Decision made

I just found this website and want to know as much as I can. I have read many stories and would like to hear more from those who have answers or advice!

I had my BA done in 2001 - 350cc saline under the muscle through the nipple. I am 4'10" and 105 lbs. I am 53 years old and in a turmoil. I was a 34B before the BA, nursed 2 kids so had very small breasts that just needed some filling up. I wanted to be a 34C - nothing huge, just nice and a little bigger. What I got was way bigger - a 34D. The day after my BA, I was distraught and wanted them out. I made an appointment to have them removed and then my PS and family and friends talked me into leaving them and waiting. Since then, I have most of the time not been happy with my big boobs. For ALL the reasons that everyone else writes about - they are the same. However, my boobs do look great, very natural, but to me they are too big for my petite frame. I went back in 2010 to see about exchanging them and my PS talked me out of it. Once again, he said they look great - leave them alone. I went back today and again, he said the same thing and that I really needed to think about it. I told him I've been thinking about it since day 1 and really hard since 2010. My husband and my friends tell me they look great but I have to choose the right clothing so you can't see how big they are. Sometimes that doesn't always work . . .

Without going into all the reasons why I want them out, am I crazy? My PS said you are not going to like it without them. Please tell me that I am and that they'll go back to what they were or has it been too long? I just want to be myself again but I also don't want to look "deformed?" - not sure if that's the right word. I just need to hear from people who have done it and are happy with how they look. I have found several stories that have gotten me ready to call back and make my appointment. I guess I'm just scared . . .and wondered why I was so stupid . . . I just want to be back to me.

I had my pre-op today and went in with all confidence and smiles. This is the best decision and I haven't even done the surgery yet. I'm just so happy I'm finally getting them out. I really wasn't even sure it was possible without replacements after all these years but thanks to this website and all the beautiful women who've shared their stories, I know its possible and what's right for me. You all truly helped me to say YES and what a relief. I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my chest (and literally that will happen soon.) I can't imagine having to wait longer than a week, that's too long as it is! I was afraid my PS might try to change my mind again but he didn't. He was just very professional and I know he'll do a good job. I was concerned about telling close family and friends but that's actually been very cathartic for me. My mom was thrilled! She said she never understood why I got them and she's never liked them! I think my husband is happy too - now he won't have to worry about guys looking at my boobs! My friend who also has a BA and loves hers said - "So, you're getting rid of your big girl boobies!" Well, YES I am and proud of it! I was initially a little concerned about how its going to be back at work - I'm a teacher and school starts next week. However, I'm at this very nice place now where I don't give a hoot! I will be pleased to be me! I found my old pics of before and afters. They are polaroids but I will try to get them on somehow. I'm so happy!!

I am so pumped up for tomorrow! It is finally here and I am so ready. I have to admit that I'm a little nervous but that's basically just nerves due to having a "procedure" done and going to a surgical center. I trust my doctor completely and understand that it's a "simple procedure" done with a local but I'm still a little nervous. I just can't believe that it's finally happening and I won't have to endure what my friend called - my "big girl boobies" - anymore. It is so past time to have them out and I'm so thankful for learning that I could actually have them out. I just never thought it was possible until all of you shared your stories. I'd love to post pics but my husband just doesn't want me to share them on the internet! I want to respect his wishes and thank him for putting up with all this mess from the beginning. Funny thing, he never wanted me to get them in the first place. It took years of persuading but this decision didn't take long at all! I'll post tomorrow just as soon as I can to give y'all an update. Love you all!! Good night and God Bless!!