51 - Having Explant April 12 !!!

Hi to all you great ladies with your loving support! I miss coming on here and reading and offering my support but I just haven't been able to. I am struggling each day trying to stay above water with my life situation. The pictures don't really show how I'm feeling. I have a constant nagging numb burning pain mostly on my right breast but my chest muscles are not agreeing with much movement these days so I keep saying to myself to try to rest and it will get better but I haven't seen a change in a week. When I poke myself it looks like water rippling so I don't know if I still have swelling. Other than trying to heal I'm trying to manage the move I have to make very soon, emotionally and physically. There are lawyers and bankers and movers and utilities and address changes... On and on and I don't feel well or strong. On top of that my mom who is 78 and has cancer is getting kicked to the curb by the older man she has been taking care of for 15 years. He's been a mean SOB to her but she always stayed to do his banking, phone calls cleaning cooking shopping.. Basically a slave. Lately she has been going downhill physically tired and memory problems and I guess she's not that useful anymore to him so he called me to say he wants to live alone. Just when she needed him for something, he is wanting his freedom... So on top of trying to figure out my life after being married for 20 years, I also have to figure out what to do with my mom. She doesn't have much money so this will be hard... She smokes and has always since age 14 and will not or cannot stop so I can't have her live with me. On top of that my narcissistic husband is being true to his nature and not being fair about the split.. Financial stuff and comments. I'm really unable to see a happy future. I am so over feeling like I need to be everything to everyone. I feel guilty to think that I'm thinking of my own needs before my moms... I keep saying, " why does she have to be needing a new place to live just when I am trying to take my life back". Then I feel guilty because I don't know if she will even be here next year at this time. Then my sons girlfriend who is very sickly finds out her stomach muscle does not work anymore which means food cannot get out of her stomach. There is no cure and e mess are not working. She will have to live with a feeding tube in her which makes her not able to work because she is an X-Ray Technician and she is not allowed to work in the hospital with a feeding tube :(. On top of that she has always had female issues with cysts etc and was told she will never have children. I'm so sad for my son. Nee is such a good young man and he's going through all of this at age 24 :( I'm sad to say my daughters husband started drinking again... He had stopped for awhile but now is worse than before my darter says... My poor little granddaughter she's 4.5 yrs old and must know what's going on.. Well thank you if anyone is still reading.. I just had to get this out and I think it worked because worrying about how my breasts look and the fact that I have 0 sensitivity in them doesn't seem that serious... Thank god the implants are out. Even if I can't pack my things like I planned whatever, it's still better than having them in and being able to pack. So sorry I got carried away but I don't really have any outlets except my sister who is away gambling and losing more money as usual. I hope once I move on May 31, I'll have more time to come on here to encourage others who need support. I would love if anything I say can help anyone even a little bit!! Love and hugs to you ladies :) xxxxoooo

Ladies have any of you explanted then your breasts got firm and sore? They don't seem to be watery anymore the have a hard ridge in the cleavage area and feel firm inside . They are also tender and sore but numb. I don't know what in the heck is going on I'm just having tons if flashes of pain and if I lean on anything, pain! I d.ont want to call and complain to the Dr if this is normal but I'm really worried something my family has questioned Why I am so big but I don't know :-/. Help
Xxxxo

Hi all, I thought I would update my photos to see if anyone notices the swelling has gone down? I'm a bit worried because they have never been this full naturally. Maybe I'm not using enough compression but when I use the ace wrap with my sports bra I get pains. I'm getting stabbing pains right in the middle and on each side.
Today I had a sharp pain in my nipple... And... I have no sensation in either nipple but with the implants I had sensation in the right one only. Has this happened to anyone? I know some say that the sensation returned but when did you ladies notice it??
Wouldn't that be crappy if no sensation came back on either side :(.
Did anyone have little stabbing pains after surgery past day 4? Now I'm making myself worried that something is wrong.
Also, after my shower when I don't have a bra on, I have a lot of jiggling and it looks like water balloons there's so much movement in there :-/
I have 8 more days until my follow up appointment!
Hope nothing is wrong..
Thanks for all the support I've received.. You women are fantastic!! Love ya's!! :) :) XxOO