Open Procedure Cast off

Okay so, something you should know if you are going to do this procedure is it unleashes and array of emotions....ARRAY...I have been going threw it these last couple weeks...this Monday it will have been 3 full weeks... and I am now getting excited about my nose... The Doctor said that I would be excited because he surpassed the computer imaging.
My nose feels weird but it is healing really nicely... its swells randomly, sometimes I over do it and forget I just had a major surgery. I still sleep slightly elevated I think it help with the swelling and my nose feels weird when my head is turn all the way to one side horizontally as if its heavy, which is a weird feeling. Under my nose is still slightly red as if I had a cold or something and I have started rubbing scar gel on it to start diminishing of the scar...I posted some pic of before and after they are kinda misplaced...sorry.

So I added some pictures today...Please tell me your honest opinion...Do I look horrid

Okay so on Monday I got my cast taken off and I have been really unsure about my appearance...but let me start with I had an Open procedure I had internal and external stitches....I was soo nervous getting the stitches out but my husband held my hand get the ones on the tip taken out weren't painful but it stung slightly when he took them out and that was uncomfortable and I had internal splits that were huge I had no Idea they were in my nose...That was a little weird when they came out cause I had no Idea these huge surf boards were in my nose and then they barely fit to come out my nose...weird...anyways when they handed me the mirror I kinda just looked at myself and didnt really say anything my husband said it looked good..but I just didn't like what I saw to me it looked soooo narrow...I didn't want it that narrow, but as the days go by I am more content with it..but you have to realize you are fixing something on your face and you're used to seeing yourself a certain way and then all of a sudden it is different even if it is what you want you arnt used to seeing yourself a certain way...so as of right now I don't know if I love my nose...I know its different...but I don't know if its different in a good way..