Surgery Scheduled May 31st~ BUT FREAKING OUT a Bit! - Omaha, NE

2 week post op appt was today! I am actually doing alot better! The appt went well and it was the first time i actually 'liked' my doctor's attitude.I'm healing well! Cant wait to get back to work and i cant wait to excercise. I also am allowed to sleep on my side now AND without a bra, but 'baby steps'. I think i will TRY and sleep on my side WITH the bra and then when i feel comfy...without! I did'nt know, however, that it takes up to a YEAR TO HAVE FEELING IN MY BREASTS AND SIDES AND ARMPITS!!!! Ahhhhh, i HATE the numbness!!! My nipples are the only things that HAVE feeling. I also need to start using Vitamin E 2x a day. I really hope in the end of all this, i look normal. I am scared i will look super scarred. How am i supposed to be comfortable around a man in the future if i have big scars??? (i am going through a seperation/divorce) Anyhow, i will keep you updateD! HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING WELL!

This is WAY late, but i am now 14 days post op! WOW, was last week a pain in the ass!! I felt horrible the first 6 days after the surgery. Day 3 was the worst for pains and day 4 i remember being nautious ALL DAY! I cried alot. I HATE the sleeping on my back part! HOW LONG DO WE HAVE TO DO THAT??? Im just waiting to feel good again. Im up and at em' but i HATE the numb tight feeling in my chest. I just want this all to be over with honestly. The narcotics made me hallucinate by day 5 so i quit them and am just taking ibuprophen as needed. You Guys.... I HATED the first week recovery!!! I felt so lonely (even though my mom was there taking care of me). I figured something out, when you're in pain, the days are LOOOOOONG! Just to get 1/2 hour over with seemed like hours. My drains were in for 4 LOOONG days. My left side was PAINFUL! My drain site had little blood leaks and my left nipple bled a little after the surgery. I honestly think my bitterness comes from the fact that i HATED MY DOCTOR too!! But thats a whole other story. So i am now waiting to feel better and smoke again and go back to work after the 17th. ALSO, HOW LONG WILL MY SKIN BE NUMB! ITS LIKE ARMPITS DOWN! I HATE the feeling. Grrrr....ANYHOW, HOW ARE YOU GUYS?!?!? PLease share your experiance with me :)

Found out some new info! YAY! I was scared of the 'out of pocket' cost, but its not going to be too bad, plus i can do a payment plan. So, the big day is getting closer. I am ALSO A SMOKER...AHHHHHHHHHHH! I have till Thursday to kick the habit. The 31st is closing in. Wow, my nerves are shaky. Every day i wonder "Am i still gonna do this?"