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Scared of the outcome

Name: Scared of the outcome
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Author: SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

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I was always a petite person. Skinny as a rain and...

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIADecember 2, 2012

$1,000

I was always a petite person. Skinny as a rain and size 32A breasts. I grew up in a household with a mother who had natural 36D and always felt odd being so small. I had my daughter at 19 and loved when my milk came in the sight of slightly larger breasts. I dreaded getting into a wedding dress and not looking like I filled out the top of a dress and that is what motivated me to get my breasts done. My now husband was againts it but supported my impulsive decision because I was set on getting them before we got married. I wanted to get very small implants but my doctor talked me into going larger. I wanted a full B but ended up with a large C small D. I recieved silicone gummie implants under the muscle 300CC but had to go back and get my left breast re-done to a 350 CC as they were very uneven this was at the tender age of barley 20 and now at 26 turning 27 I HATE THEM! I feel like boobs mcgee in low cut shirts and feel like people just stare at them :( My husband never seemed to really like them and seemed to still prefer smaller breasts which really bothered me (we have since gone to counseling and what not) he tells me now he loves me the way I am because I have had them in most of our relationship but I year to be small-flat again. I went to the doctor who put them in and he told me I would be deformed and hate the look of my breasts after a removal. I dont expect them to be perfect but I want to be small breasted again and be myself! I feel like my fake boobs define me and I hate it. I cant even wear sports bras because it makes me feel like i cant breathe :( I found a lady in my area that does breast implant removal and I am going to make an appointment with her and hope to find her support. This will have to be done after income tax time in the spring but wish I could do it tomorrow! I am scared however of how they will look after they are removed but am hopefully based on others pictures that have motivated me and helped me not be so scared. Another thing I wanted to mention is I was diagnosed with lupus soon after I got my implants. I am not sure if it is related or not however I do not see how having these in my body are helping my situation... I would prefer to get them removed without a lift and see how they look in a year to see how they fluff up and settle. I would love advice and input. Also I am 5'2 and 117lbs now but pre-augmentation was 100lbs I would like to lose 10lbs but feel like my huge boobs get in the way of me doing so and make me appear fat :(

Replies (23)

Small Boobies 2010

December 3, 2012

So when is your surgery.

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

December 4, 2012

I do not have it scheduled yet :-( waiting till after the holidays to meet with a lady in my area and get some extra money... I am hoping for February...

brunette2007

December 5, 2012

Day 1 after the surgery. I'm fine, there is some pain/discomfort around incisions but I haven't taken any meds yet. I feel an incredible weight off my chest!!!

Small Boobies 2010

December 3, 2012

HI there is a support group called salinsupport on Yahoo. You most likely have lupus because of the implants. I am planning on removing mine after 7 years because i have left breast pain with back and shoulder pain and now i was told my liver enzymes are elevated. I really believe its due to the implants. I hope you feel better take care of your health.

ssookram

December 7, 2012

Yes, I have found a lot of good information on the yahoo site as well. Great bunch who will offer much wisdom and support

Angie_M

February 2, 2013

Hi ladies,

I would love to build up this community to offer the same sort of support. Would love any ideas you all have! Please PM me.

brunette2007

December 4, 2012

Hi there! I'm also petite and was 32A before augmentation. It's been almost 6 years since I got my saline 275cc over the muscle. I hate having them and can't wait be done with them. I've been contemplating getting them out for the last 5 years. I'm booked for explant today (in the afternoon) and the only thing I'm scared of is the actual procedure and the recovery. I don't care how they will look... I just want to be my small breasted real self!!! I breastfed my son and I'm sure they will be pretty ugly but somehow it just doesn't matter anymore! Good luck on making a decision :)

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

December 4, 2012

Let me know how it goes... I am currently looking for the right PS to do my removal as my original PS said I would be unhappy and they would look like crap however pictures on here have left me hopeful

brunette2007

December 4, 2012

Definitely. Just hope it goes well because I'm a nervous wreck right now!

2Newboobs

December 4, 2012

What made u start hating them after a year?

brunette2007

December 5, 2012

It's done this afternoon under local only!!!!! My original PS did it and he was better than I had expected, took care of me. I feel great but perhaps because I'm still frozen and feel nothing. I will let you know how it feels tomorrow.

ssookram

December 7, 2012

I just got explant 2 weeks and had all your same concerns, but no regrets. I instantly felt better and am now back to my true self and that feels so great. I think as we all take back our god given size we can reshape the new trend to be real and love ourselves. I am so tired of being bombarded with messages that I am not good enough just to make someone more money....I want my 6 yr old daughter to know she is good enough just the easy god made her..no modifications needed...

ssookram

December 7, 2012

I meant just the "way" god made her...

2Newboobs

December 4, 2012

Hi ladies I'm scheduled for an augmentation on Dec.28, 2012. Did you have any health issues before the augmentation? Did you ever have a rupture?

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

December 4, 2012

No rupture. No health problems prior. I could go on and on why I don't like them and how many problems they've given me physically and mentally. Don't get me wrong they are soft and nobody ever guesses I've had them done but I have grown out of it... I want my cute small boobs back :-/ VS makes great bras now to enhance and is a lot less dangerous and costly IMO

2Newboobs

December 7, 2012

I have a dresser full of push ups and VS bras. Every night I have to put my breast in a dresser drawer. I've always been this 34a/b or smaller. Is it the size that bothers u most? How long have u had lupus? Did u ever experience capsular contracture?

brunette2007

December 8, 2012

hi 2Newboobs! i had no rapture either and mine were soft, natural looking as well. no one ever asked me if i had some work done. i liked how they looked but always hated how they felt. my breasts were sensitive, i didn't want them be touched and eventually i started hating how they look. i became so irritable because i constantly felt these foreign objects in my body!!! there is just so many things... including health concerns that implants pose. also remember that they require maintenance like future surgeries, extra money and again, health risks. i have no doubt they make women sick. it's just not worth it! that was the biggest mistake i've made. i'm sure there are lots of satisfied women so you got to do what you think is right for you. best wishes and keep us posted how it goes!

Health1st

December 14, 2012

Hi 2newboobs, hooray for you on scheduling your surgery, it will come sooner than you realize... My implants were not ruptured but i did have some symptoms that am pretty sure were related to the implants palpitations, dry eyes and mouth, cold feet and nose, and the biggest one ~Fatigue. it may be too early to tell, but i find myself having to use less rewetting tears, and my feet are not cold like they used too. I am tired but its from the surgery 3 days ago... I am optimistic with some time ill be able to go dancing and work a full day without feeling exhausted... Let us kniw how it goes?

cma2000

December 7, 2012

I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I can honestly say I know what you feel! I have had my implants for 3 years this past October and can not wait to have tem removed. I wanted them so bad and was so excited that I didn't even care what my husband said and trust me its been a bad subect in my house. I did it anyways and listened to my doctor. Well actually he wanted me to go 650cc he said I had a large enough body structure to handle it. I am 5'9 about 160lb and have always had a pretty wide back. I was a 36 B before and I only wish I had been happy. I thought 650cc was to big so I went 550cc and afterward found out that was still to big. I ended up a 38DD. UGH! Well my surgery was in October 2009 and after that it started going down hill. I was healthy before he surgery and really started getting sick in April and was diagnosed with Lupus in June 2010. SInce then I have had Hypetension issues, been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, sjogrens, depression, anxiety, insomnia, and recently told I am showing signs of raynaulds disease. Talk about a life change. I have been battling the Lupus for 2 1/2 years now with no relief and only adding on more symptoms. I have gone through countless meds, injections, and even IV treatments. To top all that off last year I developed a capsular contracture, really? Which has made me regret my implants even more. I have discomfort from them and the CC causes it to distorted and bigger than the other. For those that want to know my Lupus was not caused from my implants. You are born with the gene that says you have Lupus or not, it just all depends on if it comes out or not, so wat I was told that the trauma of the implants to my body could of brought my Lupus out. That is not for sure what brought it out but a possibility, so what if I had never had them done? Would my Lupus be flarring now? Those are all questons that go through my head everyday. I wonder if I could have made it the rest of my life and not had it come out. I try to think that my implants didn't do it, especially since my grandmother had Lupus, so I try to think I was destin to have it flare, but who knows. Anyways I too want mine out and can not wait. Mine will hopefully be in Feb after taxes too. I am so scared of what I am going to look like afterwards, not so much the size but the distortion. I am hoping that I have enough left of my own to try to fill it out some. I am trying to figure out if I am going to need a lift or not. I am hoping not due to the extra scars it causes. My friend tells me those scars will be a reminder everyday of what I have battled and to learn from it, but that doesn't make me want them. I am scared because of my health issues that I might have complications. I just want this to be over with and to have them out and move on with my life. I am 36 and I just want to start feeling better and enjoy my life. I am hoping that having these foreign objects out of my body will help calm my Lupus. I just want my life back, my health has taken so much from it. I wish you the best of luck with yours and know you are not by yourself!

Godscreation

November 19, 2014

Hi I have lupus and I also got diagnosed with it 6 months after my surgery. The said it wasn't related but I don't know how it wasn't it was right after I got them and it doesn't run in my family. My implant ruptured and I have decided to take them out this Friday . Like you I also have headaches insomnia fatigue raynauds it's horrible! I hope this will be an answer prayer I can keep u posted

Godscreation

November 19, 2014

Did u get them removed

UPDATED FROM SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

3 months pre

So I am back! had two deaths in the family and...

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIAFebruary 10, 2013

So I am back! had two deaths in the family and while i've been reading everyone's updates and reviews I decided to take a seat... Anyway... I have been thinking of doing this for over a year now and while my original PS scared me from doing it (I would be deformed blah blah) after reading all of your stories it gave me strength to do what I think will make me healthier and feel better about myself. I am just so sick of being "fake" and hiding my boobs under big shirts. I tried to lay on top of my husband yesterday and it hurt so bad and they squished into my arm pits! just gross! While my boobs are soft for implants (silicone under the muscle) I want REAL SOFT BOOBS! lol! And I just want them to be small again! Oddly enough if I could be completely flat I would be happy! I think small boobs are so sexy and beautiful and I wish I didnt cave into what I thought others perceived as beautiful and sexy! I'm just ready to get this done with and even started talking to family members about wanting to do this.... my sister who is the same size I was said she wishes i could give them to her :'( it made me so sad! I told her small is beautiful and to never do what ive done to herself!!! I wish I could turn back time but I cant and just hope having them removed helps my health and feel better about myself... I am hoping because they are under the muscle and a crease incision I will have good results... I have been researching a PS nearby who has a lot of experience with reconstructive surgeries and even implant removal (listed on her site) I am planning on meeting with her in the next week or two. We are getting our tax return soon and will have the funds for the surgery however I am hoping it is no more than $3000? is that realistic? I am nervous as these stupid bags have been apart of me most of my adult life 19-27 but at the same time excited to be ME AGAIN! :)

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UPDATED FROM SALLYFROMCALIFORNIA

3 months pre

Well I just got back from my appointment with a...

SALLYFROMCALIFORNIAFebruary 26, 2013

Well I just got back from my appointment with a lady I have been waiting to meet with that does a lot of reconstructive surgeries etc. It went okay. I really liked her honesty. She was surprised being as young as I am that I want to do this. She does them mostly on women in 50's but thinks my skin will retract well, my nipples will be a little lower but not much and that I may be concaved due to the ribs changing with implants but my ribs will go back maybe up to a year but it will go back... She says I have very little breast tissue still so evidently I am all implant and will be very flat which I am okay with but she thinks I may not be and wont even have anything to push up... She thinks I should have the capsule removed as it will give me better results however it has to be done in the hospital and is a very huge price difference and will have to save up for at least 2 months. In office with no capsule removal, numbing shots and a few valium will cost $2,000 but she said if I was her sister or daughter she would recommend capsule removal/cleaning the area which in the hospital with general will be $4,700... I currently have $3,400 saved up but limited income so again it will take me at least 6-8 weeks to save and I also have to be 6 weeks tobacco free. Unfortunately this meeting left my husband scared that I will hate my results and have more self-esteem issues with my breasts and possibly even want to re-implant. While I feel confident in my wanting to do this but my mom is even saying it will be hard for me to go from having pretty big boobs to basically nothing... that's what I want though? why is everyone acting like that is crazy? I want to be like I was and while I know my boobs wont be exactly like they were they will be mine and I wont feel so uncomfortable and insecure about having these fake balloons in me. I'm just feeling emotionally drained....

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