40yr old, 5'10", 150lb, 1 child

Since I was 12 yrs old I wanted big boobs. All the women in my family were well off, so naturally I thought I would be too. Unfortunately the years went by and I was still waiting! Lol. I always wore heavily padded push up bras, I even remember stuffing my bra with tissue's in middle school just so I wouldn't? stand out as my friends were all getting their boobs. Prior to having my only child when I was 24, I was an A cup. I entended to breast feed although the joke was that my baby would probably starve. As it turned out, I went up to a Full D while I was breast feeding but unfortunately couldn't sustain producing enough. I was then left with a B cup with absolutely nothing in the upper pole of my breast. As time went by, I expressed that I wanted implants. The people in my life (men) constantly told me "no way, you're fine the way you are" ...."If you get them, don't let the door hit you"....and last but not least "NO, I like your boobs just the way they are". Fast forward to age 34. I met my now husband, bought my first home, have good credit and an excellent job. A couple years ago when it dawned on me that the big 4 0 was not so far away and my husband and friends were discussing having a big party for me, I stopped them and said I don't want a party or gifts or a vacation, I want BOOBS! I truly think they all thought I was joking or just wouldn't actually go through with it. So when February came around this year I set up my first consultation with a PS. (My 40th birthday was in March). Then I set up 2 more consults with 2 other PS. I then had to remind my husband that I didn't want a party because I wanted and entended on getting breast implants. He definitely wasn't on board, and yes we fought about it and we NEVER fight. I was holding my ground this time, I kept hearing, why? Your fine the way you are! You don't need them! That's stupid! Your 40, not 20 something! This was from all my friends and my husband. Dear Lord ppl, yes I'm 40, not dead! At this stage in my life, they are for me and me only. I don't need a man, already got one of those. I don't want them to show to every Tom, Dick and Harry, nor do I dress provocatively. I've lost a husband (12 yrs ago) my only brother, my only Aunt and both of my parents.... Life is so short and we are only given 1, so enjoy it and do what makes YOU happy! "You do You"!
So on Thursday May 4th, I got breast implants. My PS and I decided on 405cc smooth round moderate plus silicone implants. Inframammary incision (under breast) and submuscular (under the muscle). I wanted a natural look but also wanted to be very full.
Surgery day was fine, no nausea or vomiting, just extremely heavy chested and sore. Day 1, same as surgery day, just got winded more. Now day 2, was a tad different. Really sore, tight tight tight and heavy, I was allowed to shower with assistance from my husband. Neither one of us knew what they looked like and were quite anxious to see. Well, i think we were both surprised and not in a good way. He said nothing and all I could say was "oh my". I knew by the look on his face that he was grossed out to say the least! Since then, he hasn't touched me or even sat by me. We have a big sectional (which we are always on together) but now he's been sitting in a chair on the other side of the room. Even when I look at him, he seems to get uneasy and looks away. Oh I'm hoping and praying that once the swelling goes down and they begin to drop, that they will look different. Because to be honest, if they basically stay the way they are, oh hell no! I have uploaded a few before and after photos here, if anyone can give me insight on this, I would be more than appreciative!

Had my first post op appointment Thursday May 11. Incisions are healing perfectly, I am still so tight and get winded pretty easy, my PS explained to me that she had a difficult time putting the 405cc implants in because my muscles are so tight and my pocket is only so big. So with that said I must continue to do my arm exercises to stretch out the muscle and under no circumstance am I to lift anything. She said I look great and yes they will look completely different once they drop and fluff. I return for my 6 wk check up on June 15.

So I noticed I wasn't updating correctly, so that's why my 7 day post op was just updated today. Please forgive me.
So the past week has been up and down, 12 days out I was extremely swollen all of a sudden and felt as if they as high if not higher than the first couple of days. I called my PS and spoke with her nurse Dee, she informed me that the ibuprofen I hadn't taken in a while also acts as an antiinflammatory and helps with swelling so to continue to take it daily for another week or so. I feel better since taking it again. My right is my smaller breast and is hard as a rock and high, while my left is more swollen, round, lower and painful. My nipple's are still hard 24/7 and sore as anything, can't wait for that to subside. Other than that, I'm definitely getting used to them and I think I will love them in the end.