37 Yrs Old, 137 lbs., 5' 6", 36B Inspira SRM 405 cc! - Provo, UT

Hi!

I have had 'boob envy' for all my teen and adult life. I was self conscious because at 14 I still hadn't developed nor had a period and some boys teased me about being flat when we were playing softball for gym. They said something about using me as the bat since I was flat as a board. It's kinda funny now but I was devastated then. And I have always been small even after puberty finally hit - I developed very late in life - didn't even have my first period until I was 17. I wear very padded bras so my bra says 34C but if I wear a sports bra with no padding I'm likely a small B cup.

It's not something I'd think about much on a regular day, but summer months when having to wear swimsuits etc I'd be reminded of how I could only feel comfortable enough to leave my house with either a very padded bra, or inserts in my swimsuits. Nursing of course made this even more "necessary." I nursed my oldest daughter for 14 months and my 2nd daughter for 9 months.

I have always been pretty OK with my own body overall. I have a smaller waist and so my hip curves are nice. I just wished I was more proportionate...I had some up top it was far from having balanced measurements . But the little I had was reduced after nursing too. I'm thankful my husband has always made me feel beautiful so making this decision didn't feel like I was being pressured by him. I guess this will just be his reward for always being happy with me as I am, now he'll just have more to play with right? But for me, it will mean I'm more confident going to the gym, swimming, and at night when I take my bra off - no more feeling like I'm 'lying' under my shirts every day haha! No more hugging people and worrying they can tell I'm wearing a padded bra. No more feeling 'sorry' for my husband during sex because there isn't much to hold. LOL I know he said he was happy - - but I wasn't! I'm looking forward to feeling more womanly and confident.

I've written a couple of threads about my experience in my first two consultations, first with Dr. Moore, then with Dr. Clayton. I had my 3rd consultation with Dr. Bindrup today. I've decided to go to Dr. James Clayton. He just had a much more soothing and natural bedside manner - I didn't feel rushed or pressured and he answered all my questions.

My surgeon is amazing! He is a perfectionist and works so well at making sure you get what you're hoping for. He came in for another sizing try-on with me and my husband before I made my decision to go with Inspira SRM 405 cc, under-arm incision. He answered more questions at home and in the 2nd consult. And now that the operation is done, I know I chose the right guy! I'm only 1 week post OP but things are looking great! (see before and after pics)

That first 48 hours were crazy awful with pain and swelling and immobility but my sweet, amazing husband was the perfect nurse - he kept my medication schedule, ice, food, every little thing I needed. I feel so blessed and happy. I feel like I survived death - (there are times right after surgery for a few days when you can't sleep, and you hurt and it's hard to breathe and you want to die - not gonna lie - but I survived it!!) He took the girls to dance classes and even brought the stuff we needed to handle for our part in Thanksgiving dinner at my mom's which I went to for a short period of time 5 days post op.

I'm posting pictures here with all the post op day changes - - but I'm feeling so much better and seeing the pics of other members' implants dropping gives me hope things will eventually fall into place. I still feel I'm shaped a bit weird because they're still higher than I hope they'll 'land.' But I think the worst is over! I can move more and I think we're doing the massaging right (keeping fingers crossed)....it's only a matter of time that the tightness and pressure are a distant memory right?? Woo Hoo!! This is happening!