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33 Yo W/ 1 Child. 11 Yo Saline Under Muscle W/ Incision Located Below Breast. Cannot Wait to Be Healed! - Overland Park, KS

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Like so many ladies on RealSelf I found this site...

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Like so many ladies on RealSelf I found this site while digging online for explant information. It has been such a reassurance for me every time I have any doubts or questions, that I feel an unwavering need to pay it forward. Just got off the phone with my fiance, and I let him know I was posting my boobs online, he said, "That's great!" Not exactly the response you would expect from your significant other for posting nudie pics for the public! But he catches me looking at boobs on here ALL the time! He knows how helpful this site has been. I haven't had much doubt that implant is the right decision for me. But every time I read a review on here, and I see ladies with imperfect breasts typing that they can live with the imperfections to be free and natural, it reassures me even more that regardless of my outcome, I will not regret this decision.
For the last 11 years I have had a love hate relationship with these big boobies. I remember the first time I saw them after my augmentation surgery. I HATED them! They looked like giant balloons, so unnatural! As time has gone on, and after having my daughter 5 years ago, they did settle in some, and they look somewhat more natural not sitting so high. I can't say that I have hated these boobs every day. It's been an interesting ride. I've felt elated to fill out a swimsuit top, and more recently, I've felt embarrassed that my breasts fall out everywhere and (to me) look so obviously fake! I’ve been excited that I fill out the breast area in tailored clothing, and disappointed that some of my favorite clothes look inappropriate with boobs falling out everywhere, or just fit so tight in the chest that I feel like I can hardly move.
When I was young, 23, I wanted big boobs so bad because I am a pear shaped figure –ALL BOOTY! And I just felt so disproportionate. Now, I realize that the top is not supposed to match the bottom! Everyone is built differently, and I need to accept that my body is ‘All about that bass’ – in the words of Meghan Trainor. Everyone needs to accept and love their body as uniquely theirs! I am so tired of seeing all plastic! Sometimes it is obvious, and sometimes it is not. But it makes everyone look the same, and it makes anyone who is all natural feel not good enough that we don’t fit in society’s perfect mold. But who actually does?! No one! Not even celebrities who have to pay to look like they do. Whether they talk about it publicly or not, I bet at least 90% of them have had surgeries. And for the parts that still don’t look 100% appealingly perfect, there is Photoshop and CGI. These same celebrities are losing their own sense of self. They are being told that who they are naturally is not good enough, and that leads so many of them to serious mental disorders –as we all know. Seriously! I want so badly to see some naturally beautiful women in the media. It’s time we started accepting flaws, but instead of seeing them as flaws, looking at them as attributes that make up a truly unique person.
Point being, I have SO many personal reasons I want to take these things out of my body. I have been so blessed in that, I have not had any noticeable health issues from my implants. I have only ever had to have one surgery 11 years ago when I had them implanted. I don’t have a capsular contraction or a faulty implant now. And, I have to honestly say I think my implants look pretty damn good. So, I’m sure you are wondering, why would I want these things out?
I made myself a long list of reasons why I want them out. That way, I can come back to it and look at it after the implants are removed. I know I will most likely have moments where I think, “Aww damn! I don’t fill out this top anymore… why did I want to get rid of those big fake boobies again?” And I truly believe that having this list is going to be very therapeutic for me. A reminder from my past self (who is currently living with these implants) of all the reasons I wanted to have them taken out. So, here is my list:
1. Foreign Objects
I’m a so much more of a health nut now. Why would I want anything in my body in which my body feels that it must build a protective capsule around to protect itself? I am not a doctor, but my line of thinking is, if your immune system is constantly expending some amount of energy defending itself from a foreign object you chose to place inside of you, then it has less ability to defend itself from everything else. Hence, the implant health issues so many women experience.
2. Continued Surgeries
Why oh why put my body through more stress of elective surgeries?
3. Looks
They look too big to me on my frame, I get looks down my chest from guys all the time (never used to with the little tatas), I’m embarrassed over the way I look in a swimsuit, afraid that people can tell they are fake.
4. Uncomfortable when working out
I can feel them when I do certain chest or ab exercises, and running is so much harder than it used to be. I gotta strap these bad boys in with the tightest most uncomfortable compression bra, and even then, if I am not in the upmost running shape, I feel completely dragged down by them.
5. Back Pain
I have to stretch and keep my core strong, otherwise I experience back pain I never had pre-BA. I want to stay strong anyway, but they are contributing to the issue, I believe.
6. Loss of Sensation
I had such AMAZING sensitivity pre-BA. That is one thing I am really hoping to regain. I discussed this with my doctor, and she said I most likely would regain the sensitivity! WOO HOO!! All these years I have thought, "Well, that's it! I made this decision, and I'll never have that sensual sensitivity again." So I was nervous to even bring up that question with her, but she just said, unworried, it will probably come back. Oh, how I hope so! The regaining of sensitivity is just one item on my wish list.
7. Breast Feeding
I was capable of producing milk with my first child, but I felt so engorged, yet there was not enough milk produced to satiate her. I am curious to try breastfeeding again after explant, and see if my production increases because I would think I will have more storage room for milk!
8. Pictures
They look so huge in pictures… sometimes I feel like it even makes my head look disproportionately small.
9. Clothes
The battle for well-fitting clothes will always continue, but I am excited to wear some things again and not look so slutty!
10. NO BRAS
Um yeah… remember how you could just walk around the house with no bra holding up the girls? I can’t do that anymore. They are too heavy. Can’t wait have the weight lifted!
11. Sleeping
On my stomach! Yay!! Even side sleeping sometimes feels weird… they are just always in the way.
12. Hugging
Mine don’t feel cold, like others have described, but they are just hard and in the way. Always having to move them around so they don’t get squished between my fiancé and I.
So, there it is. I could go on about all of this forever! A couple other quick notes I wanted to mention. My surgery date is 5 days from now with Dr. Sheryl Young. I love having a lady doctor. She has been amazing! I wouldn’t say her views align with mine on everything, but what is important to me is that she listens. For example, she is not opposed to breast implants, but when I told her I want mine remove, she did not argue or press me for why. So far, I am really happy with her, and I will update once the procedure is done. I am going under general anesthesia and I have to have my drains in for 6 days (Ugh… it was the soonest available appointment). We are leaving the capsules in, as it is Dr. Young’s belief that the body should reabsorb the capsule it made over time. I believe this is probably true, and it could be a more difficult surgery to remove it. Since I haven’t had any health issues, I am ok with just leaving the capsule in.
I’ll update as soon as I am feeling good enough after my surgery. Best wishes everyone!

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October 20, 2017
Good for you! I was on the path of getting my BA when I suddenly put the brakes on and was like...wait a minute! Do I want to do this knowing what I know now? Everything you mentioned in your post was a reality to me and knew I had to let the desire to get them done out of my head and love myself for who I am...I see so many stories on here where women like you are relieved and excited to get them out....it's sad to see those who don't think about all the complications that come and do it to later regret it...I remember being almost obsessed about getting them done...and now, no doubt what so ever about not doing it...good for you and happy healing! XO
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October 20, 2017
Thanks so much, BA Girl! So glad you found this site and were wise enough to look at stories of women who wanted theirs removed before you had the BA. I was obsessed with getting mine done at the time too, and I did not do enough research like I should have. Thankfully, going through this has taught me a real lived lesson, and I was able to convince another friend that she does not need to have hers augmented, recently. I sent her right her to Real Self to read all of these removal stories.
October 21, 2017
Thank you so much for your post! I can relate with so many things you mentioned and agree with you completely. I'm waiting to get an explant date with my PS who is very reluctant to removed mine. He says my breast will look terrible "like flat pancakes" and he is encouraging me to get replacements, just smaller. Because I have never been totally comfortable with my bigger boobs either! They are not that big just too big for me (305 cc silicone). It's difficult not to have his support and understanding but I guess he is thinking that how I look will affect my overall happiness.
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October 21, 2017
You may want to get a consult with a Dr that supports your wishes, it too me 3 Drs to finally find the right one!!
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October 21, 2017
Hi tara01leilani! I definitely think my doctor supports my decision. What I meant to say was, there is no reason why I would need to have my implants removed, but she was understanding that it is my decision and she did not try to sway me from removing them. I’ve decided I’m against implanting foreign cosmetic objects into my body, but my plastic surgeon is not against implants. And that is what I meant by we don’t have the same views on cosmetic surgery.
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October 21, 2017
All these comments are confusing me on the app, so I got on my computer! Elizabeeth, I totally agree with tara01leilani. There are doctors out there who will listen to you and support your decision. I would not feel comfortable having a surgery from a doctor who did not at least seem understanding of my reasons for wanting to be all natural. Of course, no doctor can guarantee what you will look like after the surgery. Mine told me that we could wait 6 months and see if I would opt for a breast lift if I am unhappy with sagginess. At this point, I am hopeful I will not need to do that, as I want as little cutting as possible on my boobs. I would just say, definitely do your own soul searching and decide for yourself your true reasons for wanting them out versus going smaller. And, I find it really helpful to write this stuff down for myself. I hope I am happy when it is all said and done, and I truly hope you will feel 100% confident with your decision and your doctor's support. :) Good luck through it all!
October 22, 2017
Thank you LiveMacaw, I do feel that my PS is trying to help me so that I'm happy and confident. But it's obvious that this is his perspective and he isn't totally comfortable with mine.
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October 22, 2017
It is all your decision, so do what makes you feel most comfortable. I truly hope however you choose will make you happy. Keep me updated on your journey! Especially if you just need somebody to talk to who’s going through it too! ☺️
October 22, 2017
Thank you! I have found this is a difficult subject to talk about with people who can't relate , lol.
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October 21, 2017
I agree with all points on your list!!! I wish you a successful surgery and safe recovery!:):) keep us updated!
October 21, 2017
Wow!, I felt every bit of the emotional wrestle you've been carrying out in your mind with the effects the implants have had on your life, you write so well.

You have so honestly assessed your situation, and in the end, convinced me, that for some women, this is not the way to go, but of course, people will always want to discover for themselves, but you have at least let them know it's possible to reverse this procedure; that's a handy thing for those who, just like you, may not find the enhancement to be all they once believed it would be.

I have the dearest friend who recently had the procedure, I've noticed she can no longer hug people, that she twists and turns to avoid any pressure, and like you, I notice her clothes seem very tight across her chest. I guess she's learning the same lessons as you, but like you, it will probably take time for her to wish she hadn't done what she's done.

It's hard to say one way or another whether these things should exist, everyone is different, everyone has different circumstances and beliefs, and we all have different expectations, as for me, I'm as natural as the day I was born, far from attractive or proportionally built, but I'm happy with who I am.

I find it so easy to live with my body in its natural state, and I don't have to worry about any ongoing procedures or risks to my health..
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October 21, 2017
Hi Bobby123abc! Yes, I don't regret what I did only because I am definitely the type of person who has to discover things for myself! And it is so true that it is good to know this IS a reversible procedure. I didn't know that for years, until finally one day I brought it up with my general practitioner. When I mentioned years ago to the plastic surgeon who placed the implants that I was not happy with how my body feels with them in, he just brushed me off and told me he was afraid I would still be unhappy with the size if he removed them. He never said they might turn out looking ok if they were removed. Perhaps when this is all said and done I will be sad they are smaller again, but I suppose for some of us, this is what it takes to appreciate even the little bit we have! It's been quite the journey and learning experience. Thanks for your comment, and I'm so happy for you that you have been able to learn to love and accept yourself as you naturally are. And I hope your friend is truly happy with the decision she made to augment her body as well. <3
October 23, 2017
so much of this is exactly how I feel!! I am having mine out tomorrow too!! I am pretty scared, can't believe its finally happening!!! Good luck!!! I have had mine for about 18-19 years, 400cc under the muscle saline. I got them in my 20's now in my late 40's and want them out for my health. Mine look really good too...no cc but can't wait to have them out, just praying they look half way decent and have no complications. I am getting the capsule out though. He said he will take the drains out as soon as the fluid slows up enough. I am a musician and have a gig on Halloween so hopefully before then! That would be really scary! haha! I hope the sensation gets better! Its nice to hear that is a possibility! I had great sensation before I did this to myself too...so stupid..but we can't go back in time and undo stupid mistakes. I keep telling myself, 3 mos of healing now and hopefully at least 30 years of better health..time will tell!! Can't wait till its over! If all goes well I should be home by about 1pm...have to be there 7:30am..yikes...did I say I was a musician! :D
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October 25, 2017
Hi newoldboobs!! Hope your surgery went well and you are feeling good! I’m finalky done now too and I am ecstatic about the way I feel! I will post pics soon with daily updates. Hope yours are giving you hope for good-looking possible healing already. Happy healing!!!
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Surgery is over!

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Dr. Young and staff were amazing! I highly recommend Sheryl Young if you are in the Kansas City area. I feel so great! Light, just like others described. The pain is a constant ache, but pretty minimal. This is the day after surgery, and I have already switched to Ibuprofen.
I'm also VERY happy with the way they look right now. I can't believe how great they look considering this is only day one! This is like a dream come true for me. I get my drains out Friday morning, and then I will post update pics for these upcoming days when the drains are gone as well.
Best wishes and best of luck on your own journeys everyone!

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October 25, 2017
Thank you for sharing your story. You're going to heal so nicely.
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October 25, 2017
Thank you so much :)
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October 26, 2017
So very happy for you, and they look really good already! Mine is Friday can't wait, did you have your capsules removed? mine are not. Happy healthy new (back to you)!
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October 26, 2017
Thanks so much! Hope your surgery and healing go well! I did not have my capsules removed, since I didn’t have any health issues with my implants. I decided I would rather have a less harsh surgery than to take them out and have all the extra cutting
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October 26, 2017
oh just read you left your capsules in (like me) but my Dr. isn't putting in drains. did you take a photo of your implants? were they yellow or intact? do you think the 'constant ache' is from the drains or the removal itself? thanks
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October 26, 2017
From what I understand, the drains seem to just be a precautionary device to prevent seroma. But, I have also seen many women on Real Self whose doctors did not use drains and relied more on compression to help prevent swelling. I think my achiness is because my implants were under the muscle, and now the muscle needs to heal after being cut open. The drains are just more of a nuisance than anything. They don't really bother me too much, but I will feel much more like I am on the way to healing after they are taken out tomorrow. Seriously, best of luck with your surgery tomorrow. Mine went so smoothly that I realized afterwards, I really didn't have anything to worry about. Hope you feel the same. :)
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October 27, 2017
Thank you, I can't wait to see how this goes, and yes I though after 12 yrs it would be sore after removing too, some have pain some don't. Ahhhhh why we even do this to ourselves, I wish I could warn all the other gals wanting them. ugh, biggest regret ever.
October 26, 2017
I'm only 4 months post op and my body size is like yours 114 lbs 5 ft 2 and my doc and I talked about me going to a C cup because I was an A. Of course after Havin 3 kids my breast was not perfect and one larger than the other and I just wanted them better not enormous. So now I am a 38 DD and extremely unhappy. I feel all those things you described in just a few months and I can't imagine carrying these around for years. Doc is going to look at me crazy when I tell him I want them out at my next appt, I didn't get a lift he said I didn't need it now I have 2 different size breast all he did was make what I had look bigger and uglier. I'm ready to wear my clothes again. Good luck to you and thanks for your story, I knew I wasn't crazy.
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October 26, 2017
Ha!! You are definitely not crazy! My ba ps brushed me off years ago when I wanted to do something about my back pain and have them taken out. , so I would say, if your ps acts like your crazy, just shop around for a new one . Good luck to you! I can’t tell you how good it feels to have them out, and that’s even with the surgery aches and pains.
October 26, 2017
You are going to heal beautifully! I'm hoping to have mine removed next month.
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October 26, 2017
Good luck to you!
October 26, 2017
What size were you before? Also what size implants did you have? I am in a similar situation. I got implants four and a half years ago which I thought were placed under the muscle. 425 and 450, I went to a consult with a different PS and he told me he thinks they are above the muscle which is frustrating. My explant is November 16th! We are a similar build and I was about a 34b at age 19 when I got them so I am hoping mine will end up like yours!
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October 26, 2017
Hi hajluper! I was a 32B pre- BA, and I cannot remember for sure how many CCs. I want to say 360. You just never know how you will look in the end, but I sure hope you are happy with your results. :)
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Day two post op

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Post op day two. Lefty is looking bigger and more fluffed than righty. They were never noticeably different sizes pre-BA, so I am hoping this is all part of the healing process, and they will even out when they are more fully healed.

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October 26, 2017
mine look different too...one is sagging and the other has a little ridge on the underneath side that is making it look more perked up but a bit distorted...ugh...we need to give it time. I think I am getting drains out tomorrow too...I hope. Yours look nice already though. I got my eyes done too and they have been bothering me way more than the boobs!
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October 26, 2017
OH! I hope everything will heal up well for you! From what I have seen of other ladies on here, it does seem things tend to straighten themselves out over time. So, I am trying not to be worried about anything not looking perfect yet!
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October 27, 2017
Omgosh day two and your breast already look great! 'fluffing' already! Maybe one fluffs bf the other ha I get mine out tom I cannot wait, I've hated them from day one. No drains here, leaving capsules in. Happy healing you look great on day 2!
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October 27, 2017
Hope it goes well for you today!
October 28, 2017
Hey have you noticed any improvements in sensitivity? Getting mine out in a couple weeks and I’ve had the same concerns about that.. you look great btw! And it’s only day two!
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October 28, 2017
Thank you so much! I am still waiting on sensitivity. I do think they are more sensitive. I feel more connected through my chest, if that makes sense. I used to feel like I had feeling, and then my breasts were just disconnected. Today I took a shower, and I could feel the water running across my nipple. That felt so good! I can't really say I have felt that in 11 years. I don't think they are completely as sensitive as they used to be yet, but they are also still sore and really squishy, so I still have hope all will reconnect more as they heal.
October 28, 2017
Wow! They're really looking good especially considering it's so soon after surgery. Wishing you all the best with your healing :)
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October 28, 2017
Thank you!