24 Years Old, Been Wanting This Surgery for Years

So I'm finally going thru with this procedure after wanting it for YEARS! The only reason I'm booking it so soon is because Dr. Kabaker is retiring and January 11th was literally the only day they could book me before he's gone forever. I'm kind of glad though because it's forcing me to go thru it since I keep putting it off for different reasons. I know I really want the surgery done so I need to just do it.

I was originally going to go with Aharanov but I ultimately decided on Kabaker. He just has way more experience under his belt. Plus it's nice that he's cheaper! Dr. A quoted me around 10k.

I'm really nervous and scared after seeing some bad reviews but all the good ones are making me want to go for it anyway. I hate my forehead lol. I had a FaceTime consultation earlier today with Dr. Kabaker and he seemed really nice.

Cant believe its only 3 weeks away!

(Also I think I'll only post pictures after the surgery because I hate my forehead lol I'll just post it when I'm comparing before & after)

So I flew into SF yesterday and really wasn't nervous at all. Even Dr. K said I didn't seem nervous and asked if I had any questions and I didn't. I think I've just been wanting this done for so long I'm just ready to have it done and over with already. But now it's the day of surgery and for some reason I woke up so early (5:30 am) and my surgery isn't until 10:30! This is exactly why I didn't want to wake up too early because I knew I would spend the whole morning obsessing and making myself more and more nervous lol. I think I'm mostly nervous about the results. Like I don't want my hairline to be too low because that could make me look weird, but I also don't want it to be too high and then feel like there isn't even much of a difference. Dr. K did draw a line on me though and I thought it looked good and I like that he followed my natural shape because it looked natural. He said any lower might make my face shape look weird and my hairline too straight across.

I still haven't posted any pictures because I hate my current forehead and don't want to post it lol. But I'll be taking pictures throughout this process and probably upload them when I see my new forehead.

I just hope everything goes smoothly and I hope I love my results because I've wanted this done for so long. And Dr. Kabaker is retiring so it's not like I can go back to have him change anything if I don't like something. So yes I am nervous! I keep reading other reviews on here and it's both helping and making me more nervous lol so I think I'll try to get my mind off of it by watching TV or reading.

Oh and another thing I'm not looking forward to is flying back. Like am I going to look crazy with a big scar? I have headbands with me to wear but I feel like I look funny in them. I've just gone my whole life with bangs so it'll be weird to not wear them in public. I just don't know what to expect really and I think I'm starting to overthink everything lol. I also am annoyed I woke up so early because I can't eat or drink anything! I'm hungry and thirsty lol and I still have 4 more hours until my surgery. Hopefully I can relax until then.

So my surgery is done and everything went surprisingly smoothly. I feel perfectly fine and haven had any pain really or nausea. I took some pain meds a few hours ago but they didn't make me sleepy or anything and I still don't feel pain. I've just had a cold compress on my eyes/forehead below my bandages and then behind my neck (rotating). One of Dr. K's doctors called to see how I was doing and asked if I had any questions earlier which was nice.

Really the only thing that's different is my head is numb and I can't raise my eyebrows. I was expecting this though. I know the nurse showed me my results with a mirror but I was still out of it from the anesthetia so I don't really remember it. But they gave me a picture to take home that shows my results and I think I like them!

But what's kind of funny to me is the nurse told me I was talking to her during my surgery lol! She said she couldn't understand what I was trying to say and she upped the dosage of the anesthetia and I think that made me shut up lol. Thank god cause who knows what i was trying to say. I don't remember any of it though.

I'm excited to get the bandages off tomorrow so I can see my new forehead! I thought I would be all self conscious about my head being wrapped all crazy but honestly I'm just so happy this surgery is done that I dont care at all. People were looking at me funny but whatever.. for all they know I could've had some serious brain surgery or something, lol!