22yo Old, Have Wanted This for 10 Years - Raleigh, NC

Haven't posted in a little while, after that first month everything finally came together. It looks so scary in the first few weeks and things will even still change in the next couple months, too. I can't begin to explain how much of a relief it is to feel "normal" or sexy in my own clothes for the first time in my life. I can wear tight yoga pants or fitting shorts to the gym without worrying about looking uneven and bulky. I can wear tiny swim suit bottoms and lingerie without the fear of a lip or two slipping out. I can wear my work uniform without any chaffing or pain or having to awkwardly adjust my underwear. This surgery was a long time coming and I'm so glad I did it. Major confidence boost and self happiness all around.

I was beginning to think I was lucky and skipped the itchy stage. Nope. Walking is getting easier, but I still have to kind of waddle a little bit or else there's a lot of friction. I haven't noticed the stitches dissolving at all and I wish they would be everytime they get caught on my scrubs at work it's a sharp pain. They're really starting to push up from the skin so I think that's at least a good sign. Sitting normally is still painful and I can only walk or stand or about an hour at a time before I start aching and I noticed increased discharge whenever I'm moving around. The swelling is slowly coming down but I really just want to hit the one month mark so I can finally feel some peace and relax comfortably as the rest of it comes together. And wear a swim suit.

First day back at worked was awful. With the way my uniform fits, I absolutely had to wear underwear to create kind of a barrier so the crotch material wasn't digging into me...or so I thought it would help. I found myself almost nauseous and sweating from the pain trying to walk or sit down like a normal person. I think what's making it so painful are my stitches rubbing up again everything and poking me, really hope they dissolve very very soon. I'm going to look for some numbing spray to get me through the next full week. I know ice and Tylenol won't get me through anything more than just sitting around the house.