Worst decision of my life - I regret it every single day

Stepping into Dr. Rival's office is the worst decision of my life and one that I regret every single day. It's been a few years since my surgery and I still can't forgive myself for going to this doctor and having my nose, my face and my self-esteem ruined. I initially wanted a rhinoplasty to fix a small hump on my bridge and to slightly shorten the length of my nose from the profile view. I stressed to Dr. Rival that I really liked the shape of my nose (both the bridge and the tip) from the front view and my supratip break from the 3/4 view and did not want those aspects of my nose to change. I was looking for a very subtle change to my profile. He obviously did not listen or did not care to respect my wishes as he completely changed (and destroyed!) my frontal view. In addition, he took away all the feminine aspects of my nose including my supratip break and my attractive dorsal aesthetic lines. He left me with a tip that had a large and extremely noticeable dent on the left side, an ugly knob (bossae) sticking out on the left side of the tip and absolutely no 'shape' or definition. He also left me with a bumpy and wide bridge. Since he also removed my supratip break my nose was also left looking droopy and masculine from the side profile. It was hard for me to believe I had surgery with a real doctor as my previously pretty nose was left so deformed and unnatural looking.
I knew right away when the cast was taken off that I had made a huge mistake and the years that followed were extremely difficult for me emotionally and mentally as I processed what I did to myself and the sense of loss I felt for the ''old'' me. I also had a feeling something was not right after surgery when I found out my surgery was less than 30 minutes long. My partner barely had time to drive back home before the clinic called him to say I was ready to be picked up. Throughout the entire experience with Dr. Rival, I always felt rushed and like I was just another number in his factory line of patients. I wish I paid attention to this uneasy feeling before going through with the surgery but I always justified it by thinking he was so busy and rushed because he was a great and highly desirable doctor.
When I expressed my deep disappointment with the outcome of the surgery 6 months later, Dr. Rival was rude and dismissive and said ''well every nose has some deformities'' and while I agree with that statement, the deformities in question were directly caused by him! I knew at that point that I wanted nothing to do with this doctor ever again and I had so little confidence in his surgical skill that I never even bothered to see him again.
I have since had a revision rhinoplasty with another doctor but while he was able to improve some of the deformities caused by Dr. Rival, I still have a dent and bossae on my tip and my nose overall still looks unnatural. Please, please avoid this doctor at all costs. I struggle to understand how the same person that completely destroyed my nose and my face can have so many positive reviews. I cannot explain the amount of sadness, regret, guilt, shame that I have felt as a result of my decision to undergo surgery with him. After the surgery I lost my sense of self and I'm not sure that I've fully regained it years later. I can't look at photos of myself from before surgery as it's too painful for me and I have barely taken any photos of myself in the last few years. I wasn't going to write a review as it won't change the past but I wanted to warn others to stay away from this doctor (and surgery in general!). I would pay 10 times what I paid for both surgeries if I could just go back in time and stop myself from going through with it in the first place.