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I got implants 12 years ago in 2004. I was a late...
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I got implants 12 years ago in 2004. I was a late bloomer in middle school that got teased mercilessly by the boys for my skinny arms and flat chest. I even once had a boy embarrass me at age 11 in class by asking me if I had a bra on (I did) and he asked me why I had one since I had no chest...I was mortified but everyone got a good laugh. ....bullies never realize the damage they do...years of this classroom humiliation about my breasts, and the designation of president of the itty bitty [RS bleep] committee, by age 13 I was pretty self conscious....
At 25 I got a job and moved away and I researched implants for a year online. I found a doc and went with the first consult I had as I was eager to finally have breasts!!!. I was very flat so I requested to be a full B cup. Well the day of surgery I went home and my chest was HUGE. I assumed it was all swelling ....I was even more self conscious than before and worried about my cup size as I could only fit D cups. So at my 3 month post-op I mentioned they were too big. My surgeon became defensive and said " Well they look better than before "...and he left the room. His nurse assistant apologized for him profusely and finished the visit.
In any event, I never went back for any follow up as I was embarrassed. As time went on they never went down.... unless I was working out or on a diet and they always got bigger if I gained any weight . I stayed about a D cup large C cup if I lost weight. Then begin years of hiding them, bras that never fit, looking like a total [RS bleep] bag in a swim suit, embarrassing dates, dreading getting undressed, shirts and dresses that never fit, they had rippling and creases as my breast tissue was so small. To make it worse I ended up with the rare complication of nerve damage and lost sensitivity in my nipples completely by the 6 month mark. This ironically only happens when implants are too big for your frame and the nerves can't realign properly to heal.
As the years went on they fluffed and ended up looking nice for saline ....but never lost that hard round fake boob feel. And nipples stayed numb.... Over the years I considered revisions or silicone and to make them smaller but decided I was lucky they looked okay and I didn't have any need for additional surgery.
Fast forward to my mid thirties...... After spending the last few years dating and married to a complete womanizing cheating jerk , who only cared about what I looked like, I had a serious reality check moment..... Someone commented too my soon to be ex on my figure and big boobs for a skinny girl. The ex then told them my boobs were "totally fake", and laughed......a huge argument ensued later on about disrespect and why he didn't get that it was a violation of my privacy and not for him to share, which he totally blew off on top of all our other marriage problems..I was fed up...but not just with him.
Fed up with the fake boobs, the negative attention, explaining them, trying to hide them, putting up with sex obsessed idiots dating me for the wrong reasons, men who stare at and talk to my chest, men insisting on giving me creepy hugs that last to long, not sleeping on my stomach, not being able to exercise on a treadmill without a regular bra and a sports bra, clothes that don't fit, the list goes on....
I'm now single, over 3 years, not dating, happy, and focused on health, wellness, loving my self again as is, and rebuilding my self esteem.
I have been stalking this blog and reading your stories for a year now and I finally got the courage to schedule a consultation for removal..... I'm pretty terrified....but ready to take the next step in my journey to self acceptance. Consultation is in 2 weeks
At 25 I got a job and moved away and I researched implants for a year online. I found a doc and went with the first consult I had as I was eager to finally have breasts!!!. I was very flat so I requested to be a full B cup. Well the day of surgery I went home and my chest was HUGE. I assumed it was all swelling ....I was even more self conscious than before and worried about my cup size as I could only fit D cups. So at my 3 month post-op I mentioned they were too big. My surgeon became defensive and said " Well they look better than before "...and he left the room. His nurse assistant apologized for him profusely and finished the visit.
In any event, I never went back for any follow up as I was embarrassed. As time went on they never went down.... unless I was working out or on a diet and they always got bigger if I gained any weight . I stayed about a D cup large C cup if I lost weight. Then begin years of hiding them, bras that never fit, looking like a total [RS bleep] bag in a swim suit, embarrassing dates, dreading getting undressed, shirts and dresses that never fit, they had rippling and creases as my breast tissue was so small. To make it worse I ended up with the rare complication of nerve damage and lost sensitivity in my nipples completely by the 6 month mark. This ironically only happens when implants are too big for your frame and the nerves can't realign properly to heal.
As the years went on they fluffed and ended up looking nice for saline ....but never lost that hard round fake boob feel. And nipples stayed numb.... Over the years I considered revisions or silicone and to make them smaller but decided I was lucky they looked okay and I didn't have any need for additional surgery.
Fast forward to my mid thirties...... After spending the last few years dating and married to a complete womanizing cheating jerk , who only cared about what I looked like, I had a serious reality check moment..... Someone commented too my soon to be ex on my figure and big boobs for a skinny girl. The ex then told them my boobs were "totally fake", and laughed......a huge argument ensued later on about disrespect and why he didn't get that it was a violation of my privacy and not for him to share, which he totally blew off on top of all our other marriage problems..I was fed up...but not just with him.
Fed up with the fake boobs, the negative attention, explaining them, trying to hide them, putting up with sex obsessed idiots dating me for the wrong reasons, men who stare at and talk to my chest, men insisting on giving me creepy hugs that last to long, not sleeping on my stomach, not being able to exercise on a treadmill without a regular bra and a sports bra, clothes that don't fit, the list goes on....
I'm now single, over 3 years, not dating, happy, and focused on health, wellness, loving my self again as is, and rebuilding my self esteem.
I have been stalking this blog and reading your stories for a year now and I finally got the courage to schedule a consultation for removal..... I'm pretty terrified....but ready to take the next step in my journey to self acceptance. Consultation is in 2 weeks
UPDATED FROM Anodyne
The Implants...thing one and thing two...
A few pics of my Implants soon to be explants. My courage seems to wax and wane. I have been trying to imagine what I will look like without them. Will it be noticeable? Will I need a padded bra for awhile? Will my nerve damage heal once they are out for good? Can they take them out through the nipples so I don't have another scar? Will I really have the confidence I need? In all honesty I don't know if wearing a padded bra would bug me at all at this stage I prefer bras that are lightly padded which I can almost never find in my size. Did anyone get it done and feel awkward? Do people really not notice a boob decrease? I guess the good thing is if I get it done before spring then with all the heavy sweaters I will have time to adjust. Any words of encouragement are welcome for my journey
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January 29, 2016
thank you so much for sharing! I had implants at 20 and now 46. They were always hard as tennis balls and figured that was just how implants were. 5 years ago did an MRI and one is ruptured, but encased in the capsule. I was very flat chested at 20. I am a pretty natural gal, healthy, organic type, but I loved the balance that breasts gave my figure.. and all these years was very grateful for them! I now have fibroids and an energy doc felt the fibroid and the ruptured implants were strongly linked and suggested that I must to get them removed before i would do anything to remove the fibroid, as the toxins would then only find another place to go. Oh my, I feel frozen with fear a little.. do I get them out, wait 5 months to heal and then do stem cell fat transfer to at least have little boobs.. or replace them with saline.. but there are some horror stories with saline as well and just frozen with what to do.
January 29, 2016
Really?! I have fibroids to in fact...I didn't get the official diagnosis until 2 years after the Implants!! I also gave the fat transfer a thought. I am going to ask my doc about it.
January 30, 2016
I just got back from a PS.. he felt that it would be best to remove the implants but wait for them to heal before doing anything else.. be it fat transfer or new implants as there is just very little skin and natural breast tissue it would increase the risk of damage to the nipple nerves. so that would mean being totally flat chested for summer.. wow I would love to go back to my head in the sand again!
January 30, 2016
Well I think I could manage with a padded bra if need be to heal. If Padded bras are waaaay better than 12 years ago. In fact they all come padded to up the cup size or pushed up in some way now which was driving me nuts because I just looked even bigger! My last 2 bras were minimizer bras from Kohl's...
January 30, 2016
Snowie,my PS said the same, remove and wait 4-6 months then lift (I'll definitely need a lift). I'm getting second opinions cuz I'd rather just have one surgery and be done with it.
January 29, 2016
From what I've read, saline are pretty easy to remove and can be done under local anesthesia, so I don't see why the can't remove them through the existing scar.
I lost all nipple sensation too. :(
I lost all nipple sensation too. :(
January 29, 2016
Wow doesn't it suck having no sensation its been years and the only time I can feel them is when my period is really bad.:(
January 30, 2016
Yea it's so weird being intimate and not feeling them. I just got a BA so I'm hoping sensation will return. My PS said it could take 3 months. However a few weeks after implants the skin around my nipples started to tear, doc said he'd never seen this before. My nipples are very tender like I'd been breast feeding. If I lEan over without holding them or wearing a sport bra, I feel them tearing.
I so wish I had a time machine!
I so wish I had a time machine!
January 30, 2016
Yeah I was really bummed when my sensation never came back. That was the best part of intimacy for me and I have hated having to work around that. Since I'm single now and not dating I'm hoping I can just focus now on accepting myself. I'm not going to take it too hard if it doesn't return but from what I'm reading it sounds like I may have a shot at it returning after explant if I use the same incisions. Don't beat yourself up we all make mistakes . what's important now is growing and acceptance((hugs))
January 29, 2016
Oh my gosh I have the same exact story and about the same exact boobs. I have been looking into getting mine out as well. I'm just so worried what they will look like afterwards. All the pics of explant so have seen on here have looked great. Then when I research online I get scared all over again. At this point I am so tired of these implants and constantly trying to hide them. There is nothing fun about clothes shopping because I either look like a tramp of over weight because I have to buy the tops so much bigger. Please let me know where you are in this process
January 30, 2016
Hey same here! I went online and looked at the explant pics and then I get worried if mine will come out looking like that ! I've actually been considering buying an ace bandage and wrapping them up just to try and get a visual. I know I'm so over them but I don't want to end up self conscious all over again. I guess for now I will talk to the doctor and see if my confidence can stay. The ladies seem so at ease with the explants and so thin and free
January 30, 2016
That's a great idea with the ace bandage . I don't think I would be too concerned with them being much smaller. I actually think that would be a relief. I'm worried that since I had small breast there may not be enough natural breast tissue for them not to look .. Well deflated . I am making an appt for a consultation next month. Let me know how yours goes. I agree all the ladies I have seen on here after the explants look thin and happy . I would be so excited to wear cute clothes without trying to always hid these boobs. Geeezzzz what were we thinking lol
January 30, 2016
Yeah I have been trying to locate my breast tissue and so far it all appears to be above my Implants and I think I have maybe a small handful? I know what you mean I actually worry about the deflated look and the above boob dents, and the lack of upper pole fullness, But truth be told I never really got much upper pole fullness even with Implants unless I had on a push up bra. But it was never cleaveage as much just hard round fake boob cleavage.. I would love to wear a small or xsmall shirt again!!! All my tops are mediums and larges...I guess we let self conscious ness get the best of us! I'm going to try and be brave !
January 30, 2016
Yes I have the had fake boob cleavage too. I have been trying to locate my natural breast tissue too. Ohhhh I so want to wear a small cute shirt and feel good in it. Your right . It's us being self conscious got the best of us. Honesty if I could get them out tommorow morning it wouldn't be a day to soon. Let me know what prices you get. I have found 3400 and 1500 in my area for a straight explant. But this price is not in stone . The consultation will decide that .
January 30, 2016
Hi River and Anodyne
I haven't had my explant yet but also assumed I had no breast tissue. At my first consultation my surgeon examined me and said - yes, there is breast tissue and even estimated how many grams and my potential cup size B/C. So, maybe get a consultation to put your minds at rest re. what is or is not there. We can build all kinds of stories in our heads and they are usually worse than reality :)
I haven't had my explant yet but also assumed I had no breast tissue. At my first consultation my surgeon examined me and said - yes, there is breast tissue and even estimated how many grams and my potential cup size B/C. So, maybe get a consultation to put your minds at rest re. what is or is not there. We can build all kinds of stories in our heads and they are usually worse than reality :)
January 31, 2016
Wow that's great they can tell you how much breast tissue is left??? I'm even more eager now to go to my consult in 2 weeks! Thanks Robin!!
January 30, 2016
Most surgeons will suggest that you do explant through the same incision, so you shouldn't have a problem with that. Even if the procedure is about getting rid of the implants, you are still having surgery and will need time to recover. I also had my implants put in the same year as you and explanted about a month ago. I don't regret the procedure but I'm healing slowly. I went in thinking it would be a matter of taking it easy for a week and it would be over, but recovery takes months. You can do it too! Just do your research, pick a good surgeon and take good care of your body before and after explanting.
January 30, 2016
Good to know thanks so much did yours come out looking okay after 12 years??? I don't have kids never breastfed so I'm hoping I may have a shot at some breast tissue being left.
February 7, 2016
They're ok, I have some tissue left, mostly at the bottom but I had a son and breastfed around two years after getting the implants. I have some stretch marks on the upper pole but I'm satisfied overall; I'm actually surprised not to be completely flat- chested :)
February 7, 2016
Yep I saw your pics You had a good amount of tissue so I'm feeling more confident that I will have some too! Sry ur surgeon didn't have good bedside manner but your boobs look great and are coming along nicely!!!
UPDATED FROM Anodyne
1 week till consult
So, I have one more week to go before my consult. I have been thinking non-stop about my explant. One thing I like by looking at all the pics of those who have already had theirs is everyone looks so slim and healthy! I must admit I like the slim healthy look! I always thought I looked unhealthy with my small boobs especially when I would exercise and work out and my sternum and ribs would sometimes make me look skeletal if I tried to wear a low cut top. But I also like the idea of wearing a small normal bra again! To be able to buy a bra from any old store instead of spending almost 50 or more on a bra. I'm a little nervous that my stomach may look bigger since I have put on around 10pounds since then....I guess in all I'm just hoping to love the new me I know I won't have exactly the same boobs as before but I'm a bit excited because I have been trying on clothes and bandaged my chest down with a wrap just to get an idea of what being flat again would look like and I liked it! I also went on Amazon and looked at some padded bras for work. I think I want to slowly transition to being flat again at work. I don't think many people will notice because I never wear tight clothes I'm hoping to just look thin and healthy and not sickly like I used too.
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February 7, 2016
I agree with you. I actually hate the look of the big fake boobs. I think women look so much healthier, slimmer, and more feminine with small, natural breasts. I bought a regular bra today and it's a small B! I am thrilled! I hated those hard balls in my chest. I forgot what soft, natural breasts felt like. I am so much more comfortable in my body! Good luck to you!
February 7, 2016
Yaaay! A small B is awesomeness! I read you went to the gym I hope I can be as comfortable and confident as you are when its my turn!!
February 7, 2016
Yes!! It feels so good to be back in the gym!! You will be confident! Honestly, when I was there today, I kept looking around to see if anyone (that was also a regular) was looking at my chest! No one was!! Lol! I don't care! I'm happy!
February 7, 2016
Lol appreciate the honesty!!! I know I will have some moments of discomfort once its done but I want to be me again!
February 7, 2016
Good luck to you! I will be following your story. I also had breasts that made me miserable and embarrassed, and I was so self conscious. I just had an explant and lift. Because I had put on my middle age weight I had more breast tissue during the explanation than before I got implants! You might be surprised to have a fuller chest than before your implants. I think u have a beautiful figure and smaller, natural pretty breasts will look great on you. I bet you will feel so much better and you heal and fluff. Now just choose a good surgeon that you can trust
February 9, 2016
Awww thanks for the encouragement! I'm in the process of waiting my consult is Monday I would love to have my old boobs back!
February 10, 2016
I had my silicone implants removed after 4 years. I wasn't terribly big to begin with but after nursing my 2nd child, and a cheating partner, low self-esteem led me to implants. I've felt much better about myself AFTER the explant than I ever did with them. I had lost sensation in my right nipple at implant. It never really came back afterwards. I can feel pain if I squeeze it but that's about it.
No one noticed I had them (I kept them covered b/c I was so ashamed). No one noticed I had them out either lol.
I can wear the lightly padded bras in the girl section at Walmart and I have no shame. They're not expensive and come about two to a pack. Take that Victoria's Secret!
V-neck shirts are very flattering for us smaller chested folks. Another lesson learned. There are so many ways you can make your styling work for smaller boobs.
I kept my implants after they were removed and boy are they heavy!! I kept them to show my daughter (who is looking to be built just like her mom) what I did to build up self esteem and how apparently they didn't work b/c they're in a bag in my closet lol. Just a little life lesson. You got this!
No one noticed I had them (I kept them covered b/c I was so ashamed). No one noticed I had them out either lol.
I can wear the lightly padded bras in the girl section at Walmart and I have no shame. They're not expensive and come about two to a pack. Take that Victoria's Secret!
V-neck shirts are very flattering for us smaller chested folks. Another lesson learned. There are so many ways you can make your styling work for smaller boobs.
I kept my implants after they were removed and boy are they heavy!! I kept them to show my daughter (who is looking to be built just like her mom) what I did to build up self esteem and how apparently they didn't work b/c they're in a bag in my closet lol. Just a little life lesson. You got this!
February 12, 2016
LOL love it!!! Thanks for that inspiration ! Honestly nobody noticed mine really either unless I wore a tight top. No one in my family even knows I have them! You guys are great and that's a great way to look at them improving self esteem after having the courage to remove them. My consult is in a few more days!
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