Unnatural results, ruined my face

It’s been a while, but COVID hit and I got comfortable because I got to hide my nose in public. Who else?! Also, I’m 5 months pregnant now! I can’t wait to go on a few more consults and hopefully have my revision by the end of the year. Second picture shows how short and pinched my nose is. I’ve saved up a ton of money in case my credit doesn’t work out. How has everybody been?

It’s been over a year since I’ve updated and there’s many reasons why. For one, I have not gotten a revision but I did revise my life. It seemed to happen after I moved from my old house into a new neighborhood and I had an appointment for my photo ID to be taken. I knew I had to leave the house without my tape so with every ounce of will power I had that morning I woke up, took my braids out and did my makeup. I was freaking out the whole drive there and even sat all the way in the back so I can avoid people. That didn’t last long, an attractive guy walked in and I was hoping he wouldn’t sit on the adjacent chairs next to me. Out of alllll the empty chairs he did!! As I was freaking out his name got called, then it got odd. He looked up at me and asked if his number got called? I said yes and he got up. He comes back to sit down and smiles at me. I’m wondering if he’s being a nice person or.. he finds me attractive? Before my surgery I was confident and always knew when someone was flirting but since my traumatizing experience I wasn’t too sure. I soon got called to take my picture and the lady who took my picture said “ok so pretty!” And showed my the picture. I agreed, I looked nice? I went home happy. And since that day everything has changed. I no longer hide everyday. I don’t wear tape. I went back to work. I grew my balls back in my relationship and am no longer the submissive one. But the most important part is that I’m back to the mom I used to be. My nose doesn’t stop me from doing anything with my daughter. We moved in August, and the past 5 months have erased my emotions distress that I had for the past year and a half. Yes, I don’t have the nose I want and I still want a revision this year. But it’s no longer something I’m obsessed about because I had to find healing before anything. I also don’t believe my nose is as bad as I thought, I had this image where I thought I was the ugliest person who walked the earth and believed I deserved to live hiding away. I will continue updating once I move forward with a surgeon. I hope you all have improved like I have wether it was thru surgery or on your own. And for all the new girls, I know it’s hard and feels like there’s no ending but I promise there is. Here’s a few pictures.

Ok after leaving this site for a while I realized I had to update my consults with doctors that I spoke to. The first doctor I saw was Hilinski in San Diego, sweet guy but doesn’t believe my nose is too bad and actually said some patients would be fine with your nose. OK NOT HERE FOR THIS BUT thanks. I began telling him everything that I didn’t like about my nose with a few tears going down my face and he said everything he could do would be limited and after that his voice jst became background noise cus I was already feeling wow I drove two hours to meet this revision expert who doesn’t see what I see. His quote was $15k. There was no connection between I or him and I left. Next stop was Jay Calvert in Beverly Hills who was actually one I was excited for only because his photos are out there to see and you can picture yourself with a normal nose like the rest of his clients. The nurses were nice , typical, blondes. Calvert came into my room and asked me to list everything I didn’t like and he agreed with everything but my main issues were the two cartilages sticking out of the nose tip. His plan for me was using rib for septal extensions, lateral extensions, because I keep telling these doctors I don’t want a short nose anymore. He went on with what he could do, the nurse took my photos and I was waiting for Calvert to edit them and show them to me but he didn’t. The nurse said it’s better for him to draw out what he’s going to do with my nose than show it on a computer that’s been messing up. He made me feel comfortable in talking and listened to everything and agreed. His quote was $25k.
The last doctor I consulted with was John Shamoun in New Port. I found him while I was on another ladies review on her primary surgeon and she listed in her comments that Shamoun restored her nose. I called his office you know just to see what it can be like, they were busy until April and we were barley on Feb. first impression he’s booked. I tried going on his sites and reading his reviews but there’s not a lot of information besides his primary rhinos which are good btw. I was walking into this appt thinking I wasn’t going to be impressed and leave. Nope, the most informative, empathetic, and honest doctor I have met. He pulled out a huge album of photos from his clients and none of these photos are on his site but they’re all his work. He wanted to point out examples of people’s noses that looked like mine and got fixed. After being there for what felt like an hour I left he quoted me $25k too. He’s on the top doctor but I still want to consult with Sam Most in Stamford by SF. Let me know if any of you have any questions thank you.