Life Altering Experience

I have been trying to be optimistic for quite a while now, but what I am seeing doesn't match with what I wanted. It is truly heartbreaking to spend so much energy wanting to look better for yourself so you can be more comfortable with the outside world. However, my case just wasn't that. I cannot blame anybody but myself for being too naive when deciding to get a rhinoplasty done. Don't get me wrong, there are thousands of excellent plastic surgeons, even the best make mistakes, but I should've been more careful when choosing my plastic surgeon especially If we have a different aesthetic taste. Just because a surgeon is highly looked up in your state, doesn't mean you will get the results you wanted even If you explain yourself many times. At this point, not many changes are going to occur. It is slowly showing the results I will receive. I have tried talking to my surgeon, but it seems that we're not on the same page as to say which corrections could be made. It makes me upset so much because it is holding me back from getting stuff done. It has taken a huge weight on me that It is truly hard to explain. It like If you were drowning over and over again without anybody hearing you. It is a cycle of mental death that keeps happening. Instead of being more confident about myself, I have become someone I don't even know who can't talk to people like the way I used too. At the end of the day, this is a business that needs customers and practices will do whatever it takes to get you to have surgery with them. They might also create a facade pretending to be very genuine people, but truly once you have paid them, they will only see you as another insignificant individual who fell for the trap. Lord only knows how much I regret this procedure, but this is also a lesson I should take to make me stronger. There are people out there who have had botched surgeries, but we cannot minimize other people's situations just because people have gone through worse. We are all humans and deserve to allow others to know their story even If YOU feel there is nothing wrong. You see, this is much more than just confidence, It's about feeling rejuvenated with the world around you. I cannot stress this enough, but when choosing whether or not you want to have a rhinoplasty or any other cosmetic procedure than make sure that is truly what you want. As a person who is trapped in this cycle of confusion whether what steps would be the most appropriate, If I can take this back and not do this surgery than I would totally stop myself from making the biggest mistake of my life. I consider myself very aware of circumstances, so realizing that I allowed myself to be at this point in my life without having a clear plan to fix it, really hurts deeply. Don't be afraid of speaking your voice out to the plastic surgery world. You can save another person just by telling them your story. Your story is meant to be told so other people can be informed. Never allow any practice to shut you off, you have to stay strong.

So today my nose looked smaller and really defined. I was wondering if any of you guys can give me an insight into whether this is swelling. I do work at buffalo wild wings so I'm always serving and cleaning which requires me to bend down and work hard. Is it possible that this can cause my nose to swell? My most recent update titled ''regret rhinoplasty decision'' are pictures when I got home from work. Take a look at the pictures and let me know whether this swelling. I have good and bad days.

It's been about 7 months and I am truly disappointed but aware of my situation. Luckily experiences like this can be improved so I believe I am blessed. I am not mad about taking this procedure because I'm a risk-taker and many people can't say the same. However, my results are literally the opposite of what I wanted. I do understand that it does take about 1 year to see your final results and of course If you have thick nasal skin and oily skin then you are more prone to longer swelling. However, I believe my nose will not drop down the shape that I wanted which was exactly like the shape I had. As stated earlier, I am aware of my situation and hope my surgeon can give me an insight into what can be done to improve my appearance. I truly can't believe I paid money to look less attractive. I would never consider myself attractive, but I was pretty unique. Although this experience is causing me great pain mentally, I do not let go of my responsibilities and for everyone going through a rough patch in this rhinoplasty journey, don't let it stop you from doing things you love to do. I'm really open-minded and positive and I believe that this can be corrected. I am gonna schedule a follow up with my surgeon so we can talk about my situation. He is a very compassionate surgeon and a very nice one. In fact, we have a really good relationship so this must've been a lack of communication and I have to be more cautious this time. I want to know for sure if he is capable of performing a revision on my nose because I am devastated but I try not to think about it because I have goals in life and this is just a chapter in my book, not the end and I truly believe God has greater plans than me. I would highly appreciate your insight on my nose. I believe it is too upturned, flat and wide and totally messed my proportionate face all around. I wish I was happy with the way I looked like my mom insisted, but as a naive teen, I was more focused on my idea of my face. I have to keep going.