27 Years Old, 3 Kids, Sub-muscular Saline Implant Removal, No Lift

I have 3 children. I breastfed each one between 1-4 months. After 1st baby I lost significant volume and when I was 20 years old I had a BA. I ended up pregnant a few months after my procedure and had mixed feelings about breastfeeding my second, despite the FDA telling me it was safe to do so with the implants, so I only did it about a month. Then, 3 years later I'm pregnant again and this time breastfeeding means everything to me. I tried so so so hard to build up a strong milk supply and go the long haul, but it was evident my procedure had thoroughly affected my ability to efficiently do so. I was pumping for 20 minutes, then nursing for at least 20 mins and then having to supplement with formula after that because she just wasn't satisfied. 4 months of that and I'd built up a major hatred for these fake balloons. I stopped breastfeeding at 4 months, waited a month and then set up a consultation to have them removed. Partly because I've regretted my decision to begin with and also because I'd hoped to relactate as crazy as that sounds. (No it did not work). Fast forward to now and I'm reminded why I went to get them in the first place and the extreme insecurity I felt. My skin genes are not the best. I was left with A LOT of loose tummy skin after my first 2 pregnancies so I also underwent a tummy tuck, then 3 years later I ended up pregnant again. That's a totally different story, but my tummy tuck held up much better than I ever thought it would. I have no before pics anymore though of my abdomen before the tuck or my breasts before the BA surgery. I really only have a pic right before they were removed and I was 20 lbs heavier than my usual weight. Now I'm back to my average 120 lbs and have lost even more volume. They never really fluffed up, and I'm trying so hard to find love for myself. I'm on here because I'd like a lift, but all the what ifs have me wondering if I should just leave well enough alone. (Not that it's well enough for me-but you get the idea).