19 days post-op...new pics!

Had a moment yesterday. It's really starting to sink in that I'll be losing a part of myself. It sounds crazy because of all the hardships I've faced due to my oversized breasts. I've had dreams of a butchered reduction and also of what I consider to be my dream breasts. Has anyone else had such a dream? I laughed at myself the next morning becauseI felt as if I was losing it. I did my registration with the hospital last week and I almost cried. I was willing to go as far as paying out of pocket to have this surgery until that one fateful visit to my GYN and she asked if i was crazy because it was clear that this would not be for cosmetic reasons. She started the ball rolling on my documentation for insurance and when I went to see my PCP, he followed suit. If it wasn't for those guys, I dont know how much I'd be shelling out. Even when I went to my consult with my PS, he informed me that my breast were indeed extremely large. In the category of the largest he had seen practice wise. I just experience mixed emotions with this whole ordeal. Part of me is excited because my days of not being able to exercise properly, pain, rashes, and finding so many different outfits in the clothing store that I like and heading to the fitting room only to walk out with nothing because of the way my breasts protrude and make me look like a Sumo wrestler, are nearly over. On the other hand, the terror of being "put under", losing my big beautiful breasts , my nipple sensation, etc. I keep telling myself that I'll be fine. This is all for the better. Glad to be a part of this support team because I need all that I can get. I will be uploading pics within a few weeks of my before.

Had to nurse another huge a rash these past two days. They're more frequent lately. Just 4 weeks and 5 days until the big day...each day brings about more anticipation. Pics coming in a couple of days after this rash clears completely.