36 Years Old, Four C Sections, 70 Pounds Lost, TT, MR, BA - Omaha, NE

So far I am just nervous and feeling guilty for spending so much money on something that feels so vain. Just waiting for the surgery to be over so I can come home and recover and return to life without this decision hanging over my head. Haven't started prepping really maybe because that will make it seem more real. Looking for a few things on Amazon today though, so maybe I am getting there =D

I have had to tell my mom because she will help with the kids, but am going to try and hide it from everyone but her and my husband. I just feel like it is a personal decision and I don't want to talk about any reservations anyone else might have.

I went in for a pre op yesterday and the nurse told me not to plan on doing anything for two weeks. She was pretty scary about how serious the recovery is. I'm hoping it won't be as bad as she made me feel like it would be. There are such varying reports of pain and discomfort. I won't know what mine is until I get there I suppose. I think the unknown is the worst part today. Gah!!

Went in today to review everything we are doing. Dr. Hollins is so awesome. He advised me that the safest thing to do right now is the tummy tuck and breast augmentation and then if, after those results, I want liposuction on my legs, he can help me there. I do appreciate that I have never felt like he is trying to upsell me on something. It feels real now.

I tried on my breast implants again and now tonight am wondering if I should go bigger. I am a 34 large A or small B. We talked about doing 320cc saline on one side and 350cc saline on the other side. I would like to just have full breasts, but I picture a full C or small D when it is all settled and done. I am going to try to call on Monday and see if the nurse will let me try one more size up to see how that feels to me.

Hopefully I am not the only one questioning things right up to the last second. Feels a little like being "that" patient ;-)

I ordered a bunch of things on Amazon, made a list of what I need to do around the house, made a list of things my husband has to know to get through next week without my input (seemed longer than it should be =D. So, it is definitely feeling real and really scary.

These support forums are the best things ever. I am going to get some before pictures up this weekend too!

Well, it is done. The day of is really all a blur. I remember very little after they wheeled me into the operating room.

The last two days have not been painful, there is definite discomfort there, but not pain. Getting in and out of bed is still the hardest part.

I think I am just having a bad day today because I am tired of being in bed and am questioning if I did the right thing in doing this to myself. I know it's normal, but by breasts feel to big and too high. Probably all part of the emotional roller coaster I read about.

I hope everyone is doing well!!!