping and fluffing process. I think I am having the boobie Blues. Once they drop and fluff do they look bigger, or about the same? I have 385cc's and I was completely flat before, like nothing. So I'm amazed that even fit inside with my little breast tissue. I've read other surgeons were only able to fit 200cc's or had to have two procedures, one to stretch and another to put the desired implant size in. However, I feel as though they look small. I have always worn a 34a or 32b heavily padded VS bombshell or maidenform dupe even tho I didn't even come close to filling it out, just so I could look like I had boobs. And I feel like now with my implants it looks exactly the same. Which could be a good thing, no one will really know I had a boob job. But I feel like I wish they looked just a tad bigger. Worth the 7 grand. But I think I'm just being irrational and going thru the boobie Blues. Hopefully that's the case.