Explant 300cc | Age 41 | 13yo implants

Hi there!

Just wanted to get the ball rolling with my journey to going back to normal. This forum is gold. I will elaborate as soon as I have time and have booked the explant.

I am 31 years old, I have a 2 year old child that I breastfed for 8 months. I had Macrolane injections in 2009 that leaked out went lumpy. Then in Jan 2011, I had 300cc over-muscle implants. They never felt good or right. Love/hate for the last 3.5 years. I think that's enough. Can anyone relate to:

- Cold implants in cold weather? I'm in the UK and I surf! Brrr!
- Rippling?
- Boulders in the way when hugging?
- Boobs falling into armpits when laying down?
- HUGE growth during pregnancy?
- Feeling more self-conscious than you did before?
- Never having your shoulders back because they project too much?
- Being too embarrassed to do Pilates classes because your rocks don't flatten out when you stretch?
- The weird contraction when you tense your pectorals?
- Feeling a fraud when you advocate healthy living?

It's time to man up and face the issue. Life is too short. I have changed, my body has changed, my priorities have changed and I have wisened to this ridiculous society, it's unrealistic expectations and fixation with the self. I got caught up, but know I now. I know that money can't buy you the look and feel of someone else's breasts. That's what we did it for, right? You choose a picture of someone else's boobs and ask your surgeon to perform. But that won't work. Your answer comes from within. Beauty comes from within. It's a question of mental acceptance, not physical change.

I am so grateful that I can return to my natural self and restore my sense of wellbeing but most importantly carry on developing a stronger mindset to focus on the things in life that really matter.

To quote a comment I saw on the forum; the love/hate boob-job cycle is such a "First World Problem". I aim to move on positively, hold my head up and my shoulders back and prove to myself, my daughter and the next generation of Nip'n'Tucks that we are perfect as we are.

I'm looking forward to this journey! Will keep you posted! Thank you all so much for sharing your experiences, it's been amazing to see such great results in mind and body.

xx

My current posture - bad!
The posture I should have looks crazy with big fake [RS bleep]!

I've just changed the title of my thread to update my current status. The old title was - 'Age 31 | 1 Child | 3.5 Year Old DD's | A Journey of Acceptance and Self-healing | Plymouth, UK' - so it has been a while huh!

Due to financial restrictions, having our second child (our beautiful son who is now 8!), breastfeeding again, and a lack of bravery to accept my natural state, I find myself in a position 10 years later since my last update - to have them removed this year.

As I've detailed before, I was ready to have them out after 3 years. I've now had them for 13 years and oscillate between loving the way they look, to feeling they look too big, to liking the confidence that volume brings, to hating the way they actually FEEL within my body.

In the last 2 years, I have had Grade 2 capsular contracture identified by 2 surgeons. My left breast is becoming increasingly uncomfortable. There's something going on with it that I think must be the capsular contracture. I felt lumps near the armpit which were scanned via mammogram and ultrasound - to find implant folds. Every month, the week before my period, that area becomes tender to the touch. That boob is also getting a little larger.

Breast augmentation does not come without risks, no matter how you cut it. When you have BA, you must accept that you WILL either require revision or removal at some point. I didn't fully grasp this when I had them done. Sadly I do regret doing it. I know there are lovely ladies here that don't regret it and that's cool too!

In the last 5 years, I've been addressing self-esteem issues from core memories. I have come to understand that my drive for better breasts came from a place of emotional pain, my upbringing, and societal pressures. It's crazy to think that implants were only invented in the 60s, therefore we are very prey to the illusion of 'perfection' - especially if - like me - you're coming from a place of pain and weakness.

I gratefully stumbled across the most incredible book called Busting Free by Dr Amanda Savage brown - and I'm reading it to psychologically prepare for explant this year. No revisions. Straight removal. She has her implants removed, and has recognised the mental pathways that some of us take to convince ourselves that we can't be without them, or we won't be good enough. It really is the most helpful book and I wish there was a way I could scream about it to reach a really wide audience.

Have to do the school run now, by I will update soon with pre-explant photos of my heavy, tired 13yo implants and their rippling. xx