6 Weeks, 3 days, new pic's

I am a 56 year old happily married woman. I developed normally (I think) as a young lady. I was a about a 34 C as a senior in high school. I was a C cup for years, only getting a bit bigger with my pregnancies, but then I would go back down to a C after wards. I remember being able to buy all the latest styles of bras whenever they would come out. I had cute bras of every color and style!
about 15 years ago I started growing for some reason, I can only guess it was a hormonal thing (menopause maybe). I'm now a 34 DDD or 34 F and down to 2 ugly boring bras...lol. My hubby gave me the go ahead for a breast lift last spring, but the more I thought about it the more I realized I wanted a tummy tuck instead. I know, completely different thing but I just couldn't imagine pretty perky boobs above a wrinkly saggy belly, So I went for the tummy tuck in July. At that time I already decided that I would get a lift after the tummy healed. However, the more I thought about it the more I realized I didn't want a lift, I wanted a reduction. I want to be a C cup again, with the pretty bras...or no bra at all! So I thought what the heck, I'll submit a request to my insurance company. I've had years of back, neck and shoulder problems, but I didn't think it would be approved. I had planned on paying for the surgery out of pocket. I was suprised when I received the approval letter. I immediately set up the pre-op appointment and scheduled the surgery date. I'm not concerned about scarring, but I do worry about open wounds and infection. It seems I read a lot about wound separation and don't understand why that happens. It doesn't seem to have any rhyme or reason to why some people will have it and others don't. Anyway, my pre-op appointment is November 29th and I'm so excited. Then my surgery is set for December 20th. I realize it's awfully close to Christmas, but I scheduled it that way because I get approximately 2 weeks off during the holidays and I figure that would be enough time. I only took 12 days with the tummy tuck and did ok. I'll definiely have to get my shopping done early.

Went to a halloween party this past weekend. Of course we were in costume. I was genie and my hubby was the sultan. After looking at the photo's of us in our costumes I am so ready for this surgery. All you can see is big ole' ugly boobs. I think I should wear the same costume next year to see how much better it will look. In spite of the boobage we had a really fun time at the party, but my total focus is on being healthy and ready for my surgery. I'm jogging about 3 miles per day and on November 1st we're (hubby, neice and I) are going to start hitting the gym daily. We're all three working towards getting in really good shape. That's where I'm at on my journey. Hope all is well with everyone else.

Well, just a little over a month away now. I don't know about any of you out there, but I watch a lot of programs on the HIstory Channel. Right now they are showing a lot of programs about the end of the world. The prediction of the end of the world or something big happening on December 21 has got me rattled. I know it's really dumb but nonetheless, who can control where our minds wander. My surgery is on the 20th and I keep thinking hmmm, is this a good idea? I'm really looking forward to this, but yet I've found myself being very short tempered, easily adgitated and sometime just plain b*tchy!
I've had dreams that don't make sense and leave me feeling down or depressed. I never had any of these feelings before my tummy tuck surgery. Maybe subconciously I'm feeling I got pretty lucky with the first surgery and shouldn't tempt fate. Then there are times when I just can't wait for the time to pass! I hate being one to wish time away as I feel life is too short as it is.
I've also been working 6 and 7 days a week for the past 3 months too and really need a rest. Things will slow down after Thanksgiving though, so maybe all this mental stress will vanish and I can enjoy the rest of the time preparing for surgery.
Anyway just had to unleash a little of these feelings. I suppose everyone goes through these mixed feelings from time to time. But thanks for reading anyway.