Rhinoplasty/NOSESURGERY-NOT HAPPY

I always wanted to get a nose surgery ever since I remember due to scar when I was young and also wide tip. I did not trust anyone to mess with my face because always been my fear of what if... well at age 26 I did enough research and went with all the positive reviews and saw Dr. Bruneteau, personally he is one of the best person I got to meet, took his time and explained everything well, I trusted him and and got the surgery done. His staff were all amazing and I was well taken care of and I wish I could say the same thing about my post surgery results as well. One side of my nose was getting bigger and swelled after weeks, I went back and he said with time it will be good. 2 years later I still had right side lump. I went ahead and hoped he would fix it and did revision( my second mistake, - I dont know why I didnt go somewhere else) well the now 15 months after revision I still have the lump on my nose and and first time the shape was better- He added some cartilage- etc to top so now I have middle of my nose bridge higher than rest as well. I called other surgeon and its hard to now because every time someone touches it - more likely will create problems due to scarring and most surgeon don't want to work if someone already done surgery on your nose. I spent so much money, I lost so much time healing and recovering from work, etc.. and most of all I spent lots of hours being sad overall. Blame myself? blame the doctor? blame my history? I don't know who to blame I just know I am the only one who lost time, money and ended up suffering.