24 Years Old, - Ottawa, ON

Too much risk was taken. A big decision I made without really taking the consequence of this really well. The doctor was in a rush every time I meet him, so I didn't get the time really to go in full details of the surgery process. If I have known there is a risk after the surgery in the outlook and how the surgery will exactly go; i don't think I would pay this much money and end up with unsatisfied results. I have a Chinese nose now ( all respect to Chinese people!) instead of my old nice straight nose, with slightly shifted to the left but still way better than now. I only wanted to straighten this slight shifted in my nose bone not to make it smaller or change its outlook. Also, I had breathing problem on one side of my nose. The doctor did fix my breathing problem through one side of my nose, but my nose outlook changed dramatically, which I didn't expect. Instead of a nice straight nose but with the slight shift in it, I got my nose with a bump in it and fell a little bit down due to this. The doctor tried to fix it for me for free, but it still I got this bump on my nose. Again in this second time, the doctor rushed me through, and never told me that he will take " more of my nose bone" to try to get rid of this issue of a bump in my nose until after the surgery. I felt really sad when he said that " I took a lot of bone in your nose to get rid of this bump" I felt like he took something from my body without letting my know. And for what? I still have this bump on my nose, and guess what? I m NOT satisfied, and deeply regretting taking this risk. I remember the doctor never took "x-ray " picture of my nose before the surgery and never went in real "details in what exactly what he will do and how much risk it can take. He only told me that he will fix the problem of my nose but he never mentioned exactly how and the risk of it. Of course because of him rushing me every time I meet him, I totally never thought of the risk and how he will go through the surgery. I remember one of his staff showed me a video about the nose job done by different people, but really nothing of that video really tell you all the picture, they only tell you the bright side of this nose surgery. The surgery really ruined my youthful outlook, I was 19 years old at that time. I was really looking handsome and that slight shift in my nose before was not very noticeable in public, and I felt handsome and always attractive by others as I observed from the surrounding. But since I did the surgery everyone one told me what happened to you? It has been 4 years since I had the surgery, and I can tell you because of this surgery, I got so less confident about my outlook, it made me really feel unhappy about my nose, and I can see in this 4 full years as I observed people reaction, I definitely look ugly, The surgery did not make me look unnormal but just it turned my face of a handsome hot person to an ugly under normal outlook human. I am telling you the truth here, base on my own observation of people looking at me whether they are my close friends or even my family or strangers who I just met. You can tell when people are looking at you whether you look ugly or handsome, from the way look back to you. I never got this expression in people face that I look hot or handsome since I had the surgery four years ago. To avoid myself of feeling devastated about people reaction, I take it as a joke when people make me feel ugly by doing bad expression in their face or scratching their nose, or their face or even turn their eyes away from my face when I talk to them. I instead laugh from inside. I say to myself so w?hat? I was handsome for 18 years in my life. It is time for me to feel how the other side person (ugly or under normal look person) would feel. And so as the time pass I convince myself that whatever people do of actions or facial expressions to show me that I am ugly I just don't care anymore. And try to convince myself that surgery was just a mistake I did in my life and even if it affected my youthful outlook to look uglier but still I am not in the worst scenario case as a result of nose surgery, and what if the table turned and look ugly, so what? I try not to care \anymore. Maybe if I fake it five years later I can make it any maybe naturally my face will growth and look better, or at least, get used to myself and the surrounding.
I know that because of this mistake in this surgery and of my outlook now, I closed so many doors on myself which once I dreamed of and most of them depend on outlook beside the mind of course, but what can I do? I will wait for my destiny because I believe in it and I am optimistic about it even if I feel sad from very deep inside but I have to live and survive.
I hope my experience helped someone to make their decision! Sorry If I was soo much honest but this is what happened in my last four years from the time I did the surgery. Thanks for reading.